Keeping Secrets

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Keeping Secrets continued….

They were ushered into a private waiting room once it was discovered that one of them was Seto Kaiba. Yami had wanted to stay with Yugi, but they would not allow any one to do that while they worked to keep him alive. Especially as none of them knew how many of the sleeping pills Yugi had taken. The bottle’s contents had said thirty and Grandpa, who’s bottle it was could not remember how many had been left in it, he only took them on the rare occasions that he needed them. He was on his way to the hospital with Joey and Tristan.

But in that room all was quiet. Mokuba sat watching his brother like a hawk. It was not hard to see that he was deeply worried, learning his brother had been pack raped had been quite a shock. How could anything like that even happen? And Yugi had witnessed it all…

Seto was leaning against the wall in his customary way, arms folded, but the eyes that usually took in everything around him, looked dull as he was lost in his own thoughts. What could he be thinking about, wondered Mokuba. What happened to him, and what was happening to Yugi?

One of the doctors working on Yugi entered the room, “Your friend is going to be all right, physically, though he is a very underweight, almost anorexic. We will be keeping him for psychiatric evaluation as we do with all suicide attempts. You can see him before we move him to that ward –“

“No, he is to have a private room.”

“Excuse me sir, but that cannot happen –“

“It can and it will, he is to have a private room and I will be responsible for it.”

“You are Seto Kaiba?”

“Yes I am, and I will be picking up the bills for all of this. I do not want the story leaking to the press like my own did. The best of care is to be given to him, and any psychiatric needs to satisfy the law will be met, but only from the best you have.”

The doctor looked dumbfounded. But nodded to everything Kaiba said.

Then Kaiba moved over to him, “I will see him now.”

Yami got up to protest, but Mokuba grabbed a hold of him, “Please,” he said quietly, “Please let him go first.”

Yami could see the pleading there, and yet he was surprised that Kaiba had wanted to see him at all. He relented and they watched him follow the doctor to where Yugi was.

The doctor left them alone and Kaiba moved into the room. Yugi looked so small on the bed, the only bright thing in the whole room was Yugi’s hair splayed out on the pillow. He looked very pale and thin, too thin like the doctor had said. There was a slight bruise on the side of Yugi’s face and Kaiba knew that he had been the one to put it there. Just like he had been the one to have caused him to be there. No, that wasn’t right. It wasn’t all his fault, it was the fault of those four bastards who had raped him.

How could he have thought Yugi would have told his secret now, after so many months. How could he have believed it? As long as he had known Yugi, he had always seen him trying to help others before he would help himself. That night all he had wanted to do was help him too, and he had shunned him and told him to keep his mouth shut. And he had, but at what cost? He had tried to take his life to escape the demons inside him, the demons he shared with Kaiba.

He never noticed the tears as they streamed down his face, “I’m sorry,” he said quietly. “I’m so sorry.”

A little later he was disturbed by his brother, “Seto,” he called softly.

Kaiba only then wiped the wetness from his face and got himself under quick control, he nodded without turning.

“Yugi’s grandpa is here, he wants to see him.”

“I’m coming, Mokuba. Can we get out of here without being seen?”

“Yes, we can get out through the basement.”

He nodded again, took one last look at Yugi before he turned and followed his brother out.

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“Mr Kaiba, Doctor Toriyama is here,” said his secretary over the phone.

“What does he want?”

“He said that he needs to see you in private sir.”

“Fine,” he sighed, he didn’t want to see the man, “Send him in.”

The doctor came into his office. “Mr Kaiba,” he said extending his hand.

“I hope this is about your care of Yugi and nothing else.”

“Yes, Mr Kaiba, it is about the young man, he is not doing very well at all.”

“What, I thought you’d have him back on track by now.”

“Oh really? Don’t get me wrong here, but Yugi is a very strong willed person, he cares a lot about other people. Perhaps too much. In fact it is his worry over someone else that is stopping him from getting well. And if you can’t guess who that person is, then you are a complete idiot.”

Kaiba blinked in surprise, then he even surprised himself more by not attacking the doctor for his treatment. “There’s nothing wrong with me.”

“Really? What about all the reports of temper tantrums I’ve heard about around here. And Mokuba has told me all about your anger at him. You have bad dreams at night, you don’t think he hasn’t heard them, he didn’t know what was wrong, but he does now. Everybody does. I hear you conduct all your meetings in conference calls now, that you won’t go out unless you have to. That you keep everything to yourself. Funny how I have a patient with all the same symptoms, all the same problems, except one. That he betrayed someone he thought of as a friend. He thinks he slipped up somewhere and told your story, when he tried his very hardest to keep it inside him, even if it was eating him up the whole time. That’s what drove him over the edge, what is going to drive you over?”

“I’m fine,” said Kaiba defensively.

“No you are not, and neither will he be, unless the two of you talk about what happened that night. Together. Otherwise he will have to be institutionalized and you will probably wind up killing someone. Do you want that for either of you?”

“No… I… no.”

“Good. Then I am going to bring him to your mansion. I understand you have plenty of rooms there, it will be more comfortable for you and for him. He doesn’t like being in the hospital, but he also knows why he can’t be released. And until you get your own head straight, I’m putting you on medical leave as of now. Your car is waiting for you and things are already being arranged at home. So I will see you there. Oh, I’m staying over too.”

Kaiba’s mouth had fallen open, but he didn’t get a chance to get a word out before the doctor was out the door. He sat there blinking in confusion. Who the hell had arranged all this? He could just dismiss the doctor from the payroll, but then who would help Yugi, especially if what the man had said was true. That Yugi was not getting better. That he was not getting better.

He got to his feet and moved to leave. He had the strange feeling that if he didn’t go, he might never, and then nothing would be right again.

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Mokuba smiled when he saw his brother come home. He had been worried about Kaiba since the day Yugi had tried to kill himself. He had been the one to tell the doctor about what was going on at home, and at Kaiba Corp. The staff there had been asked not to mention or talk about what had happened to their employer. But it was hard to hide his temper tantrums from them when it was them he took them out on.

But Mokuba was no ordinary boy. He loved his brother and knew him like no one else did. He knew his brother was hurting badly, and that he wasn’t handling what had happened to himself or what Yugi had done to himself, at all. Something had to be done, or both of them could be lost. They had shared something that no one else could understand, and it was killing them both. He knew the doctor was holding things from him about them both, but he had to accept that, he knew what he was doing and there were things he could not speak about. Still they had plotted together on this arrangement.

And so far there had only been one little problem….

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“What are you doing here?” asked Kaiba as he came into his living room to find Yami there.

“The doctor said it was important that Yugi be here, and there is no way that I am going to leave him here alone.”

“I have been picking up his bills, what more do you want?”

“I want him to be well. I want him to be whole again.”

At that moment Mokuba came in.

“I’m sorry Seto, don’t be mad at me, but I want all this to end too. I want both you and Yugi to be well.”

“There’s nothing wrong with me.”

“There is Seto. I can’t stand to hear your dreams any more. I don’t want you to wind up hurting like Yugi. The doctor says he can help you both, but only if you are together. Yami can keep me company while you and Yugi work on getting better.”

Kaiba growled in frustration and left the room. He headed upstairs to his bedroom, only to find that his bedroom door was blocked to him.

Doctor Toriyami chose that moment to come by.

“What the hell is going on?”

“Another room has been prepared for you, everything you need is there, all the personal stuff that you need. You, I and Yugi will be in the west wing.”

“This is ridiculous! This is my home!”

“And I am your doctor and you are on medical leave which will not be lifted until I deem you well enough.”

“You deem me –“ Seto was furious.

“Oh stop that. You anger does not scare me. Now come with me, we have work to do. First we will eat. A dining room has been set up for us, and I want both of you to eat. If Yugi sees you eating, maybe he might eat a little more.” With that he walked off towards the west wing, not bothering to see if he was being followed.

Again Seto growled. How dare anyone treat him like this in his own home? After a few minutes of building anger he stomped off after the doctor.

He found the room that they were using, but he was after the doctor, he was certainly going to give him a bigger piece of his mind. That all came to a halt when he did find him, at Yugi’s bedside. The doctor was trying to help Yugi get out of the bed. Seto gasped when he saw his former rival. Yugi had lost even more weight since that night, he could barely walk, even with the doctor helping him.

In shock he followed into the dining room that had been set up. He watched as the doctor helped Yugi to sit.

“Come here Seto, I want you beside Yugi,” ordered the doctor.

He found himself obeying, sitting on the seat next to Yugi’s. Yugi did not look at him, he seemed to be trying to hide behind his blonde locks.

“It’s only soup, but I want you both to empty those bowls. I’ll be back,” he said leaving them to their meal.

Both were hesitating, Seto because of his anger, and Yugi because he wasn’t feeling hungry, like usual. Seto sighed and lifted his spoon and began eating. Yugi could see him doing it without looking at him and decided he had better do as the doctor ordered. They ate in silence, Seto finishing his quickly, but Yugi was lagging, he wasn’t even half way through when he stopped.

“You should eat it all.”

“What?” said Yugi.

“I said you should eat it all. If you don’t eat you’ll die.”

“I never told anyone.”

“I know that and I’m sorry for accusing you the way I did. I’m sorry I hit you too.”

“You were angry.”

“I’m always angry.”

“That’s true.”

Kaiba laughed.

This time Yugi turned to look at him.

“Eat the rest. I don’t think the doctor will be pleased if you don’t. And I think he’s not going to leave us alone until he is pleased with us.”

Yugi forced himself to eat more. He liked it when Kaiba laughed that way. Not his “I’m the greatest” crazed laugh, which made him cringe, but a nice laugh, even if it were short. And without thinking, Yugi finished the bowl. He sat there staring at it in surprise.

“Why did you do it?” asked Seto softly.

“Do what?”

“Try to kill yourself, I thought you were stronger than that.”

“Well, now you know I’m not.”

“But why would you want to kill yourself? You only watched what happened, you didn’t…feel it.”

Yugi turned and there were tears in his eyes. “But I did feel it. Maybe not the way you did, but I did. I was there behind those bushes too scared to move. I saw everything they did to you and did nothing to stop them. I should have done something, I should have tried to stop them, but I was too scared, and all I did was watch… All I did was watch.”

Yugi turned back to the table, tears streaming down his eyes. Suddenly there was a hand on his arm. “There was nothing you could have done. If you had have, they would have attacked you too, and that I don’t think I could have taken that. I should not have told you to keep your mouth shut, I didn’t realise how much it would hurt you. I’ve been able to harden myself to things like what happened. I’ve had to take a lot of hard things during my life, being attacked by that scum was something I could handle. At least I thought I could.”

Yugi turned to face him again, “You thought you could?”

“It seems it has moved into my dreams, making me relive it, night after night.”

“I do the same, only sometimes I do take your place.”

“What?”

“Sometimes I dream that I’m the one being raped, and that I deserve it.”

“Shit,” said Kaiba taking hold of both Yugi’s arms. “No you don’t. No one does, no one ever does.”

And without thinking he took the smaller body into his arms and held him.

Neither of them knew they were being watched. But all the doctor did was smile to himself and quietly leave them alone. It seemed they were doing a great deal on their own, and if they could continue to do that they would not really need him.

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The doctor went downstairs to take his meal with the other two in the house.

“Hey Doc, how’s it going?” asked Mokuba.

“Better than I thought, they’re already off to a promising start.”

“Already?” questioned Yami.

“Yes. They’re talking to each other, and they are sharing their experiences. They really need each other to get through this, actually I’m going to leave them alone as much as I can. I’m sure they can work through it better that way. I’d just be interfering. They are both very strong willed and thought they came from different backgrounds they are also very much alike.”

Yami snorted at that.

“Well, they are. They both want what’s best for those they love. For Yugi that’s his friends, for Seto it’s for you Mokuba. And until they started dueling they were lonely souls. I know you helped your brother keep his sanity in the past Mokuba, you gave him Duel Monsters cards to keep him going. And you Yami, when you came into Yugi’s life, though I’m still rather confused about all that, you changed Yugi’s life, you became his friend and helped him make others.”

The pair nodded at what he said.

“And whether Seto will acknowledge it or not, he and Yugi are friends. I think he will see that now. So let’s eat boys, I’m starved.”

The trio got stuck into their food.

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