Unrequited Love: Lost and Found

Title: Unrequited Love: Lost and Found 1/1

Author: LadyVirgo1956

Beta: complex_quirk

Rating: pg

Genre(s): Angst, Romance, Shonen-Ai

Pairing(s): Seto/Jounochi

Spoilers: none

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-gi-oh.

Summary: Jou's getting married, can Seto stop him.


Dear Jou,

I got your invitation the other day; I was surprised to learn that you are getting married. Congratulations, I wish you all the best. However, I’m sorry I won’t be able to make it. Mokuba has shown some interest in attending though.

I would like to say this now before I back out. I am sorry for everything I’ve done to you since high school. The last time we saw each other, we had words and I regret saying what I did. I have come to the realization that I do care for you, even love you. There. I've finally said it. But for me to attend your wedding would be too hard to do. Knowing that you love someone else and enjoy being around that person would be too much for me to handle.

I truly am sorry about everything: the denials and the name calling (even though you do remind me of a cute puppy that needs to be held and loved). I care for you enough to give you up so that you can find true happiness.

Take care of yourself, Jou, I love you.

Yours always,
Seto.

I sat at my computer and I reread the letter I had just written. It was important to let him know how I felt, about the things I had put him through. The teasing, the razing, the denials of affection and caring that he tried to show me.

I had to stop him from making a mistake. I had come to the realization that I truly love him. I had pushed him so far away I couldn’t even look at myself anymore. We haven’t even seen each other in five years because of me. I had heard rumors here and there about him though; I kept a record of everything I had heard. Beginning from the time of our graduation until now.

Then the invitation came. I just couldn't believe it; you were going to get married. Married to someone you met in college. I knew at this point I needed to get you back, tell you that I love you. Yes, I've said it, so strange yet so wonderful.

As I think back to the last time I saw you, I realize it was a week after we had graduated. You had come to my office and we had words. All you kept saying is that you loved me, over and over again. I couldn’t take it anymore and I threw you out, saying that I hated you and love didn’t exist.

I never saw you after that. I immersed myself in my company and my brother while I was watching you move away from all that we could have been. I'm so lonely; Mokuba is now graduating high school and will be moving on to college, and I will be alone again, not having anyone to share my life with. My hopes, my dreams, my fears, even my happiness. Closing my eyes, I listen to the quiet that surrounds me before feeling something wet slide down on my cheek. I'm crying; I, Seto Kaiba, am crying.

I hear a knock that sounds so far away followed by the sound of a door opening up. I can sense that someone is behind me; I slowly turn and I look up, still with tears in my eyes. It is him, Katsuya Jounouchi, the one that I love. As I look at him, my heart breaks. I wonder what he is doing here.

“Jounouchi why are you here?" I ask, looking into those beautiful eyes of his to see if he still cares; if he still loves me at all.

“Kaiba, can’t I visit a friend without you getting suspicious?” Jou called me his friend. There might be hope; I sigh, I know there is no hope for what I need. “I didn’t know we were friends.” I say, watching for a glimmer of something I'm not quite sure of.

“Well, we didn’t part on the best of circumstances, but I had always thought that we were friends.”

I sighed and just nodded my head; I can’t look at him anymore, the tears are coming back and I don’t think I can hold them back anymore. He looked at me and before I knew what was happening, he put his arms around me, telling me that his feelings have never changed. He still loved me. I looked at him, my face skeptical, and asked him about the wedding.

“Aren’t you supposed to get married?”

He pulled away and turned from me, I can see his body shake. I got up and walked over to him, wondering what is wrong. He looked at me and smiled before saying the strangest thing.

“She got pregnant by someone who turned their back on her and the baby. I told her I would marry her to keep her safe. She was grateful that she wouldn’t be alone. She knows I'm gay and that I loved someone but didn’t know who. She found out though and told me to try again with you and gave me back the ring. I didn’t know what to do. I asked her about the baby and what she was going to do. All she did was give me a sad smile and said they would be alright. That was a week ago. We called everyone and told them the wedding was off and not to tell you, I wanted to do that in person.”

Standing there and listening to his words, I just wanted to wrap my arms around him and hold him, letting him know that everything would be alright, that I did love him and wanted him in my life.

I walked up to him, the tears no longer being held back, and touched his face, pulling him into my arms, not wanting to let go. He pulled back from my embrace and looked into my eyes, wiping the tears away and told me that he wasn’t going anywhere. He gently caressed my face and lowered his lips to catch mine. The kiss was tender and loving, and I return it. In our euphoria of being together, the letter I was going to send to him was forgotten.

The letter would have told him that I couldn’t make it to his wedding and to congratulate him, and to apologize to him for things I had done in order to hurt him. I couldn’t live with myself if I didn’t. You see, I couldn’t go on, knowing that he was marrying another, knowing I would not see him again. I just couldn’t do it. I pulled out of the kiss and smiled at him, recognizing that he would fill that void in my heart, the loneliness I have felt all these years. I don’t plan to let go.

I looked at him and finally say the words he begged me to say all those years ago.

“I love you Katsuya Jounochi, I always have.”

He looked at me and smiled, telling me he had never stopped loving me. This was a new start for us, the beginning of a whole new life that I am not going to loose. The girl he was going to marry I helped out, telling her this was my way of thanking her for bringing me such happiness. I know now what true happiness is.

Owari

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