Missing

Hello everyone! This is PharaohYamisPrincess. I kind of forgot my login name so I had to make a new account. Anyway, I am back! Again, Evanesence has inspired a fanfiction with one of theit songs. This time it's "Missing". I don't know what it is about their music but it supplies me with many fic ideas. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this one.

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh *pout* or the song "Missing" by Evanesence.

~Song lyrics~
'Thoughts'
"Speech"


Missing

The normally active household was now practically silent except for the sound of music being played softly in one of the small bedrooms. In that room, Ryou laid on the bed in quiet thought, which matched the music almost perfectly. The song that was playing was “Missing” by Evanescence. The soft and angelic voice sang the words melodically.

~Please, please forgive me
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up
And barely conscious you'll say to no one
Isn’t something missing?~

Ryou sighed softly as he listened to the words that were being sung. ‘How stupid am I?’ Ryou thought to himself. ‘He’d never have any interest in me. He barely even notices me unless it’s for me to get him something or do something for him. He even beats me sometimes when he comes home after a bad day. He could never feel for me how I feel for him.’

~You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?
Isn’t someone missing me?~

No one knew about his feelings for the other person. He was too afraid to tell anyone in fear that they would call him crazy for loving someone like that. But how could he not? Ryou couldn’t help but be attracted him. His attitude and his looks were enough to send him up the wall when thinking about him. Ryou was truly in love but no one else in the world had a clue.

~Even though I’m the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I’d die to know you loved me
I’m all alone
Isn’t someone missing me?~

Ryou got up from the bed and looked out his window. The bright and sunny day had turned into a dreary and rainy night. The house was quite close to one of the main parks of Domino, which allowed him to see a few couples walking together under umbrellas hurrying to get home and out of the rain to spend some time with each other. Where was the person he wanted to hold him? He was currently paying a visit to his lover.

~Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"~

‘He loves Marik. I have no chance.’ Ryou thought sadly as he sat on the small seat next to the window. His reflection could barely visible due to the single dim lamp, which was on in the corner of the room. ‘What could he see in me anyway? I’m weak, quiet, and shy.’ A flash of lightning lit up the room and the dark sky outside for a second followed by a faint roll of thunder. The weather outside was a perfect reflection of how he felt.

~Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?~

Ryou couldn’t remember how many times he had attempted to tell the person of his affection how he felt. Every time he would try, he wouldn’t be able to do it. It was the mixture of fear of rejection and his beauty that would cause him to freeze up. When he couldn’t speak his feelings, the person would just end up walking away with his lover. Seeing the two together always broke his heart. No one knew how much Ryou wished he could take Marik’s place.

~And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...~

Ryou was now determined to let the person know exactly how he felt. He didn’t quite know how he would do it, but he knew that maybe he could get some help from his friend Malik if it came to it. A small smile finally appeared on his face as we thought about being held and loved. That was the only thing that Ryou wanted in the entire world, and he would now not stop until he got it.

~Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn’t something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?~

“Bakura…” Ryou spoke softly to himself. “I’ll make sure you know how I feel…somehow…”


I hope you guys liked it! In the fic, I'm going to attempt my first ever yaoi sex scene. Wish me luck with it. *giggles* Anyway, please review! I'd love some feedback. ^.^ *hands Ryou plushies to people who review*