A Year With You

Jou snuggled into Seto’s side dozing slightly. His lover had come home sat down and fallen almost instantly asleep from working long hours and going to school all week. Jou knew Seto had tried for his sake to sit down with all of his friends and watch the movie. However, Seto could hardly keep his eyes open and more or less passed out. Jou felt himself smile as he listened to the steady heartbeat that slowly put him to sleep.

Hands grabbed him pinning him down. He struggled and screamed but no sound left his mouth. A cold dark voice that haunted his memories echoed with sound in the darkness. Gozoburo looked at him with a cold wicked smile. “I’m coming for you, Seto!” He was harshly thrust into and he screamed.

Seto jerked awake almost dislodging his puppy from his lap. He must have made a noise because the others were looking at him with questioning eyes. “Are you ok, Seto?” Jou asked in a sleepy voice. Seto nodded but the dream left him trembling and filled with cold dread. “I’m fine, puppy, sorry I woke you.” A small smile flicked over his lover’s face and he tenderly kissed soft lips. He smiled trying to reassure his lover while calming himself. Jou stroked his face and he smiled pressing small kisses into his lover’s palm. “I’m fine, Jou, I promise. However, I am not good company. I think I’m going to head to bed if you don’t mind.” Jou shook his head. Seto smiled kissing his puppy then bidding the others goodnight.

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Seto stood under the spray of hot water for a long time trying to dislodge the feeling that slowly crept into him. That dream was the one thing he feared the most. If his stepfather returned he wasn’t sure he would be able to function as a human any longer. He felt he knew what triggered the dream. He had found clues hinting at a secret room either in the mansion or in another location where his stepfather hid tapes. He felt he knew what was on those tapes and it troubled him. He feared they were tapes of the rape and humiliation he faced at the hands of his stepfather and at the hands of nameless others. He shivered turning off the water.
Mokuba sat very still waiting for his brother to get out of the shower. Seto often had nightmares but never if others were around. It was strange and frightening for him to hear his brother make a noise like he did. He wasn’t sure how to describe the noise his brother made it was caught between and anguished cry and a scream of terror but pitched lower like a whimper. He heard the water turn off and he waited listening to the sounds of his brother brushing his teeth and getting ready for the night. They were sounds he had heard a million times while sitting on this bed. He felt the soft cotton under his hands closing his eyes. A memory reached out at him but it stretched just out of reach. The bathroom door opened and the smell of his brother’s shampoo drifted out on the steam. Tears filled his eyes and ran down his face as the memory then hit him full force.

Mokuba couldn’t sleep so he headed to Seto’s room. The water was running in the bathroom so he snuggled into the covers hoping to surprise his brother and scare him. The soft cotton was smooth and cool under his fingers and he felt an old childhood comfort creep into his bones. The door opened and he furrowed his eyebrows wondering why he still heard the sound of running water. The smell of his stepfather’s cologne and alcohol filled the air and he lay very still. He heard the bathroom door open but not close again. He peeked out from under the covers. He was able to see Seto though the misty air and his stepfather was undressing. Hunger lingered in dark eyes. His stepfather’s huge erect member quivered as it was freed. A fat hand opened the shower door and his brother jumped turning. He watched as fear and dread filled once life filled blue eyes that died a little more every day. A fat hand covered his brother’s mouth as the huge member was thrust into his brother. An odd sound like a strangled scream escaped his brother and the cruel man laughed thrusting harder. Tears ran down his brother’s face but the falling water swiftly washed them away. The smell of blood, pain and his brother’s favorite shampoo hung on the mist. He ran shoving the memory of what happened to the back of his young mind. He was too young to grasp just what happened but he knew it was bad. So he vowed to forget.

Seto froze as he stepped from the bathroom and saw Mokuba sitting on his bed crying. He knelt gently touching a face still full with youth. Blue eyes blinked open at him and he watched as the haunted orbs focused on him though the tears. “You know, don’t you?” His brother nodded and he sighed heavily looking at small hands gripping onto soft cotton. “Why? Why did you let him? Did you ever fight?” He looked at his brother and stood sitting on the bed taking a small hand in his own. “I fought at first but it made him more violent; but that wasn’t the reason I let him rape me. I let him rape me because if I didn’t he would have gone after you.” His brother pulled away disgusted at him. He cupped a young face locking his eyes with that of his brother. “Mokuba, I love you and I would never let anything, anything happen to you. I knew what it was like and I did not want your childhood taken from you like mine was taken from me. I wanted you to have a chance to fall in love and see the act of making love as something beautiful and precious like it’s meant to be. I was not going to let him take that from you. I killed him so he could never touch you. I do not regret what I did and I never will. If given the choice I would do it all again just for you. I regret many of the things that happened but protecting you from that man is something I will never ever regret so long as I live. Remember that and don’t belittle the sacrifice I made. Please, Mokuba, just don’t hate me for it.”

Mokuba looked at his brother. Blue eyes danced with seldom seen life and his own pain was reflected along with deeper pain and fear that was not his own. “Seto, I could never hate you. I just wish I knew sooner. I could have been helping you recover all of these years. As long as you killed him for yourself as much as for me I will never think badly of protecting me.” His eyes filled with tears of passion. “Seto, just promise to talk to me from now on. Tell me how I can help you. You saved me and I will forever be grateful but now it’s my turn to save you. You just have to tell me how.” His brother smiled and pulled him close. He gripped on to Seto’s shirt hugging him desperately. “He taped the times he used to rape me. He has them hidden in a room somewhere. I need you to help me find the room and those tapes. I also need you to let me tell Jou all of this in time.” He nodded and smiled wiping his face and sniffing. “I’ll help but I’m going to get Bakura and Malik to help as well. If any one could find a hidden room, it’s those two. We will find it. If we don’t, I’m tearing down the entire fucking house, brick by brick until I do. He can’t hurt you any more and I won’t let anything he left behind hurt you any longer.” His brother pulled him close kissing his head and squeezing him. “Mokuba, what would I ever do with out you?” He snorted, hugging his brother. “If it weren’t for me you’d be dead in a gutter somewhere because if it weren’t for me you’d never be the ambitious bastard you are now.” His brother laughed, hugging him a little more tightly.

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oh my gosh so my beta suprised me with and edited chapter so i decided to be nice and post it. So thank you to all my lovely reviewers. Also thank you everyone for being so understanding and supportive.

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