Keeping Secrets

Sorry I can’t update any quicker, I am a single mum, who works a full time job running a printroom for a legal school, so I have a very busy RL. My son is only just coming up to 7 and his father lives in another state, no help there!. This is my pleasure, writing, which I only get to do when he’s asleep. I usually have the time to update on Tuesdays. On weekends, I have Yugioh on tv, at 9pm! So that night is useless and the other anime everything stops for is on Monday nights, that being Ghost In The Shell SAC 2nd Gig. (When I lust over Togusa, then Saito.) So I hope you like this next bit, I gotta go and fill out a census form!

Keeping Secrets continued….


Seto lifted the bowl from in front of Yugi who was sitting back rubbing his stomach.

“That’s the most I’ve eaten in a long while.”

“You shouldn’t have been avoiding it.”

“Oh, I couldn’t help it, the dreams… well, they usually made me sick. So I suppose I got to the point where I thought the less I ate, the less I’d get sick.”

“I see,” said Kaiba.

“I… I’m awfully tired Kaiba, could you help me get back to bed… I’ve been having trouble… walking lately.”

“I saw,” he said coming over to the smaller young man, he helped him from the chair , but because of the difference in their heights, it was hard to help him with an arm over his shoulder. Instead he opted for picking him up instead. “Gods. You are so light.” He helped him settled into the bed. “Is there anything you need?”

“No. I’ll be fine… I hope.”

“I’m going to take a shower.”

“Good night Kaiba.” Yugi’s eyes were already closing.

“Night, Yugi.”

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He heard the cries in the darkness which brought him awake. They surprised him. He was too used to his own bad dreams waking him up. He quickly got up and threw on his robe and moved to the other room.

Yugi was tossing and turning, crying out as if he were being attacked.

“Shit,” said Kaiba and he moved to the bed. He was a little unsure of what to do, but in the end he decided it would be best to wake Yugi up. He reached out to his shoulder and tried to gently awaken him, calling his name. Yugi almost screamed as he came awake with a jolt.

His eyes were wide as they took in the fact that Kaiba was there in front of him. “Oh Gods, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to wake you.”

“I reckon it might have been the other way if I’d have stayed in my own dream.”

“Really? Oh no,” stopped Yugi, “I’m gonna be –“

Kaiba grabbed the bucket that was beside the bed, the doctor must have put it there, knowing how Yugi’s dreams had an effect on him. Yugi threw up in it. Kaiba found himself trying to soothe the other’s back, as he held the bucket in front of him.

Finally Yugi fell back on the bed, exhausted. Kaiba got the bucket out of the way quickly and grabbed a face washer from the ensuite between their rooms. He hurried back to the bed and wiped the mess from Yugi’s face.

“Better?”

“Yes, you’ve had practice.”

“With Mokuba, yes.”

“Thank you.”

“It’s nothing.”

“Yes it is.”

They were silent for a time, Seto sitting on the edge of Yugi’s bed.

“Do you have the dreams often?”

“Every night. They’re always so vivid. So real. The nurses at the hospital got used to it, one would usually be in my room ready for what just happened. I wish it would end. I want so much to go home.”

“I dream every night too. But the dream is always the same. I’m watching those four bastards rape me.”

“You’re watching, not participating?”

Kaiba nodded.

“But mine are the other way, I’m participating, they doing it to me, or to you, or both.”

“Both?”

Yugi nodded.

“You don’t have to feel guilty about not being able to help me. I’m glad you didn’t. You would not have liked what they did. They would have hurt you worse than they hurt me. It wasn’t your fault, Yugi. We were both in the wrong place at the wrong time.” Without thinking he reached out and pushed the limp blonde hair away from Yugi’s eye where it had caught in his lashes. “Try and go back to sleep.”

“I’ll try, but I hate being alone.”

“You do?”

“If I were at home, I –I’d ask Yami to… to stay with me.” He closed his eyes trying to relax. He felt Seto get up to go. Well, he thought he had gone until he felt the other side of the bed dip.

“Kaiba?”

“Go to sleep. I don’t want to be alone tonight either.” He said as he wrapped himself in the blankets and turned away from Yugi.

Yugi smiled to himself and felt himself drift off. Kaiba also found himself going off.

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Yugi had woken up alone, but in bright sunshine.

“Breakfast is ready,” came the voice of Doctor Toriyama. “Did you sleep well?”

“Uh, kinda. I still got sick last night.”

“Really?”

“Yes. Kaiba… helped me. Where is he?”

“A shower. He’s been having more lately than he usually does.”

“Is he going to be all right?”

“He will, eventually. So will you.”

Yugi shook his head, “I threw up again. I feel like I’m not getting anywhere and I want so much to go home.”

“Yes, but you ate more last night than you have in a while. I told you this would be good for both of you, and I can already see that it is having an effect on you both. I didn’t say it would happen over night, but it will happen.”

Yugi nodded.

“Now come and eat, I think Kaiba’s there now. Do you need a hand?”

“No, I think I can do it on my own.”

“Good. I’ll leave you to it then.”

“You’re not staying?”

“No. I’ll check on you later. I’ve got a game on down stairs.”

“Game?”

“Your friend is teaching me how to play that game of yours. I want to get back to it.”

The doctor disappeared and Yugi carefully got himself out of bed and only a little unsteadily made his way into the dining room.

Kaiba turned from where he was piling up a plate and watched Yugi make his way to the table.

“Would you like me to get you something?” asked Kaiba.

“Oh, yeah, that would be good,” said Yugi realising he should have got his food first. But his strength was giving out.

“What would you like?”

“It doesn’t matter, anything. Actually I’m a little hungry today.”

“That’s good.” Kaiba got a good breakfast together for Yugi and took it to where he was sitting.

“I don’t know if I could eat all that.”

“Give it a try, anyway.”

“Ah ha.”

They ate in silence.

Afterwards Kaiba got up to clear his plate away. He went to get Yugi’s.

“I thought you said you couldn’t eat all I gave you?”

“What?” Yugi looked down at his near empty plate. “Wow. I ate it all.” He smiled.

Kaiba smiled too, “Maybe we’re getting somewhere. Where’s the doc, I thought I heard him before.”

“Downstairs, apparently he’s learning to play Duel Monsters from Yami.”

“Not your usual shrink, is he?”

“No. What should we do then?”

“We are not playing like they are. I’ve had enough of your beating me.”

“How do you know I’ll always beat you, especially when it’s just for fun. Or have you ever played just for fun?”

“I play to win.”

“I don’t.”

“No. I don’t want to play.”

“What about something else then?”

“All that’s up here is a Playstation and a few old games.”

“That sounds like fun.”

Seto helped Yugi get comfortable on a couch in front of where the Playstation 2 was set up and for the next couple of hours, they did indeed enjoy fighting each other. In fact they went back to it after lunch.

When Doctor Toriyama came up for his check in, he found them fighting away and having a wonderful time. Both were intent on out doing the other in some kind of car chase, but having a ball doing it. He left them alone. The sound of their laughter following him down the hall way.

Finally the game came to an end.

“Gods, that was fun, Kaiba. You should loosen up more often.”

“I don’t have a lot of downtime.”

“But you should, you can’t work all the time. And you don’t have to, you’re rich enough to let go every once in a while.”

“Now who’s being the shrink here?”

“I’m not being a shrink, I’m being a friend.”

“You still think of me as a friend?”

“Yeah, sure. Why else would you do all this for me?”

“I’m not doing it all for you.”

“Maybe not all for me, but you didn’t have to help with the bills and all.”

“It was my fault.”

Yugi moved closer on the couch and touched Kaiba on the arm, “No, like you said it wasn’t my fault that I couldn’t help you. It’s not your fault about what I did. I was hurting and I wanted it to stop. But it wasn’t your fault that I was hurting. Sure I kept it all in, which wasn’t good, hasn’t been good for you either. And I got caught in the storm that night, which made me get sicker, that didn’t help me. But it is not your fault and I don’t want you to say it again. And I promise that I won’t either.”

Kaiba actually laughed. “You think maybe the doc thinks we’re both masochists?”

Yugi laughed as well, “Maybe. I’m hungry, is it dinner time yet?”

“Should be, let’s go see.” He helped Yugi up and they slowly made their way back to the dining room.

Later after their meal and Kaiba had taken another shower, he came back to find Yugi already in bed. He’d eaten a full meal that night.

“Good night, Yugi.”

“Ah Kaiba?”

“Hmm.”

“Will you… could you… stay?”

Kaiba froze.

“Maybe the dreams won’t come, if you do.”

Without a word he made his way to the other side of Yugi’s bed and got in.

“Thank you.”

“It’s nothing.”

“Yes it is.”

Kaiba thought he’d heard that before.

But when he woke up in the morning after the most restful night he’d had in a long while, it didn’t seem to matter. In fact nothing seemed to matter, even getting up to have a shower, could wait.
He turned over to see Yugi was still asleep. He had made it through the night without a bad dream too. Maybe the doc was not such an idiot after all. Maybe their being together was really good for them. And maybe he’d give it a bit longer before he put his foot down. He closed his eyes and without knowing he went back to sleep.

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fixed doubling!
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