Tabi no Kokoro
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Yu-Gi-Oh › Yaoi - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
4
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1,969
Reviews:
7
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Tabi no Kokoro
Tabi no Kokoro
Disclaimer: The story of Yu-Gi-Oh, it’s characters an Duel Monsters are the property of Takahasi Kazuki. I’m not making any money from the work of fiction only using his wonderful characters and series as my backdrop and nothing more.
Author’s Note: After having lived in fan fiction retirement for the last three years I’ve sharpened my quill once more. Instead of lending my somewhat rusty writing talents to the Harry Potter fandom I lead it this time to the Yu-Gi-Oh fandom. As a warning to my readers there are spoilers to the end of the series in this story. You have been warned. I hope you enjoy this work of fiction -your humble servant, khenemetset
Special Thanks: To my friend who’ll be beta reading the chapters for me.
Rating: R
Pairing: Atem x Yugi
Prologue: Journey of Reflections
The passage of time…life’s hardest thing to accept.
Five years. Five long years. Had it really been so long? It was really hard to imagine how quickly things changed. The passage of time was a constant in life; something one couldn’t change no matter how much one might have wished it could be done. In that movement of time people changed, they grew in body, heart and mind. They learned life‘s lessons, explored the world, failed in something and brought themselves up from the ashes of that failure into success, obtaining what they always wanted. It was a common thing for most people to go through. Just as common as breathing or walking. However, for some it was harder to accept the past, especially when they had neglected to say things….to express feelings for another.
And not a moment passed when Yugi Mouto didn’t ponder and dwell upon the largest mistake of his life. For him five years had been very long indeed and filled with loneliness. He may have grown and he may have been able to move forward in life as the now owner of the Kame game shop but he felt so empty since the one who was closest to his heart and soul had departed. Of course he had done the right thing in sending Atem to the Afterlife. It was where his mou hitori no boku, that being the affectionate name that the famed tri-color haired boy had given the spirit of the Sennen Puzzle, belonged. He didn’t belong in this time any longer and after having spent five thousand years in restless slumber trapped within the Puzzle he was deserving of his current restful state.
However, all of that didn’t erase Yugi’s feelings or his hidden depression over the years. Yes, he had his friends, and he cherished them all deeply, but none of them could replace what he and Atem had once shared. The bond that they shared had yet to be duplicated with anyone in this lifetime for Yugi and it was in that that his depression came from. He had no one to connect to on the same level, he was missing a soul mate and so much more. And worse still was the fact that his real feelings for his spirit friend hadn’t surfaced until after the other was gone. He hadn’t fully understood how much Atem had run away with his heart until he was no longer a part of it. Yes, Yugi had finally realized all those confusing feelings were indeed love or perhaps something that transcended most normal definitions of love. It was a soul-bonding and one that would never happen to him again.
His one true love was gone now and there was no way he could alter that. The passage of time being the unstoppable force that it was, had made it so that he would never see him again except for in memories. If he could turn back time he would express his feelings to the other then at least he would know if those affections had been shared in turn. But, he would never know and he would have to live with the truth that he would never have the chance to tell him. Indeed, it was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all…but it was a far different thing to have loved, lost and never had professed that love because it was unknown in full until the moment of the parting.
“Atem.” He whispered softly in his dream filled sleep
It was the same dream as always. The Ceremonial Battle with Atem, the fateful moment when he won and thereby gave his other self passage into the after life. It was then perhaps that he felt the gut wrenching feeling as he watched his other self leave him forever. The image was etched in the young boy’s, now turned man‘s, mind and not a day didn‘t pass where he didn‘t think upon that parting of ways. The bright light of the mystical doorway had outlined the form of his other self, giving them all the famed thumbs up, before he vanished through those stone doors and back to where he belonged. It was then that the familiar presence vanished forever from that special place within Yugi’s heart.
Daybreak…
A bright light filtered through the skylight over head. The gentle beams falling across the floor and the desk where the boy, now man, had fallen asleep looking through a memory book he had made. It contained mostly words, pictures of himself, Duel Monsters cards that had become as close to him as Atem had as well as his own drawing of Atem as he remembered him from all they had been through. It also contained his sketches of their trip to Egypt, the pyramids and the Memory Stele. Anything after that point was filled with darker and more depressing written expressions of his heart and soul…of the loneliness he felt.
Ring….ring…ring…
The alarm on his bed rang sharply, waking him instantly from his sleep. He pulled his face from the pages of the book and looked down at it with slightly blury and red eyes. He rubbed his eyes and then looked down at rhe book with a saddened expression on his face. The book was currently opened to his more current musings. Drawings of Atem and what Yugi longed for to have been. It was, disturbingly sad in a way but it all seemed to help him dull the pain of their separation over the years. Being able to express what he would never have had served as his only way to make it through it all these passed years. Finally, though he wouldn’t need those musings any longer.
He rose and closed the book gently, a few stray tears falling upon the black leather cover. The book would be making this trip and he gathered it into his arms before he packed it away in his bag. He quickly showered, clearing his mind even more as he stood there in the warmth of the water falling over his body, thinking about the past as he often did. It always left him feeling bitter-sweet but he was more sweet than bitter this time for whatever the reason. Dressing in his Domino High School uniform he gathered up his bag and left the shop for what would probably be the last time. He didn’t look back after he entered the cab and it drove away. He couldn’t look back for fear of missing it all already.
It would be five years since Yugi had been to Egypt and now he was making his way there once more. This journey of the heart was bound to be both a blessing and a curse but he didn’t care. He felt like he needed to make this sojourn and he had everything he needed to make it the best that he could. He would commemorate the day of Atem‘s passing in the same manner as it had happened. He had it all planned out down to the last second. There was only one thing he would change; he would finally express his feelings for the other at the very location of where they parted and to the day of that departure as well. Maybe in that moment he would find closure within his heart. Maybe he would finally be able to rest in peace himself.
Disclaimer: The story of Yu-Gi-Oh, it’s characters an Duel Monsters are the property of Takahasi Kazuki. I’m not making any money from the work of fiction only using his wonderful characters and series as my backdrop and nothing more.
Author’s Note: After having lived in fan fiction retirement for the last three years I’ve sharpened my quill once more. Instead of lending my somewhat rusty writing talents to the Harry Potter fandom I lead it this time to the Yu-Gi-Oh fandom. As a warning to my readers there are spoilers to the end of the series in this story. You have been warned. I hope you enjoy this work of fiction -your humble servant, khenemetset
Special Thanks: To my friend who’ll be beta reading the chapters for me.
Rating: R
Pairing: Atem x Yugi
Prologue: Journey of Reflections
The passage of time…life’s hardest thing to accept.
Five years. Five long years. Had it really been so long? It was really hard to imagine how quickly things changed. The passage of time was a constant in life; something one couldn’t change no matter how much one might have wished it could be done. In that movement of time people changed, they grew in body, heart and mind. They learned life‘s lessons, explored the world, failed in something and brought themselves up from the ashes of that failure into success, obtaining what they always wanted. It was a common thing for most people to go through. Just as common as breathing or walking. However, for some it was harder to accept the past, especially when they had neglected to say things….to express feelings for another.
And not a moment passed when Yugi Mouto didn’t ponder and dwell upon the largest mistake of his life. For him five years had been very long indeed and filled with loneliness. He may have grown and he may have been able to move forward in life as the now owner of the Kame game shop but he felt so empty since the one who was closest to his heart and soul had departed. Of course he had done the right thing in sending Atem to the Afterlife. It was where his mou hitori no boku, that being the affectionate name that the famed tri-color haired boy had given the spirit of the Sennen Puzzle, belonged. He didn’t belong in this time any longer and after having spent five thousand years in restless slumber trapped within the Puzzle he was deserving of his current restful state.
However, all of that didn’t erase Yugi’s feelings or his hidden depression over the years. Yes, he had his friends, and he cherished them all deeply, but none of them could replace what he and Atem had once shared. The bond that they shared had yet to be duplicated with anyone in this lifetime for Yugi and it was in that that his depression came from. He had no one to connect to on the same level, he was missing a soul mate and so much more. And worse still was the fact that his real feelings for his spirit friend hadn’t surfaced until after the other was gone. He hadn’t fully understood how much Atem had run away with his heart until he was no longer a part of it. Yes, Yugi had finally realized all those confusing feelings were indeed love or perhaps something that transcended most normal definitions of love. It was a soul-bonding and one that would never happen to him again.
His one true love was gone now and there was no way he could alter that. The passage of time being the unstoppable force that it was, had made it so that he would never see him again except for in memories. If he could turn back time he would express his feelings to the other then at least he would know if those affections had been shared in turn. But, he would never know and he would have to live with the truth that he would never have the chance to tell him. Indeed, it was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all…but it was a far different thing to have loved, lost and never had professed that love because it was unknown in full until the moment of the parting.
“Atem.” He whispered softly in his dream filled sleep
It was the same dream as always. The Ceremonial Battle with Atem, the fateful moment when he won and thereby gave his other self passage into the after life. It was then perhaps that he felt the gut wrenching feeling as he watched his other self leave him forever. The image was etched in the young boy’s, now turned man‘s, mind and not a day didn‘t pass where he didn‘t think upon that parting of ways. The bright light of the mystical doorway had outlined the form of his other self, giving them all the famed thumbs up, before he vanished through those stone doors and back to where he belonged. It was then that the familiar presence vanished forever from that special place within Yugi’s heart.
Daybreak…
A bright light filtered through the skylight over head. The gentle beams falling across the floor and the desk where the boy, now man, had fallen asleep looking through a memory book he had made. It contained mostly words, pictures of himself, Duel Monsters cards that had become as close to him as Atem had as well as his own drawing of Atem as he remembered him from all they had been through. It also contained his sketches of their trip to Egypt, the pyramids and the Memory Stele. Anything after that point was filled with darker and more depressing written expressions of his heart and soul…of the loneliness he felt.
Ring….ring…ring…
The alarm on his bed rang sharply, waking him instantly from his sleep. He pulled his face from the pages of the book and looked down at it with slightly blury and red eyes. He rubbed his eyes and then looked down at rhe book with a saddened expression on his face. The book was currently opened to his more current musings. Drawings of Atem and what Yugi longed for to have been. It was, disturbingly sad in a way but it all seemed to help him dull the pain of their separation over the years. Being able to express what he would never have had served as his only way to make it through it all these passed years. Finally, though he wouldn’t need those musings any longer.
He rose and closed the book gently, a few stray tears falling upon the black leather cover. The book would be making this trip and he gathered it into his arms before he packed it away in his bag. He quickly showered, clearing his mind even more as he stood there in the warmth of the water falling over his body, thinking about the past as he often did. It always left him feeling bitter-sweet but he was more sweet than bitter this time for whatever the reason. Dressing in his Domino High School uniform he gathered up his bag and left the shop for what would probably be the last time. He didn’t look back after he entered the cab and it drove away. He couldn’t look back for fear of missing it all already.
It would be five years since Yugi had been to Egypt and now he was making his way there once more. This journey of the heart was bound to be both a blessing and a curse but he didn’t care. He felt like he needed to make this sojourn and he had everything he needed to make it the best that he could. He would commemorate the day of Atem‘s passing in the same manner as it had happened. He had it all planned out down to the last second. There was only one thing he would change; he would finally express his feelings for the other at the very location of where they parted and to the day of that departure as well. Maybe in that moment he would find closure within his heart. Maybe he would finally be able to rest in peace himself.