My World

Honda sat up and watched Kaiba as he slept.

He had so much going through his mind, sleep was just not possible.

I can't get over it. He looks so peaceful and at ease... wish I could feel the same...

He had put Mai's theory to the test; once Kaiba had initiated the sex earlier that evening, Honda took complete control.

I'll give her this much; she was right. I didn't know it was possible to cum twice with in one hour! No doubt, he enj..., he felt Kaiba shifting and quickly turned away.

"Can't sleep?" he asked sleepily.

"Uh, no... I didn't wake you, did I? Sorry..."

"I rolled over and you weren't there..."

"Sorry..."

Kaiba pulled him back to hold him close. Honda rested his head on his chest, listening to his heart beat.

"You have a pretty healthy heart..."

"A very happy one. Why can't you sleep?"

"Just thinking. It's nothing, I promise..."

"It is something, but, it's late and you need sleep."

"Fine..." he went to roll over, but Kaiba's grip on him was tight, even though he had already started to go back to sleep.

He placed his head back on his chest and tried his best, but it just wasn't working.

Thinking Kaiba was finally back to sleep, Honda couldn't help but get off his chest something he had wanted to say for a long time, "I just want us to be a normal couple, Seto..." he said softly.

"You know that will never happen." he answered softly.

"what?!", Honda broke free of his grip and sat straight up, startling him.

"I'm sorry! But, you know full well..."

"Why?!" he snapped angrily, sending Kaiba into panic.

"Please, Hiroto, think! I'm one of Yugi's biggest rivals, people know how we feel about eachother, and then there's Jounouchi..."

"Shit, get to the point!"

"Please, don't be angry..." he fell back into his pillow and began to sob, Why does he do this?! Why can't he just accept us?! I know he loves me...

Realizing what he was doing, Honda calmed down to allow Kaiba to cry it out. He gently placed his hand on his shoulder and gave a reasurring squeeze.

"I'm sorry." he said under his breath, Idiot, Honda... stop hurting him!

"H-Hiroto..." he choked.

"Yes?" he answered softly, reasurringly stroking his bangs from his tear soaked eyes.

"I-I just..."

"What is it, Seto-chan?"

"I want the same."

Honda sighed and took him into his arms, resting Kaiba's head on his chest and gently kissing it.

"Hiroto..."

"Hmm?"

"I promise to try harder..."

"I don't don't see where you need to be trying any harder..."

"At being more optimistic about us? Yes, I do."

"No, you don't. You are more optimistic about us than I could ever..." Honda quickly stopped himself, That didn't sound as good out loud as it did in my mind! Shit!

"What?! Hiroto...?!", he rolled over to the oposite side of the bed, giving him a cold, very cold, shoulder, "What the hell do you mean by that?!" he finished.

"Ah, shit! Seto, I didn't mean... if I truely had no hope... I..."

"Good night, Hiroto." he said sharply.

"Please, come on! I do want us... we've been together a month! If things weren't meant to... I do want us to be... Seto? Are you even..."

"Good night, Hiroto."

"Don't be like this!" he grabbed his shoulder to roll him back over, "Look at me!"

"Good night, Hirtoto." he said firmly, jerking his shoulder from his grip.

Honda let go, making Kaiba think he had given up, then taking him fully by surprise, he managed to roll him back over.

He pounced on top of him and lay his full weight on him to prevent him from knocking him off and turning away again.

"You're getting a little too good at this..."

"Stop it! Seto, I didn't mean anything by what I said..."

"You said, in so many words, you are not too optimistic about us..."

"But, I am! I'm optimistic about us! About being a normal couple, I just... I want so bad to be a normal couple, but..."

"I do too, but it's like I said, it's just... not possible."

"I know I know! But , why?! I know you have your problems with my friends, that's no secret..."

"That's only part of it..."

"Let me guess, the other part is because we are guys..."

"That is a big part of it..."

"But, those aren't the only... shit... I know another part..." he sighed.

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"I'm tired of being the girls' source for 'live YAOI'!" Honda felt his body being bounced as Kaiba began to laugh histerically under his weight, "What?! What's so funny?!"

"I-it's... that's... you're right!" he couldn't stop laughing. Honda tried his best, but couldn't help falling into it; the laughter was contagious.

"N-no... it... no it isn't funny!" Honda about hurt himself trying not to laugh.

"You-you're... you're l-laughing!"

"N-no! Sh-shut... up!"

Kaiba took advantage and turned the tables on Honda, and was now on top, pinning him.

"You let your guard down." he smiled.

"Guess I'm not so good..."

"No, you're very good..."

"You're better." he pulled Kaiba into a deep kiss, feeling as though his body were becoming one with the bed, "I do love you, don't forget that..."

"I won't..."

"I'll do my best to just accept us for what we are..."

"?"

"And stop worrying about what we're not..."

"So... what are we?"

Before Honda was able to answer, Kaiba rolled him over onto his stomach and began kissing and licking up and down from his neck and spine all the way to his thighs.

"Wh-what?! It's so late..."

"So?" he shrugged as he reached under and gripped Honda's balls.

"It's three in the morning! You're the one who said I need sleep!" he squeeled under his grip.

Ignoring Honda's weak attempts to stop him, he worked his tongue from his lower back to his hole.

Honda couldn't speak. All he could do was moan as the pleasurable waves sent from his crevace, up his spine to his brain shutting all other senses down.

"S-st... stop..." Honda breathed, "I-I can'...t..."

"Shhh. You did all the work earlier and exausted me. I've had some rest, Let me take over this time?"

Asking permission?! What?!, "Seto, I wanted to..."

"Please, I want to please you..."

"Thank you, but... it's late. We have school in less than four hours..."

"Alright," Kaiba smiled, "But, next time, I'll do the work..."

"..."

"I owe you..."

"Wh-what?! You don't owe me...!"

"I've never cum like that before..." he finished as he curled up into his blankets, snuggling close to Honda and drifting back to sleep.

"Y-you're welcome...?", I guess?

"By the way," he said dreamily, "What I said before..."

"About what, Seto-chan?" Honda smiled.

"It really wasn't fair of me..."

"What?"

"How can I possibly expect someone to not understand what they are part of..."

Honda wasn't sure what he was talking about at first, then remembered the night he tried so hard to forget:


"What is that?"

"What?"

"That smell... it's making my eyes burn!"

"Oh, nevermind that..."

"What?! What the hell...?!"

"Hiroto-chan, I don't expect you to understand my world..."


"S-Seto-chan...?

Nothing.

Lucky. How did you get back to sleep so quick? Anyway..., "You're part of mine too." he whispered into his ear as he spooned him in and tried his best to go to sleep.

"Hiroto, wake up!"

"Wh-what?!" he jumped and looked around. He had nearly forgotten where he was.

"We're going to be late! Come on! Move...!"

To Kaiba's fustration, Honda had already collapsed back into bed with a pillow over his head.

"GET UP!" he roared as he lifted the pillow and forcefully slammed it back into Honda's face.

"IDIOT! What?!"

"We're going to be late for school! You're parents will never let you stay with me again if I let you fall behind! "

"You kept me up half the night trying to..." he looked up to find Kaiba by the bed; arms folded, eyes cold, tapping his foot. It almost reminded him of his mother trying to get him to move, "AH! Fine, I'm up..."

"I can't believe you were going to blame me." Kaiba huffed to himself, though loud enough Honda could hear, as he marched out the bedroom door.

Gods, I'm not going to make it today!

"What's up with you?" Otogi jabbed Honda in the arm as he began to drift off at the lunch table.

"Wh-wha..." he yawned and stretched, nearly putting a fist into Otogi's face; wheather it would have been accidental or not could have been up for debate.

"Kaiba keep you up lastnight?" Jounouchi laughed.

"WHAT?! How did you..." Honda was awake now.

"Sorry, Honda-kun. I called your house lastnight to see if you and Kaiba wanted to try a new game with us, butyour parents said you were..."

"Staying at Kaiba's!" Anzu finished.

"S-so what?!" was all he could come back with. He didn't want to get into detail; not with the guys and certainly not with Anzu.

"Calm down, Honda!" Jounouchi said patting him on the back, "We're fine with it!"

"Yea, no worries!" Otogi backed Jounouchi up.

Oh, Gods! What did Mai tell them?!, "Uh, not that I don't appreciate it, but, why..."

"Mai told us..." Anzu started.

"Told you what?!" he snapped.

"Nothing you didn't want us to know, obviously..." she finished flattly.

"She said you guys are fine..." Otogi said, putting his arm around Honda's neck; a "guy-like" friendly guesture, he assured everyone later, "You have a few issues, but it's nothing we need to worry about. You two are going to be fine."

Wow, she's good! Arigatou, Mai..., "Yea, so... you all... you're alright with... Kaiba himself then?" he hoped.

"Yup!" Yugi exclaimed, joining Otogi's friendly embrace.

"Yea, and no need for the formalities with us, call him Seto... or Seto-chan..." Anzu giggled, causing all, Honda included, to cringe. "Ah, so cute!" she said dreamily, not realizing they had all left her standing by herself, "Uh, guys? Where'd you... not funny!!"


Kaiba leaned against the fencing around the roof top staring out over the city.

It wasn't something he normaly did after school; he usually went straight to work, but since having been with Honda; a fairly "normal kid", he began to long for what he had missed out on; being a "normal kid".

It's still in me somewhere, but... shit, Gazabouro burried it so deeply...

"Whatchya up to, Seto-chan?" Honda sang as he side stepped his way to his lover, "You look... well..."

"Like myself?"

"Well, uh... that's not..."

"I know. What's with you? Dancing..."

"My little talk with Mai paid off..."

"Hmm?"

"Gods, I told her everything..."

"?!"

"It's alright! She told everyone we're fine. We have issues, but, there's nothing to worry about and everyone was cool with that! They're even cool with us, you, everything! Seto-chan, maybe we do have a shot at being a normal couple!"

Honda grabbed him into a bear hug and swung him around.

Not wanting to crush his enthusiasm, Kaiba played along, though he still didn't feel everything was going to be alright just like that.

"So, they are fine with us being together around them? They are fine with me?"

"Yea! But, hugging on eachother may not work infront of them..."

"Right. Hiroto, there is still one thing bothering me..."

Ah, shit!, "What is it, Seto-chan?"

"What were you trying to prove the other day?"

"Prove?! Nothing! I just... got into it a little..."

"More than a little..." he smiled at the memory and the feeling it gave him as he could feel himself become aroused with the thought, "Uh?! Shit!" he exclaimed, embarassed by his erection.

"It's alright, Seto-chan!" Honda laughed, "Oh, what about you?"

"Me?"

"When you paid for the damages, what was that all about? I told them you were just trying to be nice, but..."

"I was."

"I figured. They didn't."

"I know. Yugi tried to give it back..."

"What?! No one said anything to me..."

"I asked him not to say anything to you. I was determined, and you know how I get when I get determined..."

"You didn't threaten them...?!"

"No! Give me some credit, Hiroto-chan!"

"S-sorry..."

"I just refused to take it back. I told him to give it back to his ojjisan, that I owed him..."

"Owed... him... oh, right..."

"I should get to the office. I have a meeting tonight..."

"A meeting...?"

"Hiroto, if there is one thing you need to work on..."

"?"

"It's trusting me..."

"Sorry... I do... it's them I don't..."

"I can take care of myself just fine, thank you. Only thing is... I don't want to..."

"Don't want to? Go to work? Seto, why?!"

"I want to be with you..."

"I-I realize that, but... all that stuff with Gazabouro and you wanting to prove him wrong... ah! Shit!"

"What is it?"

"When you kept saying 'I can't do this... I can't...', you meant... oh, gods and I... I guess what you could call what I did..."

"When you ra..."

"Yea! In my own way, I guess it was me punishing you 'cause I thought you meant... shit! Shit!"

"You thought I meant us."

"Y-yea..." he fell to the ground, pulled his knees to his chest and began to cry.

Kaiba sat next to him and gently rubbed his back, "It's alright, Hiroto..."

"N-no... it isn't..."

"I wasn't too clear on what I meant..."

"I didn't give you a chance... I just..."

"It's not like I was in any state to be thinking clearly..."

"Quit blaming yourself!" Honda snapped, slapping Kaiba's hand from his back, "I should have been helping you get better! I should have been... I should have..."

"Should have, could have, didn't. But , it's done. It's alright. I'm fine!"

"Shi... shit..." he began sobbing again.

"I'll stop blaming myself, ok?"

"Thank you..."

"But, you need to stop beating yourself up."

"..."

"Please? You want us to be a normal couple, I think this would be a start?" he helped Honda to his feet and gently pulled him into a loving, warm embrace, allowing him to finish his sobbing, "It's going to be fine, I know it..."

Looking down, he spotted the group of friends waiting for Honda.

"You better go." he said, allowing for Honda to look down.

"Are you coming with me? Or are you going to work?"

Shit!, "Well, you're right. While I don't feel I have to prove anything to a dead man anymore, I do need to take care of things... for Mokuba's sake. I better go."

"Well, if you want, you know where we hang out..."

"Thank you."

"There you are!" Jounouchi called from below, "You guys coming or not?!"

"He's coming, just give us a minute..."

"What about you, Kaiba-kun?" Yugi called.

"?!"

"Come on! We could use an extra player!" Otogi added.

"Yugi's ojiisan got a new game and we've been getting pretty good!" Mai taunted, "You guys may have some work to do to catch up...!"

"What do you say, Seto-chan?"

"I-I don't..."

"This meeting, is it one of your more understanding clients?"

"She's a very nice lady, yes..."

"You can always reschedual?" he nudged.

Kaiba looked down at the group urging them to hurry, "You're right, Hiroto." he said with a kiss, then looked back down and scowled, "Who's going to need work?! Between my skills and Yugi's, none of you stands a chance!"