Broken Beyond Repair

SaveMeFromMyself: Hey everyone! How the hell are you? Anyways, this story can also be found at FF.Net with updated chapters. I decided to stick on here to see what type of reaction or reviewers it will draw.

Title: Broken Beyond Repair
Author: SaveMeFromMyself
Summary: Ryou made a costly mistake. Now.... His lover must pay the price.
Rating: R
Pairings: Ryou/Bakura, Ryou/Mailk, Ryou/OC(s)
Author Notes: Let me know what you think of the story in the beginning. I know that you don't know much about my writing but many people on FF.Net like it. I want to know what you feel for it. Anyways, the story is a little etchy in the beginning but the story does get a whole hell of a lot better in my opinion.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-gi-oh or any of the characters in it. I do however own my own characters in the story and therefore you may not use them unless you ask. However, I am making no money off this story.

*Word*= Song Lyrics
~*~*Word(s)~*~= Chang of scenery or point of view

Please Come Back To Me

Rain fell from the heavens from up above. It made a clatter sound as it hit the window. A lonely figure looked out the window waiting for his lover. He seemed hurt or depressed in some way but it was never for the world to know. He didn’t want anyone to know he was truly and deeply hurting inside. He only wanted people to think of him as mental or whatever they came up with.
The young man sat waiting for his love to return for his friend’s house. It wasn’t fair to him that he had to stay home and watch the rain fall; while his lover got to roomed the streets after dark. He wanted to some much tell how he felt. How much pain he was suffering. Yet...... he knew he couldn’t. It would ruin the relationship he had. That was the last thing he would want to mess up. He didn’t want to be left alone again. To return to the darkness and never be brought back out. It pained him so much to learn that that was what was happening.
The young man heard the door open and shut. He nearly jumped but controlled himself. He didn’t want his lover to think he was a wimp, which he was most certainly not. He let a small sad smile on his lips press through to the world. He quietly got off his bed and walked to the living room where he saw his lover watching TV. His heart cried knowing he didn’t even attempt to see if he was awake or not.
“Hello Ryou what are you doing back so soon. I thought you going out for a drink as well.” The young man said as he gave a small smile to his lover. Ryou was a hansom and smart young man. Over the years he grew from a hansom young boy to a man with a matter of minuets. Not many people see that as he does. Ryou looked at his lover and smiled; motioning to have a seat next to him. His lover smiled brightly and sat down next to Ryou.
“Bakura, sweaty, how have you been tonight? You seem upset about something. You want to talk about it?” asked Ryou only receiving a negative nod. He sighed and smiled some what. Ryou watched TV as he looked at the sleeping beauty in his arms. *Should I tell him?* Ryou asked to himself but shook his head quickly of that thought. *No It will only break his heart.* Ryou thought to himself sadly.

*And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I’ve ever been
And I don't want to go home right now*

~*~ Morning ~*~

Bakura awoke to the sight of the ceiling staring down upon him. He stared long and hard at the ceiling as if he was looking for an answer. Answers to solve all his questions, an answer that will lead him back down the bright and happy life. Yet, as though Ra was watching over him, there was nothing on the dull wore out ceiling except for a tiny spot of grey that had gotten there by mistake. Sighing, Bakura got off the couch to find no sleeping beauty next him. Instead he found a letter written to him by his lover.

Bakura,

I have to inform you that I was called away on an important meeting with Yugi and the gang. Sad to say we won’t be back until next week. I’m sorry for not telling you early but i8 was sworn to keep it a secret for you. Plus, I didn’t want you to come. I need you to look out for the house for me. When I get back we will be together for all you want. I wish I could be there for ya because I know we haven’t spent much time together but Yugi really needed my help. Sorry......

With all my love and more,
Ryou

Bakura felt his eyes stinging with fresh, salty tears. He quickly threw away the note and ran up to his room. Well, at least he could call something his. He had a feeling there was something more to the note than what Ryou had told him. * Could he be in love with.... No Don’t think that. Ryou would never do something to hurt another person..... Would he?*~*~ Ryou ~*~

I can't take this much longer. Ryou stated as he looked upon the midnight blue skies. The sparkled with bright shiny stars that seemed to dance through the dark blanket. Sighing, he looked at the sleeping figure in the bed sleeping as if nothing in the world mattered to him. He just slept on in his own world where everything and anything was perfect.
Why must I be so cruel to my love? I don't want to lie to Bakura but I also don't want to see him hurt. Ryou said to himself as he looked over the clear blue water that sparkled under the bright full moon rays.

~*~ Bakura ~*~

“RYOU, PLEASE RYOU COME BACK TO ME DON’T LEAVE ME HERE ALL BY MYSELF Please....... I love you.” Bakura screams became silent pleas of tears that fell from dull and lifeless eyes. Pale whit hands clenched into fist, creating a small cut to form on the owner’s wrist. A small yet noticeable blood trail ran from the wrist to the floor. Making a small pool of blood to form under the clenched fist. The thin yet, tough, body shook as waves of pain wracked the body. Yet, Bakura never cried out as he lay there unnoticed by the small town just outside the city.
“Ryou.... d-do you love another?” Bakura asked the wind as it carried away those words out into the nigh sky. Bakura stood shakily on his feet and climbed into the king sized bed. Looking at the sheets he began to sob once more. The bed reminded him so much of his beloved it Ryou. A dark blue blanket lined with gold that boarded the edges. A pale blue as soft as the sky lined the bed with passion. Along with baby blue pillows of honey and sweet sugar smelling lied on top of all that. All the favorite colors of Ryou.
Oh, how much Bakura had missed his lover. He wanted to be held, kissed, loved, and noticeable by his sweet, sweet Ryou. If only he had never made the past so painful. If he could go back in time and erase all the bad things he had done. Yet, the past was the past and it was meant to be that way.

~*~ One week later ~*~

“Bakura Bakura, I’m home ” Shouted a voice with much care and love yet it held l something different. That day it held something so sweet, as if the voice belonged to an angel, yet had a bad taste to it.
Bakura ran down the stairs almost tripping over his own two feet. Rushing past the entrance door to the living room but stopped by a sudden sound of laughter between two teenagers. The laughter sounded some much like the two had done long before they fell in love. Long before everything became a night mare. Something meant to forget and to never come back and hunt you again.
“Ryou, where’s Bakura?” asked a familiar voice. It sounds like someone he knew but just couldn’t place a finger on it. Wait Ah, yes. The sound had come from Mailk. A blond haired teenager who was sweet at times but was one bad cookie.
“He’s here. I know because I can sense him. He’s around here somewhere but where.” Ryou said and smiled at Mailk. Mailk smiled back and it was just like an angel. Mailk was a darkish skin tone boy with blond hair. He was tall and strong yet, sweet and gentle all in one. He was wearing a white top shirt with faded away jeans that look like it had been bleached. There was a golden aura surrounding him making him look just like an angel.
“I’m right here. I was just coming to see how you are, love.” Bakura said and frowned when he saw Ryou wince at the name of love. That broke Bakura’s heart to see Ryou act the way he was. *Ryou? Why are you sitting so close with Mailk?* Bakura cried in his mind as he fought back tears. Ryou pointed at the chair and motions for him take a seat. Bakura only nodded and sat in the worn out chair.
“Bakura.... w-we need to..... ummm..... we need to..... talk.” Ryou stammered over the right words. Bakura nodded and swallowed a large lump in his throat. He blinked several times rid himself of the tears that threatened to fall from his dull eyes. Ryou sighed and looked at Bakura with passion and..... guilt? *Is that guilt I see in his eyes? Why would Ryou feel guilty? He has done nothing to feel that way.* Bakura turned his attention back to his lover. He looked in shock as he saw Ryou grab Mailk’s hand and squeeze it tight. “Bakura..... I don’t know how to say this but.... I’m not in love with you. I never was. Actually I have been cheating on you with Mailk for two years now and the guilt has finally gotten to me. I didn’t want to lie to you and I-I never wanted to hurt you. I’m sorry that you had to be in the love triangle. I’m really very sorry. I love you but just not in that way. I love in a..... brotherly way. I hope you can understand and find it in your heart to forgive me.”

*And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight*

“Y-You what?” Bakura asked as tears leaked from his eyes. He couldn’t believe it. Everything had become black. All his nightmares had come true. Ryou never loved him. He was toying with him. Maybe he heard wrong. Yeah, that was it. He heard wrong.
“Please say that again.” Bakura demanded wanting to know the truth. Ryou looked at Bakura with pity, guilt, and concern. So it is true. All his nightmares about Ryou dumping him for someone else had become true. Why? I
“I don’t love you.” Ryou said as a few tears fell from his eyes and slowly glided down his soft pale skin. Bakura looked at him with now completely lifeless eyes. There were some many emotions but Ryou could not tell each one. They all flashed threw those once lively and joyful eyes.
“Why? What have I done to deserve this punishment? I love you. I love you, damn it Why can’t you see that ? ? ” Bakura said in self pity. Drowning.... Drowning all the lies that were ever told to him. How could Ryou lie to him? Ryou was locking eyes with him when Ryou said ‘I love you too, Bakura.’ It was all a lie. Everything was a lie. Every kiss, every hug, every word that was spoken in such a caring way was all just one BIG LIE
“You aren’t being punished. You have done nothing wrong. It’s all my fault for saying I love you. I mean..... in that way. I.... umm.... WAIT BAKURA COME BACK Please....”

*And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am*

~*~ Bakura ~*~

I ran.... I didn’t want to listen to anymore lies. I didn’t want to stay near the one I loved some much but was rejected and used. I was only a mere toy to Ryou. Yet, deep in my heart I knew that wasn’t true. Ryou still loved me but not in the way I was hoping for. But it still hurt. God why did love have to feel this way. A way that could kill even the sanest person. Everything hurt. My heart, my lungs, my head, my legs and my muscles all hurt. I didn’t want to stop until I was sure I was far away from the lies as possible.
I was soaked to the bone by the heavy rain fall that evening. I didn’t know where I was going as long as I got as far away as possible. I ran so hard that people moved out of my way. Many of them shouted at me but I didn’t care. I didn’t anymore and I was scared. For the first time I was scared. I was afraid of what I would do to myself if the pain got to be unbearable.
I didn’t know what I was doing and where I was but I found my self knock on someone’s door. I dozed of into space looking for answers. I knew there had to be one. I just didn’t know where to begin. A firm and rough voice brought me out of my mind and back to the hateful world. The world that was filled with betray and hate and nothing else.
“What do you want, Bakura?” asked the young one’s lover. Yugi was standing behind his lover eyeing me carefully. He also wanted to know what I was doing. I looked from Yami to Yugi with a looked that made even Yami look at me with worry. I tried to speak but nothing came out but a squeak and then nothing. What was I going to say? ‘Hi I’m running because Ryou is a back stabbing jerk.’ I closed my eyes for a moment and let the rain wash away my troubles. I began to walk backwards toward the busy streets. I could picture looking at me as if I had lost my mind.
“Bakura, are you o.k.” Yami as with concern. Yugi looked at me with fear. What had he to be feared of? Me? No All I wanted to do is end it. End everything. End my lies I’ve been living in. I wanted to end my life. There was a loud car horn and a cry of my name. Then everything went black.

*And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive*

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am