To Lose

Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh Gx. I do not own the basis for this fanfiction, the concept is taken with permission from “Yami’s Chan” fanfiction ‘Slut’. I make no money from this.


To Lose
By 11


Chapter 09
Slut

It hurt. Everything hurt. The walking hurt, the cool air hurt, and his backside was searing with the remnants of Sartorius. It took too long to reach the slifer dorms, but he was glad he came.

Chazz didn’t let himself in. The door wasn’t locked, Jaden’s door was never locked, but Chazz didn’t bother to turn the handle. The walls were thin, so was the door. If he listened hard enough he thought he could almost hear Jaden yawning in his sleep.

But he didn’t enter. Since yesterday… Jaden had said it was okay, since the bed was cleaned, so it was fine. But it didn’t feel safe.

He was tired of standing. He staggered the last few steps to the indent under the stairs. It wasn’t clean, but neither was Chazz. There was a nook where he could rest his head, and cold concrete had never felt more comfortable.

He wouldn’t have been able to sleep, at least not very well. But Chazz’s impromptu sleeping under the stairs was interrupted when Jaden’s door opened and shut behind the brunette. Chazz started, and Jaden turned yawning in the opposite direction toward the bathroom.

Chazz waited wide awake in dumb silence. He heard the flush and the sink run, silence, and then Jaden was walking just as sluggishly back toward his room. He stopped when he got to the doorway. Dark brown eyes blinking back sleep as he peered at the dark shape under the stairs.

“Chazz?” Jaden wondered; voice half-muddled by sleep. “What are you doing there?”

Chazz released a breath; he hadn’t realized he’d been holding it since Jaden left his room. But when he heard the other’s voice any apprehension and anxiousness had somehow evaporated.

He moved out from under the stairs, his muscles only offering vague protest. Jaden scratched his head and yawned again opening his door, “You could have let yourself in, you know.”

Chazz followed him inside. Jaden fell into the bottom bunk, the covers were already pulled back from when he’d gotten up. Chazz stood dumbly blinking blearily in the dark room. He registered he should climb into the top bunk to sleep but he didn’t move.

Jaden’s face turned back toward him, and then he picked himself back up from the bed. A simple uncontested action, innocent enough, Jaden took his hand and pulled him toward the bed.

He pulled until Chazz was already half-lying on the bed, then Jaden relaxed back himself. “You okay?”

Chazz nodded but Jaden’s eyes were already closed and his breathing was beginning to even out. Chazz lowered the rest of his body to the bed. Jaden’s hand was still loose around his wrist.

It smelled like Jaden, the same heat from Jaden seemed to permeate the bed and the room. For the moment Chazz could almost entirely ignore the aches and pains. But he also wasn’t tired then because as much as he was able to relax he was also on edge.

He was already too close but he shifted closer until he could make out the shadow of Jaden’s eyelashes on his cheeks. His hand shifted in Jaden’s and turned to press his fingers into the brunette’s palm tracing down his wrist then up his arm.

A sigh hissed past Jaden’s lips when Chazz’s hand followed up to his body and brushed across his chest and down his abdomen. Chazz’s hand felt cold compared to Jaden’s body heat.

It may have been wrong, in fact he probably knew it wasn’t something he should do – he knew it the first time. But his head was clouded, and the dark flush of color and the hitch in the other’s breathing always became too addictive at this point to stop.

He didn’t stop when Jaden’s breath hitched. He didn’t stop when Jaden gasped and his breath came in harsh short gasps. He could never stop when Jaden started to squirm, his hips arcing toward him.

But the moment Jaden made a sound – a moan, a cry, his hand shot back away from him. Then Chazz’s hand would shake and he’d hold himself as still as possible, watching as the flush of Jaden’s face slowly receded and the strange look of arousal disappeared from Jaden’s face.

It was unnatural, although Jaden never looked unnatural when his cheeks reddened or his breathe became jagged; he made it look right even though Chazz knew it wasn’t. Chazz shifted and turned his back toward the brunette tonight.

He shouldn’t touch Jaden. He couldn’t touch Jaden… he absolutely couldn’t.

But again it was memories of Jaden’s flushed face and the soft haunting mewl he made that echoed in his ears staving off sickness and disgust when Chazz was invaded over and over again, later the following day.

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He’d lost count, but of the four of them this time they each had to have cum in him twice. He was on his knees and it was the third pounding useless hard hot flesh down his backside, leaving finger-shaped bruises on his hips.

The fluid was still warm and with every thrust it sloshed around inside him – Chazz’s face forced down on the floor, his lungs fighting for breath at the odd angle while also trying to fight back the bile in his throat.

It felt gross, it was gross. It felt disgusting, and it was disgusting. The thrusts slowed briefly as they laughing exchanged words, fingers reaching in and tracing inside his hole before jamming his hard prick back inside.

Chazz’s insides twisted painfully and he choked back vomit again. They were doing it in the hallway again, the area just beneath the stairs for the third floor – not many people came by here, but classes had already started – these boys were skipping and now Chazz was too.

Jaden would have been in his next class. He hadn’t wanted to skip – he’d actually managed to do the essay due in that class today. Had Jaden? He wouldn’t be surprised if he’d forgotten.

Maybe Jaden should have skipped to do the essay and turn it in tomorrow. If he’d asked Chazz, he’d have skipped with him, willingly. If Jaden had wanted to do it, the two of them, under the third floor stairs he probably would have – but there’s no way it would feel like this.

Jaden wouldn’t shove meaty hurting fingers up his backside just to laugh at how wet it had become with all the cum in him. But he might not have minded the cum filling him up if Jaden had put it there.

Just thinking about him he could ignore the heavy mouth breather behind him, and the other three jeering on. Jaden’s breath didn’t sound so strange and gross – when his breath became jagged there was something about it that made Chazz’s breath come harsher too.

Jaden’s hands wouldn’t leave bruises like that along his hips – his hands were always so warm – like last night on his wrist – not bruising, but just strong enough to guide Chazz to what he wanted. What would it be like with those hands guiding his hips?

Jaden…

Chazz hadn’t even realized he’d moaned the name aloud before the four guffawing laughter invaded his ears and the hands on his hips rocked him harshly, grinding the hard meat harshly into his backside in quick painful strokes.

“Hah! Saying that guy’s name, when I’m this deep in you, slut?”

“Guess just us aren’t good enough? You need more dick shoved in you, is that right, slut?”

“Hah – look at his hole, it’s already so pink, and fluttering around me – check it out!”

Chazz hissed as fingers pulled at the sensitive skin of his opening, pulling even farther, stinging, even while the faceless mass was shoving balls-deep inside him, throbbing and pulsing sick heat.

“He’s just not full yet? I told you we should try and stick two up there one time!”

“Well he can have more jizz – I got plenty!”

Chazz started, but the other was already in front of him, and a harsh hand twisted in his hair holding his down.

Limp meat was being stroked in front of him, and the boy leered, stroking himself to hardness pointing it towards Chazz’s face. “Here you go slut.”

Chazz closed his mouth and eyes trying to turn away as the youth released hot fluid in his face. The disgustingly familiar musk of arousal and cum reached him and his body shuddered in revulsion.

The youth finished and Chazz spit to get any away from his mouth, daring to open his eyes when nothing was sealing them shut, he wished he’d kept them closed from the sight of white clear sticky junk all over his shoulder, over his cheek, and the floor.

He felt the other release up his backside – hot cum sloshing into the rest inside him, and he bit back the bile, he was going to be sick, he was absolutely going to be sick; there was no way any human could stand this much!

“Ah! He’s still so pink, and it’s still fluttering like you said.”

The meaty fingers were back pressing inside him, pulling his hole open, “Wow, there really is a lot in there,” he laughed, “and the slut still wants more huh?”

They weren’t done yet?!

“Come on, you’re not saying ‘Jaden, Jaden,’ anymore?” The fingers pressed inside and curled, “Ah, it’s swallowing me up, does it do that when you think of him?”

“Aren’t you done yet?” Chazz snarled, “Isn’t it unnatural that you’re so fixated here – or is it possible you just can’t get any anywhere else!”

Chazz spat back. The hand in his hair tightened and his face was forced to the floor. He shut his eyes and turned. His cheek planted against cum and urine. “Slut! We’re doing you the favor here – you’re the one that needs to be filled so many times!”

“I’m sure more would fit in here,” the other mused now stroking himself, “and you love it – this sucks up everything it gets!”

“Oh, ‘this’ would…” the other laughed, fingers prodding inside him, stinging the sensitive skin of his backside. Chazz shook and tried to move, but hands held him down. He was so sick, and he was so tired, and everything hurt – and there was still nothing he could do.

“Let’s try it out then huh?”

Chazz cried out as the other slid hard flesh inside of him, like the other times, no preparation, no warning, and never gentle. “Ah, I’ll have to work up to it then – won’t be hard considering even after saying that this place still swallows me so wantonly!”

It stung and it would sting more – the fluid inside sloshed with every thrust, and Chazz wasn’t sure he could stop himself from vomiting this time.

“-he just won’t tell me what’s wrong.”

Sartorius?

“Charles is very strong-willed so perhaps he wouldn’t tell me, but surely he might have mentioned it to you?”

Who was he talking to?

“If he hasn’t, I wonder what that says about you’re friendship-!!” Sartorius stopped short as he and his companion rounded the corner toward the stairs, the thrusting never stopped but Chazz was positive his heart stopped dead in his chest.

“Oh! What’s this…?” Sartorius covered his grin with his hand, a show of shock, but Chazz missed it. Chazz missed it because he was staring mortified, at something else.

Jaden.

All heat had left his blood. What was Jaden doing here…?

No. Jaden would hate him now. Jaden would definitely hate him now. No. No. No.

His body jerked in a move to get away but cruel hands held him fast, tightening on his hips and in his hair. He couldn’t move.

“What, he still hasn’t had enough?”

“The slut’s just impatient.”

Chazz choked back a cry when the pounding increased – the sting pulsing along his insides even worse than the throb of the hurting meat shoved inside.

No! No! No! Jaden! Jaden was seeing this! No! Not Jaden! It was too much now! He couldn’t take it! Jaden was watching!

Heat returned to his blood, because Jaden was watching. Just staring, and Chazz couldn’t meet his eyes – not when just knowing he was there was making Chazz shudder and harden. It was all wrong – maybe no one would notice?

“What’s this?”

“Hah! The slut’s getting hard now?”

“Oh I get it! It’s because he’s here! Is that right slut? Do you want his dick in your ass? Is that right?”

“Why don’t you ask him nicely? ‘Please put your hard hot dick in my wet asshole?’ ”

Chazz shuddered, and they laughed again pointing out how his member stiffened and twitched at the idea. Then they touched it – they’d never done that before – and it was all for Jaden’s benefit.

Chazz tried to choke them back his face flush with anger, embarrassment, and arousal. He couldn’t keep them all back – and they laughed even more when the sounds slipped past. A choke, a sob, a moan, a gasp – and how they taunted.

Why was Jaden here?! Why?! Why?!!

With a cry the boys hands retreated, and hot fluid sloshed more inside him, a hot trail coating his hair and the side of his face. He shook, he was still hard, and Jaden was still there.

They pulled out and their hands moved away. Chazz still couldn’t move. Jaden was there. Jaden saw. Jaden would hate him. He didn’t want that… his body seemed to have a clear enough idea of what he wanted though.

Sartorius stepped closer but Chazz didn’t move to look at him either. He didn’t understand – did Sartorius know about this? Or did he see that and think he was enjoying himself?!

“Still hard Charles?”

Sartorius’ voice cut him and Chazz choked back a whimper. It hardly even mattered what Sartorius thought – but Jaden hadn’t moved, he hadn’t said anything!

Sartorius’s hand rested on his hip, his fingers pulling at his opening – Chazz couldn’t choke back a sharp cry in time. The other three laughed.

“So, the slut’s not full yet?” Sartorius addressed his next question to Jaden, and Chazz could have sworn he died then, “Since you’re still here, maybe you’d like a go as well? Word is everyone else has.”

Jaden? In him?

Yes!

NO!! Not like this! But Chazz swallowed a moan at the thought – even in this situation, his member pulsed with want. Jaden hadn’t said anything, and Chazz dared to glance in the brunette’s direction.

He hadn’t meant to look him in the eyes, but he did – his breath caught and his member ached, twitching. Sunset eyes were locked on him, but his expression – Chazz couldn’t decipher it.

He didn’t know what Jaden thought – that wasn’t hate, that wasn’t features contorted in disgust or rejection but he didn’t know what it was. It scared him – he had no idea what the idiot was thinking, but to his own horror, somehow that excited him. More than that, Jaden’s pants... Chazz shivered, there was a bulge there – but that meant?!

Jaden wanted him?

His head buzzed and his body shook, his member throbbing vaguely – but it was all wrong. This wasn’t a good thing, not now, this wasn’t right at all!

Then Jaden moved. Chazz’s breathing stopped, because Jaden was walking toward him… was he…?! His blood buzzed with heat and arousal, everything tight with tension and need – except his chest. It felt like his chest was being crushed to bits.

… not like this… Jaden? No… not when Chazz loved him…

“Get away from him.” Jaden ordered, but again though the voice was Jaden the tone was so alien, Chazz had no idea what it was. Sartorius withdrew his hand and fingers, the boys and Sartorius moved away.

Then his hands were around Chazz’s hips – he started, and choked back a short cry – because he was hoisted into the air. His muscle protested after having been shoved down in that position so long.

He clenched his insides trying to keep the cum inside – to keep it from puddling out all over Jaden. Then he was over the brunette’s shoulder, shaking. He was still hard, and the cum inside him was starting to drool out down his thighs.

He was having trouble breathing suddenly. What on earth was going on?!

“Now, all of you,” Jaden’s voice wasn’t so hard to read now – commanding, “Stay away.”

Chazz shuddered again, not moving – what was going to happen now? What was Jaden doing? What was he going to do?!

Jaden hated him, he had to hate him!

Chazz barely registered when Jaden threw Chazz’s clothes over his shoulder on top of him. Then they were walking, and Chazz held back whimpers as achy muscles protested and hot fluid leaked out of his backside.

He had no idea what was going on – none. But Jaden seemed to be walking in the direction of the slifer dorms.

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