True Faces

DISCLAIMER: A bunch of Yu-Gi-Oh! cards and a crappy old videotape is about all I own that's related to the series. And, not even I am stupid enough to expect payment for my writings, so... no need to worry about financial benefits, alright? Be generous and PLEASE don't sue me, all you might get are my cards... and I couldn't live without my baby dragon T_T


This is dedicated to Ykarzel who challenged me in creativity and thus helped me turn this fic into one I actually feel good about.

I also want to thank Oni_Kitsune who helps so much with everything, especially the question whether my lemon is realistic. ^ ^


TRUE FACES

If you want a lover
I'll do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
I'll wear a mask for you
If you want a partner
Take my hand
Or if you want to strike me down in anger
Here I stand
I'm your man

(Leonard Cohen – excerpts of ‘I’m your man’)


He looked around and couldn’t believe he was here voluntarily. He knew how Anzu’s parties always ended with their little group of four listening to girly music or watching some sappy flic - no matter how many people had been there in the first place and how cool the party had started out. But this time, he had a plan.

Anzu’s idea of having a costume party when her parents were out of town was one of her best ever. Inviting some friends and half of their class including Seto Kaiba (out of friendship reasons as Anzu had argued while Honda had gone berserk) was even a better idea.

Jou sighed. No one knew about his secret crush on the brunett, but maybe Anzu had sensed it. He didn’t ask though. And anyway he was really thankful for getting this chance tonight. One dance with Seto Kaiba, which was more than he had ever dreamed to get.

Looking down his silly bear costume he decided the masquerade was worth it. It didn’t matter that it looked ridiculous, the most important thing was that Seto wouldn’t be able to see his face or features and recognize him. Kaiba’d never dance with him if he knew it was Jou. The only problem was to find the brunett. Maybe he was already here and so dressed up that Jou would never be able to make him out.

Just before Jou got a chance to panick at that thought, he spotted Mokuba entering the room, dressed up as a pirate. That was his chance! He stopped the boy in the middle of the room.

“Hey Mokuba, how’s it goin’?”

The kid looked up at him and frowned, then recognizing the familiar voice he asked: “Jou?”

“Yeah. Don’t tell anyone!” Jou made a mental note, not to speak as soon as he found Kaiba; his voice seemed to be a dead giveaway. “I’m an acorn eater.”

Mokuba stared at him, as if he had lost his mind and then suddenly chuckled.

“Incognito” he corrected.

“Yeah, whatever. “ Jou made an attempt to scratch his head and failed thanks to the huge bear head on top of his own. As if he wasn’t nervous enough already. He reminded himself to keep an indifferent voice. “So… uhm… where’s Kaiba?”

Mokuba looked around and suddenly had a guilty expression on his face. “He couldn’t make it. Too much work.”

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Kaiba entered the room just after placing his brother’s jacket on the coat rack and looked around the various costumes to find his puppy – which was not as easy as he had imagined.
He spotted Mokuba talking to some giant teddy bear.

Maybe his brother had seen the blond.

He didn’t want to lose any time searching for the mutt. He had spent days plotting how to get Jou to dance with him, figuring that the blond would never do so voluntarily; not with himself. So the conclusion, to hide his identity, had reached Seto easily. And Anzu’s invitation (or rather blackmailing Anzu into having a costume party and inviting him over) was just the perfect chance to push his idea into action. Thus his embarrassing outfit. Zorro. Good thing no one would recognize him.

When he had asked Mokie to help him find a costume that wouldn’t give him away, the kid had been incredibly eager to do so. He had hidden Seto’s piercing blue eyes behind a black mask and his soft brown hair under a black wig that ended in a short ponytail. Then he had forced him to wear incredibly tight pants and an extra loose cream shirt.
Disturbing. But it worked. Not one of his classmates had adressed him as Kaiba yet.

He gave Mokuba a questioning look when the kid turned around and looked over at him.
The boy didn’t answer though, but the bear talking to him suddenly took off his head and reavealed a blond mop of hair that made Seto’s heart speed.

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Jou looked at Mokuba and tried to hide his disappointment.

“Hey, why did you take your head off, I thought you were incognito?” Mokuba asked.

“Changed ma mind. This costume sucks anyway…” Jou explained and, decided to go outside and think about the pain that came along with Mokuba’s answer. He just left the boy standing where he was and muttered something like “See ya.”

Mokuba watched Jou leave towards the door and managed to shake his head at his brother in condemnation for the lie Seto had made him tell. He wasn’t sure if he noticed it though, because Seto was busy stopping the blond right in his tracks, stretching out an inviting hand and offering Jou a dance.

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The blond was so in thought that he almost bumped into the guy that suddenly stood right in front of him. All in vain. Kaiba wasn’t even there. Jou felt so miserable at the thought of all of his plan shattered, he didn’t even notice how he accepted the hand offered to him and the other pulling him into a dance.

It was his own fault though. Why did he have to have a crush on the guy anyway? Kaiba of all people. It had been clear from the very beginning that he less than despised Jou. To Kaiba he just wasn’t worth thinking about. Was there any treatment that’s more humiliating? Jou suddenly got mad at himself for being so stupid to fall for the guy. No, he wasn’t mad. He was furious.

And then, he made a decision. He’d move on. No fucking way he would ever waste another thought on that arrogant prick again!

Kaiba had been surprised that Jou so willingly agreed to dance with him but of course hadn’t objected. But now, watching the blond he noticed how Jou didn’t even look at him, he seemed all caught up in his thoughts and his expression had changed from pain to anger.

Stupid Kaiba didn’t even deserve him, Jou decided. There were tons of people who did and wanted the blond. And suddenly he made up his mind and chose to make them happy. Any of them. Just so Kaiba could see how Jou wasn’t interested in him at all. Jou’d just find someone else he could give all his love to. And then, while swinging around, he noticed he had already found someone and the guy dancing with him didn’t even know yet how lucky he was.

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Kaiba immediately sensed the change in Jou’s conduct. The blond glanced up at him and gave him a seductive smile.

Seto almost tripped, but prevented it just in time to catch another smile combined with a suggestively raised eyebrow and a professional swing of hip. That was the second the cold and self-confident CEO was thrown back to be just some normal hormone ridden teenager. He couldn’t even waste a thought on the question of why Jou was behaving so untypically, this was all just going way too fast for Seto to catch up; all he could do was follow.

And follow he did. Not only by pressing his sudden arousal against Jou’s inviting body, but also by taking Jou’s hand that unexpectedly reached out and pulled Seto along. Without further warning the blond made his way out of the room.

Yeah, it would happen tonight, Jou realized. And it was Kaiba’s own fault that the brunett couldn’t be part of it. He didn’t need to show up? Ha! Katsuya Jounouchi was about to give away all of his love for free tonight. And he didn’t even care to whom. The guy at his hand was a stranger, obviously looking for a nameless one night stand. But that didn’t matter; all that mattered was that it’d be Jou to carry the triumphant smile on his face in school on Monday. He would show Kaiba that he didn’t care about his pathetic insults anymore, because Jou would secretly know what Kaiba had missed!

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Opening the first door in reach, Jou pulled the two of them into a rather big but barly lit bathroom and locked the door behind them. Then he immediately started rubbing his body against the other’s and began to unbutton the stranger’s shirt.

Alright, this was going way to fast. Kaiba was almost scared at the speed that Jou was setting.
What was going on with the blond? He looked so aggressive and destined that Seto started to worry. However, before he could think about it any further, Jou had lowered his head to Kaiba’s neck and started nuzzling his soft skin. There was no way for Kaiba to make any comprehensive thought with an army of butterflies in his stomach and bumblebees under his skin.

Stupid Zorro Shirt in his way! Jou would laugh at Kaiba’s fucking sexy smirk. He wouldn’t blush anymore when that arrogant jerk decided to take of his shirt before gym class and reveal those hot muscles underneath. He ripped open the shirt in front of him and threw it to the side, still sucking and biting the shivering skin under his mouth. That ass! No more rosy cheeks on Jou’s side from now on, he would simply ignore that perfect chest of Kaiba’s. He plunged down onto one of the stranger’s nipples, sucking it so hard that the other could merely gasp. Jou didn’t even listen to him though.

Kaiba couldn’t believe what was going on in the dim room. Evertime he managed to worry about Jou’s motives the blond did something to his body that made it impossible for Seto to resist. So he finally just went along with it, and removed the bear costume, Jou’s shirt and jeans while raining down kisses onto the blond’s revealed skin. Then he hurriedly got rid of his own pants, worried that Jou might rip them apart if he wasn’t fast enough. The only articles of clothing remaining on were Kaiba’s mask and wig which seemed of little interest to the blond. It was incredibly hard to catch up on Jou’s speed but thanks to that speed they were both naked in less than a minute.

Not that the blond noticed though. All he could think of was how Kaiba would wonder what had happened that made Jou all indifferent to his little pitifull attempts to hurt the mutt. But then it would be too late. And Kaiba didn’t deserve it any better.

With some last piece of mind left Kaiba grabbed for a random bottle on the sink, thanking the heavens it was lotion, before Jou pulled him down on top of him onto the rug covered floor. All Kaiba knew was that he needed to prepare Jou before he couldn’t hold himself back anymore and hurt the boy out of pure mind numbing lust.

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When he entered his first lotion covered finger into Jou’s willingly offered entrance, Seto couldn’t believe he had come here for a dance and ended up getting this! And the blond didn’t even seem to notice the intrusion. He just kissed Seto’s already bruised lips with a vehemence that was close to fury. So Seto, helpless against the need he felt escalating inside his body and especially inside his groin, inserted another finger, just to be met with Jou’s angry thrust onto his hand.

The blond was going to get hurt if he didn’t stop this furious pace. Seto tried to wait patiently and then stretch him but only partially managed to since Jou ordered a ferocious “More!”

No more! No more would Kaiba get the better of him. He was so over the brunett. Jou almost laughed out victoriously. He was going to get laid tonight and forget about Kaiba forever.

Seto obeyed, carefully as possible shoving in a third finger. He didn’t understand why Jou was so fierce - almost bitter. But he was way past doing anything about it now. He would make love to him all night if that was what Jou needed. But inside Seto knew, actually it was himself who needed it. And he was too close to getting it to be able to stop now and think about the blond’s reason for being so worked up.

Seto stretched Jou’s entrance further and knew the boy was about as ready as he could get.
He stroked Jou’s walls one last time and incidentally brushed over the boy’s weak spot just to see the blond gasp and let go of Seto’s shoulders to which he had clung to during his wild kisses. Staring at the ceiling with wide eyes Jou moaned out a defeated “Seto!”

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Kaiba stared down at the boy underneath him, pulled back his fingers and froze in shock.
Had Jou known it was him all along? Had Mokuba given him away back in there?
No, he wouldn’t. But then what was going on here?

Seto, incapable of doing anything, just watched as Jou pulled away and crawled back until he sat in the opposite corner of the room, his knees pulled up and his arms slung around them protectively.

“I’m sorry…” Jou whispered. And Seto really didn’t get what was happening. “I shouldn’t… I… I didn’t mean to ruin your evening… it’s just…I didn’t want to say his name… I didn’t mean to…”

Jou burst into sobs but Seto was still far too confused about everything to actually do something.

“See… I’m in love with this guy… but… Kaiba’d never even care… so I thought I’d just get over him …and… and…” Jou’s voice almost broke while speaking on, “ I should have known it wouldn’t work.”

Seto simply stared at the other, watching him burry his face in his arms and start to cry. For the genius that he was, it sure took him long to catch up on to the fact that Jou had just told him about his feelings towards him and on the irony of the blond not even knowing whom he was talking to.

In a rush Seto yanked off his mask and wig and crawled over next to Jou, laying a supportive hand onto his shoulder.

Jou almost panicked. He couldn’t. Why did the guy touch him now. Hadn’t he made it clear that it had been a mistake?

“Don’t touch me!” he hissed, fighting the other away.

What on earth had he been thinking? Jou wanted to hide somewhere. He felt so dirty. Giving himself away out of anger. As if that could lessen the pain. If only they other would have just left now. Alone. He needed to be alone so he could understand that he actually was. He needed to deal with his disappointment. In some normal way. Not by having someone fuck him.

Why didn’t the stranger leave just now? Jou felt himself pulled into a pair of warm arms and being rocked back and forth like a baby. The guy stroked his hair comfortingly when all Jou wanted to do was scream and run away.

“Don’t!” he hissed again and fought against the still highly aroused body pressed against him.

And then he looked up.

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Kaiba could see the shock in Jou’s eyes. Then realization sinking in.

The blond looked so adorable right now; even more than he had while giving Seto the come-on. The brunett would have kissed Jou if it hadn’t been for his fear of giving the blond a heart attack or something. Then, however, he decided Jou was a tough one, he’d survive it.

Jou’s wide eyes flew shut when he simply tried to enjoy now and be confused later.

‘OhBoyOhBoyOhBoy!’ Trying didn’t help, confusion swept through his mind and was threatening to make it explode. Jou had to open up his eyes again and make sure he wasn’t hallucinating.

Yeah, he was still there. Kaiba. It was really him. Only an inch from his face, still touching his lips.

‘God! I danced with him!’, Jou suddenly recalled joyfully and then noticed with horror that he hadn’t even payed attention. He had finally gotten the one thing he had been waiting for the last couple of years and when it had happened his mind had been absent. He had been busy with his anger and his pathetic attempt to take revenge. He had…

‘Hell, I behaved like a complete slut!’ he realized in shock, reliving his cheap dancing moves and experiencing a whole new feeling of complete embarassement. He hadn’t been aware of the music or the people around them, not even the important one in front of him. And then it had taken him less than two minutes to pull Seto out of the room into some random sex hideout.

‘SEX!’ Jou’s mind screamed totally overtaxed, ‘I was going to have sex with him!!!’

Again he stared at Kaiba, who’s lips still trembled on Jou’s, all passionate and tender at the same time, and who’s arms embraced him like a fragile treasure.

‘Oh my gosh! So tender! He’s a saint!’ Jou was going crazy. He panicked at the thought of himself ripping off Kaiba’s shirt, ‘He’s a saint and I… I tried to… God, I almost…’

When Kaiba let go of him Jou’s horrified eyes travelled down from Seto’s face over his upper body towards his belly and…

‘He’s NAKED! Oh my gosh, why is he naked?!’ Jou was sure his mind was trying to fill in the gaps created by his temporary mental chaos by letting him relive the last couple of minutes, but his brain could try as hard as it wanted, nothing could really distract Jou from the amazing sight next to him.

‘Kaiba’s naked…’ was all Jou could repeat in his head, trying to take in as much of this view as he could, not yet daring to touch the other. And then, all of a sudden, he became aware of something else because he litterally felt it: ‘He’s naked and… he’s hard!’


When Seto pulled away again, it took Jou a while to regain focus on the brunett asking him something.

“Huh?” was all he could get out still admiring Seto’s amazing body, wishing he could explore it and make up for all his pushy moves from before.

“I was asking whether I’m allowed to finish what we started.” Seto explained.

Jou nodded in shock and exitement and allowed Kaiba to pull him back onto the rug, spreading his legs.

“Wait!” the blond interrupted. “I need to tell you something first…”

Seto simply looked at him, patiently waiting.

“The way I behaved a couple of minutes ago… I…I shouldn’t have.” he hesitated when he saw Seto’s hurt look. “Not what we did! Don’t get me wrong!… Rather HOW I did it… I was so…”

“Angry?” Jou blushed at Seto’s suggestion and nodded. Seto just brushed his hand over the blond’s cheek and smiled. “I noticed.”

“I was so stupid. I almost ruined it…” he was close to crying.

Seto leaned down and kissed Jou’s lips tenderly. “And then you saved it.”

Before Jou could answer, Seto kissed him again, then said: “No regrets, okay.”

Jou nodded thankfully.

“So now… do you still want this?” Seto asked almost shyly, and Jou nodded again.

Seto smiled, coated his length with lotion and started raining kisses down Jou’s chest and belly.

This was good. So much better than the sick pace he had set, which hadn’t even allowed him to notice Seto’s breathtaking caresses. Not that Jou wasn’t all aroused already. He was on the brink of going insane. But this was so wonderful! Jou brought his hands up to Seto’s neck, gently caressing his sweaty skin. Then he dared looking into the other’s eyes, his own filled with love and passion. He couldn’t take back what he had done before, but he could give himself to Seto the way his soon to be lover deserved it; give him what Jou really was, give him the innocent (okay, so maybe not exactly innocent) virgin that almost burst with love for him.


And then Seto, fully awary of the change in Jou’s lovemaking, moved in gently at first, then working himself slowly into Jou, closing his eyes as he felt the sensations Jou’s hot and tight sleeve caused him.

Jou gasped at the sudden pain and grabbed Seto’s arms, forcing the brunett to open his eyes again and look at him. He was glad when Seto reacted right away keeping still until Jou had adjusted to the unfamiliar sting. After a while Jou accustomed to the new feeling and thrust his hips down onto Seto, signaling that he was ready to go. And Seto obeyed.
He pulled out while stroking Jou’s shivering abdomen and then pushed in again, catching the blond’s lips in a demanding kiss.

They found a different pace and kept thrusting hip against hip without ever leaving each other’s mouth. But Jou knew he was close.

When Seto’s hand suddenly left his belly, the blond felt it run around his shaft. Kaiba didn’t even give him the time to enjoy the feeling; he just started stroking Jou in a gifted technique and at the same time, whenever he pushed into the blond’s body, aimed for the spot that would make the blond scream.

Jou knew it was only a matter of seconds until his body would give up and thus grabbed Seto’s shoulders to have something he could cling to, never missing Seto’s loving and understanding smile as the brunett felt his hands. And then, finally, Seto found the spot again and made Jou crash over the edge.

Feeling his love’s seed spilled over his hand, Jou’s body tense up beneath him and muscles clenching around him, Seto couldn’t hold back. He followed Jou, pouring his liquid into his lover’s core and let out a low exhausted groan. Seto barely managed to pull out of Jou before collapsing next to him on the floor.

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Like this they lay there for a couple of minutes, both fighting to regain their breaths. Jou was trying to figure out what had just happened and Seto was trying to regain the self-confident attitude he had lost somewhere in the party room.

Jou stared at the ceiling, attempting to understand that Seto Kaiba had just… He couldn’t even find a word that seemed to fit. He just felt completely filled with contentment.

And then, all of a sudden, it all came back, all the worries and fears and panics and doubts. Why on earth had Kaiba slept with him?

Not daring to turn his head over so he could take a look at the brunett, Jou suddenly remembered Kaiba to be the stranger looking for some meaningless fuck.

What if he still was? What if a one night stand was all Kaiba had been after? What if, in a couple of minutes, he would turn his icy eyes at him and tell him that for a worthless mutt he had been a pretty good lay, but now it was time to piss off?

It was amazing how his mind switched from totally content to freaking out completely, but he couldn’t help it.

“Se… Kaiba?” Jou whispered; scared. “What we did… does it mean anything to you?”

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Kaiba’s head turned towards him and there was an indignant expression on his face at that question. Then the brunett got up and motioned Jou to get dressed quickly while he himself put his pants back on as well. Jou did as he was expected, figuring bitterly this was his answer.

However, when Jou – omitting the bear costume - was back in his jeans again Kaiba turned around and ordered in his usual arrogant tone:

“You will sleep at my place tonight. And don’t you dare even consider waking up anywhere besides in these arms, mutt. It’s a shame you don’t know me any better, really. If you did, you would know that I don’t do things half ass, especially not with the person I’m in love with! Now, since you are mine you’re going to behave like it, so get your ass out there and dance with me like a boyfriend is supposed to!”

Jou inhaled to have enough air so he could yell at Kaiba and his autocratic tone but then stopped right in his tracks when he realized he had just heard a declaration of love. A weird one, sure. But it was a hundred percent Kaiba and a hundred percent true. And understanding this, Jou realized it was better than anything he had ever dreamed of.

The anger was gone and replaced with a smile that not only covered his face but also filled his whole body. And like this, Jou took Kaiba’s hand and nodded.

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EDIT: thanks, it's working now ^^

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