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They say it takes 21 days for a habit to form. Being raped every night had been going on for 46 days now. I wondered how it would feel to miss a day.

Would I notice? Would I be happy? Would my body crave it? I worried it might.

I’m not saying my body got used to being hurt. I don’t think any amount of days can make pain go away. But I couldn’t deny that it had got used to the idea of receiving it.

And I’d learned to cover the marks and remnants of the night before…

But do you ever watch other people and they just seem so untroubled? While you, you hold this ugly, heavy burden inside you that feels like its eating away at you. And you’re the only one. You’re all alone. You can never be like those happy people. It wasn’t meant for you. And seeing them…seeing that people out there can live like that. Live happily, just makes the weight feel that much heavier.

And you could never understand how those other people feel. And you have to learn to accept that.

But it never becomes easier. It never seems okay for the world to go on like that.

Ignoring your screams. Ignoring your pain. That the world can just go on like nothing has changed. Where no one can hear you and no one cares.

Nobody cares.

I was failing most of my classes by this point. I’d missed too much school while I waited for the worst of the cuts to heal. I could explain bruises for clumsiness but deep cuts were another. Burn marks were hard to justify.

The worst of it all was a group project had been assigned and now I’d have to explain why we couldn’t meet at my house. And being paired with Yugi would be hard. He always asked too many questions. It was always he that would first notice bruises or cuts and ask about them. If he got too close, if he found out…what would Bakura do?

No, I knew what Bakura would do. And I couldn’t let that happen.

But Yugi was determined to get to know me. He said he’d pick me up today from my house and we could walk to his. He had insisted on it.

I had been pacing in front of the door waiting. I couldn’t take the risk of not being there when he came. But he was late. Maybe he had listened to me and wasn’t coming over. I’d done everything in my power to keep this life hidden from the outside world. I spoke to no one; I kept to myself, always afraid that I would give myself away somehow.

“What are you doing?”

No, no not now. Not now! My stomach dropped as I turned around.

He was standing at the top of the stairs, watching me.

“Um, I—I…” What do I say? What do I say?

“Don’t stutter, Ryou. You sound like an idiot.” He scoffed, coming down the stairs.

My mind was blank. What could I possibly say to make him leave? To not ask questions?

And then the doorbell rang.

“Who the hell is that?” He hissed, stomping towards me.

“No! No, Bakura, it’s—it’s for me!”

“Shut up and get the fuck out of my way.” He threw me to the side to fall against the wall.

“Ryou, I—oh sorry. I thought you were…” My heart was racing, pounding so hard, my mind racing in fear.

Bakura was just standing there, all I could see was his back. Why wasn’t he saying anything?

“Can you tell Ry-“

“Go away.” It was barely above a whisper.

“Excuse me?”

“Go away and if I ever see you on my property I’ll fucking kill you.” He growled

“Bakura! Please!” I whispered, trying to pull him back inside.

“I SAID GO!” he roared, slamming the door shut.

What was wrong? What happened? He turned around to face me, pure hatred and anger on his face, I’d never seen him look so angry. I truly thought he was going to kill me in that instant. I backed up against the wall, mumbling about the project I had been assigned. But the words were cut short as I felt the back of his hand against my face—feeling like the skin had ruptured from the force. I fell to my knees, clutching my face in agony.

“YOU FUCKING LITTLE CUNT!” He screamed, kicking me hard in the side.

“What did I do!?” I cried, trying to push myself away from him.

“DO YOU KNOW WHO THAT IS? DO YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK THAT IS?” He was so angry, his face was bright red, teeth bared, kicking me as hard as he could. Bones giving way and breaking beneath the force.

“I don’t—please, please!” I begged. What had I done? What had I done?

“WHAT’S HE DOING WITH THE PUZZLE?! WHAT’S HE FUCKING DO WITH THAT PUZZLE?!”

“I—I don’t know!” I knew the puzzle had something to do with the ring. But I never knew what. Did Bakura know something about it? Could something be inside Yugi’s necklace like there was in mine? But Yugi was happy. Yugi was never avoiding being around others or hiding bruises and scars. I felt even more alone in that instant. Maybe Yugi did have someone in that puzzle. Someone good. Someone, not like Bakura.

He grabbed me under the arms, making me stand as he pressed me against the wall. He shoved my face against it, making it harder to breathe. He had broken something and now I was wheezing, fighting to take each breath as he pressed me harder into the wall.

His breath hit my ear, hissing into it, “I thought I’d broken you Ryou. But this. How could you do this to me?” I could hear him fumbling with his pants, pulling mine down while he pressed harder into me.

“I didn’t—Bakura—“ I whined, “I didn’t know…I—I can’t breathe, Bakura. Please!”

He shoved himself into me with a lowly groan, resting his forehead on my shoulder while he fucked me hard.

“Uhhh---ahhh Bakura…Bakura it hurts!” I cried, feeling the pressure from what had broken each time I was pushed harder against the wall.

“I don’t fucking care!” He growled, digging his fingers into my hips.

“You betrayed me. You knew. You fucking knew he was out there and you said fucking nothing!”

“I didn’t!” I cried. I wasn’t lying. I didn’t know what was going on. Yugi never talked about his puzzle to me.

“Shut the fuck up. I can’t trust you anymore. I’m going to go hurt him, is that what you want? I’m going to fuck him hard and then I’m going to slit his throat.” His lips pressed against my ear with each word, mixed with his panting breaths as he pushed himself deeper into me.

“No! No please! Please don’t hurt him! Please…” It was all I had left to speak, gasping for breath after each word.

“If I fuck him would that upset him?” He laughed. Who was this him that Bakura hated so much?

“You—you can’t!”

“Fuu-fuck!” Bakura cried out as he cummed in me. Pushing me hard into the wall as he ground into me those few last times. He pushed off of me, watching me as I sank to the floor, panting.

He tucked himself in, staring down at me. “Fuck you.” He hissed, spitting on me.

He went back upstairs, slamming the door shut.

I looked down at my body. I’d gotten hard. I realized as I placed my hands on my lap. He’d made me hard raping me. Something was wrong with me.

Not only because I was throbbing right now.

But because of something else that I didn’t want to admit. Something that made my stomach churn when I thought about it. Made me sickened with myself.

Because when I thought about Bakura raping Yugi…

I was jealous.

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AN: I'm a chapter behind on this! Oh no! I just keep doing endings I like so much I don't want to continue the chapter. Darn it! Well, this story has a modest following. Its strange because on my 'lemon poll' torture was the second highest for number of votes. Yet, its the torture where I always get the complainers. However, if you're reading this story than I'm pretty sure you don't mind it. lol. What's this have to do with anything? Absolutely nothing. Now go review. ;D

Review Replies:

rukia: oh your review just made me smile and smile! lol XD i hope i didn't make you wait too long! i wanted to get some one shots in between chapters of these. is it sad its just so easy to write these kind of stories though? lol thanks again for reviewing! xxoo

mystralwind: i'm actually happier with this semester. i despised last semeter, everything about it and got very little writing done because of it. but this semester is all history and classical cultures so i'm much happier. :) what exactly does micro consist of? and what kind of art classes do you have? thanks for reviewing! now are you sure you want to lock him up? i mean, he is dripping with sex. ;D

sasatheshy: yeah, i think its the darkest i've done. D: but its still fun to write! heh heh thanks for reviewing!

cody_thomas: yay! you reviewed! :D i was hoping you would like it! lol well let me know when your story is finished. i want to read it :) oh but i do apologize to your characters...well maybe, i do enjoy my kinks. ;D