Still

Still

Summary: Sometimes it helps to simply be and feel your life.
Disclaimer: I don’t own YGO.
Warning:


Ryuzaki lay in bed. He’d been staring at the ceiling for who knows how long. He couldn’t tell if he’d slept or whether he’s watched the ceiling the whole time. It didn’t matter.

The tears had stopped. It was morning, just nearly noon. Had he really been here this long? Since lunch yesterday?

When Haga totally crushed me in front of everyone…just like he did the first time…

He sat up lazily, giving a wide yawn and licking his canine like some tired dog.

“Shower…” he croaked, shimmying out of his pants and tossing off his shirt.

He took a long shower, smiling into the warmth of the shower, feeling absent from it all. He washed his hair and hands and smoothed the soap over his skin, building it into a lather. He smoothed it over his flat stomach, wishing he worked out more.

Then I could have abs. Eight minute abs…

He laughed, grinning crookedly as he wrote “R&H 4-Eva” in the perfumed substance, washing it away with a frown.

You’re acting like a school girl… he told him self, getting out and reaching for a towel.

“I feel like a school girl…” he muttered, wrapping a towel around his waist and admiring himself in the mirror.

He had wide eyes and surprisingly long lashes if anyone cared to look. He remembered his father once telling him that he looked like his mother, but he never believed it. On a whim, he made his hair into a pony tail and stared at himself.

Eh…I guess…

Ryuzaki made a face, ruining any semblance of beauty and wrote a crude word in the part of the mirror still covered in steam.

“And I’m so thin…I should eat more than ramen and Chinese food…” he sighed and shuffled back into the bedroom. “And get a bigger place…” He edged around the bed which took up nearly all of the room and began rifling through his drawers.

I’ll go walking today…

****

Haga sat with Rikuo in the park, eating ice cream. He listened to Rikuo talk about some thing or another and briefly wondered why they weren’t in school.

Summer In-service you dope…

“You know what I mean Haga?”

He nodded absently and licked his mint chocolate chip ice cream. Rikuo had bought it without even asking if he liked it. It wasn’t that he didn’t, it was just that Rikuo hadn’t asked. He’d given the ice cream to the insector, telling him it was the color of his hair.

That’s a stupid reason to like an ice cream…I wanted strawberry…or Passion fruit…

Rikuo’s hand lowered Haga’s cone suddenly and he felt lips on his own. He let the boy kiss him again, smiling good naturedly when it was done. The midnight haired boy took a few breathes and smiled.

“I really like kissing you. You make me feel really, really good…”

Haga gave a low chuckle and licked his ice cream, chewing on a chocolate chip.

“Could we…have sex?”

The insector nearly choked. He looked at Rikuo with wide eyes. “What?”

Rikuo blushed crimson. “I mean…not now, I mean…after awhile…it’s just…you make me feel really good and I just…it’s be wonderful if we could share our bodies with each other.” He glanced at Haga nervously and ate his ice cream.

What the fuck… he thought, eating another chocolate chip. Fuck no we can’t have sex. Not in a million years… He shivered suddenly and Rikuo put his arm around Haga, grinning, his eyes half mooning behind his glasses.

“Cold?”

“um, brain freeze!”

Lips found his again and Haga felt himself growing more and more uncomfortable.

He sure likes to kiss a lot. And it’s not that it’s not pleasant it’s just that, god he’s got no technique at all!

Suddenly, an image of Ryuzaki sucking him off flashed in his mind and moaned, jumping. Rikuo pulled away, grinning, giving Haga what he probably thought was the sexiest look in the world.

“What were you thinking about?”

Haga laughed and gently removed Rikuo’s hand from between his legs.

“Nothing really…” He started to eat his ice cream again and Rikuo held his unoccupied hand.

“Want to go to dinner tonight?”

“Yeah, I guess.”

“Alright.”

****

Ryuzaki walked for a long time until and idea popped in his head. Before he knew it, his feet had taken him to a very unlikely place.

The Kame Game shop.

He went inside and noticed an old man sitting at the counter.

“Hello! What can I do for you today?”

“Um…is…Yugi here?”

Sugoroku recognized the boy as one of Yugi’s dueling rivals and nodded. “He’s upstairs. I’ll get him. Boy needs to watch the shop anyway.”

Ryuzaki nodded and waited for Yugi to show up. Mean while, he browsed the rare card display.

Yugi walked into the room and saw Ryuzaki, surprise on his features. “Ryuzaki?”

The Dinosaur master turned around to see Yugi with an unexpected person. “Yugi?!” He pointed at the boy’s bare mid-drift and skimpy shorts. “Jesus were you two just fucking?”

The person with Yugi gave a sinister grin. “What’s it to you? Looking to get your soul sent to the shadow realm again?”

Ryuzaki gulped and shook his head. “I –I wanted to talk with Yugi, that’s all…”

Yugi patted his boyfriend’s cheek. “Bad Marik. You go away now.”

Marik growled and kissed Yugi’s fingers, holding the boy tighter. “I think I’ll stay…”

Ryuzaki’s eyes were saucers as he regarded Marik and Yugi. This was just too odd. He blinked a few times and looked at Yugi. “I need your help…I guess…or advice…or something…”

“Okay, let’s go to the living room.” Yugi started to walk away, yelling for his grandfather to watch the shop.

They all went into the living room Marik showing his possessive nature by pulling Yugi onto his lap. The spike haired teen laughed and hugged him, looking at Ryuzaki.

“What can I help you with?”

“…I…I want to impress someone, show them that…I really like them and that I’m not the loser they said I am.”

Yugi blinked. “Um…wow. I thought this was going to be about dueling…” he got off Marik’s lap and sat near Ryuzaki, a bit confused. “You do realize you’re talking to Yugi Motou right?”

“Yes.” Ryuzaki was looking him in the face. “What’s the problem?”

“We’re not exactly friends and this is so out of the blue.” The spike haired teen gave a smile anyway. “But I want to help you. Who is it?”

Ryuzaki colored and leaned forward to whisper in Yugi’s ear. The shorter teen made a face and the Dinosaur Master whipped out his wallet.

“This is what he looks like now.”

Yugi took the picture and blinked. “Oh, now that’s just –Was he wearing contacts?”

“No, they told him to take off his glasses because they were causing glare! Great huh? He doesn’t notice me at all though…” Ryuzaki looked down at his hands, putting the picture away. “I guess I’ll start at the beginning…”

Marik got up and yawned. “Chibi, I’ll be upstairs on your computer.”

“Okay.” He watched the yami go and sighed. “He’s going to look up all sorts of horrible things I just know it…” He turned his attention back to Ryuzaki. “Yes, please, start at the beginning…”

****

What was he doing? Why was he allowing this?

Rikuo folded the top of Haga’s shirt down and kissed hungrily at his shoulders and neck, pressing him against the car seat, his hardness pressing into the insector’s thigh.

Haga felt hands going for his belt and he stopped them, shaking his head. “Look, I’ve got to get ready for dinner so –”

“It’s only four…” the boy breathed, capturing Haga’s mouth with eager lips. “Please let’s just be together some more?”

Then Rikuo was all over him. Haga felt himself being laid down and humped. Rikuo rubbed against him desperately, moaning and grunting, mouthing any skin he could reach.

Haga turned his face away, his face going red in embarrassment as he too began to get hard. Rikuo seemed to enjoy this and rubbed with renewed vigor.

“I love you Haga…” he whined, crying out and keening as he came in his pants.

Haga bit his lip and closed his eyes in shame as he came as well. Rikuo kissed his ear and sat them back up.

“I knew you liked me too…” Rikuo fixed his clothes, smiling and putting his glasses back on. “We’re perfect for each other. I can’t wait till the real thing…”

The insector sat there a bit dazed, reaching for his glasses and putting them on carefully before he put his shirt back on all the way, feeling more than disgusting.

“Haga?”

He snapped back to reality. “Yes?”

“I’ll pick you up at six?”

“Yeah…”

Doing his best not to run inside screaming, Haga left the car and went to his apartment. He peeled off his clothes and got in the shower, scrubbing himself. His skin was red and he leaned under the spray, beginning to sob.

What the hell was that Haga? What are you some sort of whore? Rikuo is creepy as hell and you’re just going to let him aren’t you?

The insector re-washed himself with care and stepped out of the shower, staring in the mirror.

Was it wrong of me to think of him while he was rubbing against me that way? He wrote kanji in the steam, leaving the bathroom.

Tell me, would it please you Ryuzaki?

****

Ryuzaki left Yugi’s place feeling confident and energized. He’d just go right up to Haga and tell him exactly how he felt, damn the consequences.

However, as he neared his part of the city and noticed the sun going down he also felt his confidence going down. He couldn’t just show up on Haga’s doorstep spouting all that love crap!

He stood in front of Haga’s building and looked at his watch.

Six thirty…six thirty…I mean, he could be eating dinner…

He thought he heard a door open and ran for it.

I’ll come back later Haga! I promise!

The Dinosaur master ran away and towards home, determined to come back later.


****

Haga would have enjoyed dinner more if Rikuo would stop running his hand up his thigh.

They were in a formal sit down restaurant and while Rikuo did look dashing in his black suit and golden yellow tie, he was being very touchy feely. Haga had worn a dark blue suit with a metallic greenish tie with silver and white lines flowing through it. He could tell by the young women looking his way that he looked quite fashionable. He’d worn his contacts tonight so, there were many people looking his way.

Especially Rikuo. The amber eyed senior wouldn’t stop giving him lustful gazes or what he thought were bedroom eyes.

He cut his steak and chewed it carefully, briefly thinking about the parasite and worms found in meat that didn’t die when cooked.

His steak was medium rare.

“So, when the formal school year begins anew, would you like to go to the graduation dance with me in March?”

“Rikuo, that’s months from now.”

“I know…but soon we won’t get to spend much time together. I’ll be going to Juku everyday after school and the weekends to prepare for college.”

Haga sipped his water. “It’s months away.” He said again, eating the potatoes that came with his food. “We’ll talk about it later.”

Rikuo smiled. “You must be thinking of other things hm? Like this afternoon?” He rubbed Haga’s thigh again and the mint haired boy gave a smile.

“Don’t Rikuo, not here.”

The dark haired boy nodded and pushed at his food, clearly uninterested. Haga shivered at the look in the boy’s eyes, knowing what he wanted and tried to slow his eating, realizing he didn’t have much left.

Damn it! Just say you don’t want to have sex with him! Say it say it say it!

“Done?”

“Yes…” he whispered.

Rikuo paid for the meal and the two left, driving in silence in the boy’s car. The midnight haired boy kissed Haga passionately at the stop lights, trying to pull the lust out of him.

It wasn’t working, but Rikuo didn’t seem to notice.

They went again to Haga’s apartment, Rikuo removing his jacket and tossing it over the couch back. He pulled the mint haired boy to him and kissed him hungrily, beginning to undress him.

Haga stopped him. “Ah…please can’t we just…go slow?”

Rikuo nodded and they moved to the couch, again with Rikuo being aggressive in his attention. Haga let the boy kiss his neck, loosen his tie, unbutton his shirt, remove his belt and feel beneath, under, and finally inside.

He flinched as Rikuo laid him down, the boy’s pants already open, his arousal apparent.

“Rikuo? Rikuo please –Mmph…”

“I know…” he breathed. “I want to as well…”

Say no Haga! Say no!

Now body to body, Rikuo was trying to force his pants down and that’s when he began to struggle.

“Please stop Rikuo –I don’t want this!”

“Haga, don’t be this way. I see the way you look at me. You want it as much as I do…” He pinned him and began to yank at his pants.

“STOP!” he yelled, beginning to panic. “Rikuo stop! Stop! –Ah!”

The black haired boy loomed over him, glasses gone and looking feral. “Just shut up! I’ve dreamed of this for so long! I won’t let you say no!”

Haga cried out as his boxers were yanked down and Rikuo restrained his wrists, tasting his manhood.

“NO!” he cried, tears coming. “STOP! PLEASE STOP!”

“Oh you taste so good Haga! You’re my number one forever and always…” He went down on the boy again and he screamed, trying to struggle, but Rikuo was so heavy.

****

Ryuzaki screwed up his courage. He’d been pacing outside for at least ten minutes.

It’s now or never Ryuzaki!

He pushed his way into the building and raced up the staris, stopping gin front of Haga’s apartment. He was about to knock when he heard a horrified scream.

His eyes widened.

“HAGA?!”


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*Mwa ha ha ha ha ha! Mwa ha ha ha!
*To find out the conversation between Yugi and Ryuzaki, or at least a part or so, read “Summer Time Magic” ^w^
*I would like to thank Muzaki_Goddess for inspiring this fic.