My World

"What did I tell you?!"

Not again!, "You made your point the other night! Now leave...!"

"Begging, crying... giving in! You're pathetic, Seto!"

"I was... you of all people..."

"You can't even hold it!" Gazabouro laughed, "You ever see me get sick?! You let it over take you, just like your feelings...!

"Enough! I love Hiroto, now get over it and die...!"

"You love him? That's an awful strong emotion, Seto... it's going to crush you!"

"You're wrong! I can't remember the last time I've been so happy, no thanks to you..."

"Hm... happy? Love him? So that's why you blow him off to get plastered?! Because you're so happy and in love with him? Think about that..."

"I am happy and I do love him! I don't have to justify anything to you! Now go! DIE!"

"What about Kaiba Corp? You're letting an awful lot of potential clients slip through..."

"I know how some of these potential clients work... I don't... I don't work that way anymore..."

"It's costing you!"

"You never did business this way...!"

"That's because I had you..."

"I'm never going to negotiate that way again! I won't risk losing Hiroto..."

"But, you'll risk losing Kaiba Corp?"

"I wont lose either! Now for the last time, GO AWAY!" he went to take a swing at Gazabouro only to over shoot and fall to the floor with a thud, abruptly awakening himself.

Shit! What's wrong with me?!

Honda stayed in bed staring at the ceiling. He knew he had to talk to someone, but unfortunatly the only person he could think of who might understand would be Jounouchi.

He let roll through and reject several ways to bring things up without bringing up what almost happened.

He'd try to kill Seto and just get killed himself... may as well let it go. Not like Seto would let it happen again... I hope...

"Hiroto? You awake?" his mother called through the door.

"No."

"Oh, ok... wait a minute! Get up! You're not staying in bed all day! It's too nice out!"

"Ok, ok!" he slowly forced himself up, the bruise on his cheek paulsing, Shit...

"Hiroto, now!" he quickly opened the door and tried to keep his head down to hide it, but it was no use, "What's wrong?"

"Huh?" without thinking, he looked up anyway.

"What happened to you?!" she went to touch it, sending Honda back in searing pain.

"Ow! Mom!! Gods..."

"Sorry! What happened?! That's a horrible..."

Oh, gods think!, "A little misshap with one of those games you throw a ball at milk bottles..."

"How...?!"

"I pissed off Jounouchi.", Good one! Please buy it!

"Ok, first off, watch the language, second you two need to cool it or you're going to kill eachother one day!"

"Y-yea..." , Phew!

"Finally up I see..." his father had snuck up behind them, "What happened? You and Katsuya at it again?" he asked, pointing to the bruise.

"Yes! See mom! Dad understands..." he gingerly snuck past them, taking advantage of his mother staring his father down for seeming to approve of his and Jounouchi's behavior, to get to the bathroom.

"Those two are so much like brothers..."

"That a hint?"

"Maybe a little one..."

"We tried, Hiroto tried, everyone tried! He won't leave his father..."

"I know..."

"What was the fight all about this time?"

"He said they were playing one of those games you throw a ball at milk bottles..."

"Oh yea? One of my coworker's kids was running that..."

"Maybe they know what happened."

Please tell me you forgot. Jounouchi-san never seems to remember anything... here goes...

He rang the bell to find himself grabbed and dragged in as though he were being arrested for murder.

"Wait! What's going on?!"

"Hiroto, please! Talk sense into him! He's not himself..." ojiisan pleaded as he continued to drag Honda toward Kaiba's room.

"Maybe he's not feeling well...", I know he's not feeling well...

"No, he sounds more... well... depressed..."

"Depressed?!", Shit, he does remember! He's beating himself up!, "All right, I'll see what I can do..."

"Arigatou!" the old man bowed and took his leave. Honda stared at the door, then reluctantly knocked.

"Seto-chan?! Open up!" he called, trying to open it.

"No."

"Open this door! I won't let you beat yourself up over..."

"No."

"Fine." he reached into his pocket for anything to pick a lock, For once, Jounouchi, I've never been happier you're my friend! Thank you for teaching me this! he thought as he unlocked it with the first turn to let himself in.

Kaiba was still in bed; covers pulled up all around him. Honda sat on the edge and leaned in, taking what he hoped was Kaiba's shoulder- he couldn't tell through all the blankets- and shook him a little.

"Come on, Seto-chan! Rise and shine, sleeping beauty!"

No response.

Honda sighed and rolled his eyes. The last thing he wanted to do was bring up the night before.

"You didn't tell me Mokuba's girlfriend is American!"

Still nothing.

"Ok..." he found the little Blue-Eyes he had won for him lying on the pillow next to his head and picked it up.

He placed it on Kaiba's cheek and made it nuzzle him, "Come on, Seto! Hiroto wants to play!", *sweat drop*, I can't believe I'm doing this!

Staying silent, Kaiba slowly took the Blue-Eyes and hid it under the cover with him.

Honda threw his hands up in fustration. Taking a deep breath, he decided to try one more time and leave.

"So. What about this girl Mok..."

"You can stop pretending nothing happened." came the sullen, muffled response from under the blankets.

"So you are alive then. Well, you can stop making a big deal out of it, 'cause nothing happened, I'm fine..." he was bordering fustration and anger. Sensing this, Kaiba finally came out of hiding.

"I could have really hurt you..."

"You didn't..."

"Oh? And what did you tell everyone happened to your face? I know you didn't tell them..."

"It's nothing. My dad automatically thought it was Jounouchi anyway..."

"It is something! I swore I would never hurt you..."

"Shut up! It's no big deal! It's just... maybe you could..."

"I could what? Lay off the booze?"

"That would be a start..."

"I'll... I'll try... I don't think..."

"No, you'll do..."

"Who the hell do you think you are telling me...!?!"

"Someone who cares! Think about it; if I didn't care I would have just told everyone you hit me and what you almost did and I'd have never come back..."

"!?!"

"I'm here, aren't I? If I didn't care I wouldn't be."

"Hiroto-chan! I'm sorry!" he lept from his bed and tackled him before he could try and leave, hugging him tightly.

"It's ok. I think this is just so new to both of us..." he returned the hug and affectionatly ran his fingers through Kaiba's hair, "I'm not going to worry about lastnight because I know it won't happen again..."

"You think it's going to be that easy for me?"

"No, I just know it won't happen again because it won't have to." he swept Kaiba off his feet and lay him back into his bed. Kaiba was at a loss, becoming even more so as Honda began kissing and caressing him.

"Wh... what? Hiroto..."

"Shut up..." he said softly, "Make love to me."

"WHat!? No!" Kaiba tried to push him off, feeling he was only doing this to make him feel better, or because he felt he had to, "It's not possible you just decided overnight you are ready for this!" he cried, continuing to try and push Honda off.

"Moron!" Honda couldn't believe they were practically physically fighting over this, but he was determined and managed just the right move to win and pin Kaiba down.

They stopped long enough to take a breath, then just as it seemed Kaiba would give up he tried again, only Honda had too good a hold and used all his body weight to keep him down.

"Will you stop it and listen, Seto-chan?!"

"No! Get off me now!

"No! I... I love you! You hear me, idiot?! I love you!"

"!!?" Kaiba quickly haulted his struggles. He looked up to Honda who's anger had melted into a warm smile, "You... y..."

"Yea..."

"No! You didn't have to say that and you don't have to do this!" he tried to fight again, finding it impossible as Honda pinned him tighter and tighter with each struggling move.

"I know I didn't have to! I wanted to!" he barked.

"Why?! How could...?!"

"Shut up! It's how I feel, all right?! Now, please! Please, Seto-chan, make love to me."

Kaiba turned away, feeling hiself ready to cry. He didn't want Honda regretting things later.

"Seto-chan? What's wrong?" Honda wiped away a tear that had escaped from his love's cheek.

"This isn't how it's supposed to be. I'm not supposed to have tried to... I... and you shouldn't feel you have to..."

"You didn't do anything. And I want this. I won't regret this, just like I don't regret our first date or anything that happened the night I was finally set free. I won't regret this either. Please..."

"Are you..." Kaiba found himself pleasantly interrupted by a strong kiss that moved quickly from his mouth, to his chest, then just to his waist line where Honda began removing his boxers.

"I'm very sure." he said, having removed Kaiba's boxers completely and rubbing his already swollen member, "Seems you are too..." he hesitantly took it into his mouth, completely throwing Kaiba for a loop, This is definalty new for me! But, it's not so bad...

"You... Hiroto-chan..." Kaiba could barely breath. If he didn't know better, he'd have thought Honda a pro.

Unable to take much more, he tried gently as possible to kick him off.

"S-sorry... I was about to..."

"Well, we don't want that yet."

He moved back to Kaiba's lips sending his tongue in as far as it would go. He then silently signaled for Kaiba to take over; and he did gladly.

He flipped Honda onto his stomach, kissing every inch of his neck and back while at the same time massaging every muscle so to relax Honda as much as possible.

"You're going to put me to sleep!"

With out a word of warning, Kaiba had suddenly stopped. Honda looked back over his shoulder to see what was going on; Kaiba had three of his fingers in his mouth. When he noticed Honda watching, he slowly sucked them in and out, working his tongue all over them.

"Wh....what?"

"Trust me, you'll appreciate this..." then just as Honda had anticipated, Kaiba slipped all three in.

"Ah... AH! Seto-chan...!"

"Shh... I know, I'm sorry. You're only used to one, but, to get ready for this, trust me, one isn't enough..."

Honda bit the pillow and gripped the sheets tightly. This was definatly different, but he really wanted this, and there was probably no stopping Kaiba now; he could feel him against his thigh, and he was as ready as one could get.

"Relax, Hiroto-chan. You're tensing up."

"S-sorry..." he said into the pillow, trying to hide his tears.

"I'm going to add one more, ok?"

"Huh?! No...!" despite Honda's protest, Kaiba went through with it. Gently gliding them in and out, trying his best to relax and loosen his lover.

"Hiroto-chan? Are you ready for this?"

"Y-yes..." Kaiba could hear in Honda's shaky voice he was not only fearful, but in pain.

"I won't do this if..."

"No! Please..." he rolled over and grabbed Kaiba, pulling him in close, "I want this! Don't stop!" he cried into his ear.

"All right." He rolled Honda back over, raised him into position then did something completely unexpected; licked all around Honda's hole, moistening it after it seemed his fingers didn't work.

"Seto-chan?!"

"What?" he said with a little half smile, then leaned in and slowly entered. He could feel Honda tensing again.

"AAAH! S-Seto...!" he cried. He tried to remember what he had told him about there being a fine line between pleasure and pain. With that in mind, he knawed down on the pillow again.

"You feel... amazing... Hiroto... chan!" the more steady Kaiba was, the easier it was for Honda to relax and enjoy himself.

This is incredible! I feel... I feel like..., "Oh, gods! Seto-chan! I'm going to cum!" Kaiba, it seemed, wasn't ready just yet. He didn't even seem to notice Honda's cuming. He had waited for so long to know this feeling. He was going to savor every bit of his love's tight crevace.

"Hir... go... gomen... I..."

"It's ok! Please, I want you to enjoy this!"

Kaiba stopped to move Honda onto his back. The evidence of his pleasures moistening the area around his belly button.

"I didn't realize you..."

"Enjoying yourself too much to notice, huh? Proud of me?" he smiled.

"Very." Kaiba re-entered with full force. It didn't take much more before he finally released. Honda could feel every pulse inside him as Kaiba's body shivered with pleasure against his.

"Seto-chan?"

"Ju... not... I..." he wasn't quite ready to speak. Honda took him into his arms, allowing for him to finish.

"Hiroto-chan?"

"Hmm?"

"I-I love you too..."

"What?!"

"I wanted to tell you before, but, I was so afraid! And..."

"It's all right, really! I didn't say it to make you..."

"You know," he interrupted, "I also... our first time together... your first time really... I concidered it my first time..."

"What do you mean? Why? I mean, I know you said not to ask, but you didn't enjoy your..."

"No! Last night, everything about my first time came back to haunt me! I still feel so horrible about..."

"Seto-chan!? You were ra..."

"That... that monster Gazabouro! He..."

"He raped you?!"

"NO! He never laid a hand on me, let alone... no..."

"What... I mean... how could..."

"There is no delicate way of putting this, so I will just say it; he "whored" me out..."

"WHAT?! NO!!" Honda was mortified.

"My "negotiations", they sort of stemmed from that..."

"But, you... you weren't much older than Mokuba when...!"

"I'm fully aware of that..."

"Set... I'm sorry..."

"As I was leaving the office that day, Gazabouro called me back to meet a potential client. He got this strange look in his eyes. I just remember not caring much for him from the start. Gazabouro noticed how he was looking at me and asked if he was interested, 'Nice looking boy.' the man said, 'Want him?' Gazabouro asked, then left me alone with him, telling me to do as I was told or else. The only problem at the time was I didn't understand English."

Honda listened intently as it seemed for the first time Kaiba felt comfortable enough to tell someone. For once he needed someone to just listen and not judge. As sick as the story made Honda, it only gave him a better understanding of what made Kaiba tick.

Not to mention, it only seemed to make him love him that much more.

"So... you had no clue what the guy was saying?"

"No. The only reason I remember is because it's been burned into me. I never dreaded learning a language more than when I was able to translate exactly what he had said to me."

"I won't ask..."

"Thank you. I appreciate this, Hiroto-chan. I feel so much better..."

"How come you never went to ojiisan or Mokuba is what I want to know!"

"Honestly, what could Mokuba have done? He was six at the time..."

"And ojiisan?"

"As much as I would like to believe he is our real ojiisan... well, even if he is, he would be risking too much."

"You know something?"

"Hmm?"

"It's time to go out!" he exclaimed, jumping up and down on Kaiba's bed. "Come on! It's nice out! We can go to the park or something! I know you're good at soccer!"

"I... well..."

"Let's go!" he said as he dressed, then threw Kaiba's clothes to him, "You need to get out and have fun! I'll call the others and we can get a game going or something! Now get dressed!"

"I still don't think my getting together with them is a good idea yet..."

"Seto-chan..." Honda narrowed his eyes and playfully placed his hands on his hips; mocking his own mother, "Don't make me say it..."

"You wouldn't dare!" Kaiba said, returning the nasty look.

"Yes! I would..."

"If you love me you'll go!" they yelled at eachother.

"All right! Butit's on you if things go from bad to worse..."

"Quit being so negative! I want them to meet you..."

"They know me!"

"No, they don't."

"..."

"I want them to know you the way I do! And the way Mokuba knows you! Pleeeeaaaasssse."

"Ok. Let's go."

"Yes!", Now maybe the "other" Yugi and Otogi will chill! Just what to tell them about my face with "Honesty-san" over here!