The Sweetest Taboo

I hope you guys like this chapter...it's another personal
favorite...it's Seto's POV, and he recalls when Mokuba chewed his
ass. I've also sped up the events in this story to a week later, and
Joey and Yugi's plan is commencing nicely. Hope you like it!


I apologize for the wait...I didn't think Millenium Gold would go over so well, but hell it has!! I struggle to bring you more hentai and angst with each encounter...I hope I'm doing a good job!!

This chapter is dedicated to Melissa and LupusDragon, for all their wonderful reviews on both my stories.

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How I wish I had restraint.

If I'd only had restraint, then I would still have my koinu. But I
don't. Joey won't even look at me at school now. He's more content to
just hang around Yugi, which for some reason disturbs me. I mean,
yeah, I know I screwed all this up myself, but I AM Seto Kaiba. I
don't like the word "defeat."

Joey and Yugi are acting awfully "chummy." They're always together,
and always smiling and laughing when I see them. I can't stand that;
Joey's smiles should belong only to ME. I am the one who loves him. I
am the one who treats him like a god. He is MINE.

At least he was.

I rubbed my face tiredly, thinking of the events from the past week.
If you thought Joey's tongue blistered me, then you weren't around to
hear Mokuba. My little brother has never opposed me before, so this
came as a complete shock.

* FLASHBACK *

I came through the door of the mansion, leaning my head up against
it. Frustrated, I walked into the living roo sit sit down and think
of everything that happened. 'Oh, Joey, I hope you didn't mean what
you said...about not wanting me anymore. I still love you...a great
deal. I didn't meancheacheat on you with Yami. It just... happened. I
feel connected to him in a way I don't even understand myself.'

I raked my hand through my hair in an agitated manner. I sat there,
contemplating strategies on how to win my koinu back, when the front
door opened and slammed quickly. Footsteps sounded down the hall, and
in raced Mokuba, home from school.

"Big brother, did you know someone keyed the Diablo?" he asked, his
gray-blue eyes wide with both fear and worry.

"Yes, Mokuba, I know it's been keyed," I responded tiredly. "I'll
take it to be refinished tomorrow."

"Well, do you know who keyed it?"

"Yes, I do. It was Joey."

"Joey?! Why would he do such a thing?"

"He and I got into an argument. He caught me in a compromising
situation, and it hurt him pretty badly."

"Does that mean you aren't gonna see him anymore?" I heard tears in
his voice, and I looked up to see those wide eyes filled with
them. 'Awwww fuck, I didn't mean to hurt Mokuba too. Damn, I can't do
anything right.'

"We aren't speaking at the moment, little brother," I informed him as
gently as I could. "Hopefully, though, we'll talk again. He needs
some time to cool off and think."

Mokuba's eyes narrowed. "Just what kind of 'compromising situation'
did Joey catch you in, big brother?"

"He caught me and Yami in an.... intimate embrace," I responded
tiredly. 'I am not in the mood for this....'

"In other words, he caught you fucking Yami, huh?" Mokuba said
sarcastically.

"Watch you language and your tone," I warned him in an angry
voice. "I don't have to explain myself to you for any reason."

"Oh, but you do, big brother," Mokuba said, sounding too much like me
in that instant. "If Joey doesn't come back, I'll never forgive you
for it. EVER. I love him, too, and I can't believe you'd mess up the
best thing you've ever had just for a piece of something you more
than likely weren't meant to have." He turned my way then, the tears
falling from his eyes rapidly. "I'm not speaking to you until you get
Joey back." With that, he turned and ran upstairs, and as he went, I
could hear his sobs.

Mokuba's never spoken to me like that... EVER. My mouth is hanging
open in stunned disbelief. I didn't know Mokuba cared so much for
Joey. I mean, sure, whenever Joey comes over, he does play video
games and talk to him, but I never thought they'd connected on a
level as well. "Shimatta," I whisper to myself. "Not only have I lost
Joey's love, I've fallen off the pedestal Mokuba puts me on."

I bowed my head in my hands again. I WILL get them both back...my
brother's respect, and my koinu's love. I mean it.

* END FLASHBACK *

It seems like everyone I touch, I find a way to fuck it up. And now
obviously Joey's seeking comfort in Yugi's arms, which makes my
insides boil and freeze at the same time. I haven't spoken to Yami;
he and I kind of made a silent agreement to stay away from each other
until this was resolved. I miss him, too... the way he looks at me,
the way he smiles, his dark, sexy voice, those eyes... oh God, those
eyes...

"Stop thinking like that, Seto," I scolded myself mentally. 'That's
how you got into this situation in the first place...'

I pounded my fist on my desk. I WILL get Joey back. I mean it.

And maybe, just maybe, I'll get Yami back too.

And if I'm really lucky, I'll get Yugi into this as well. He is sort
of a cute little thing, now that I look at him... but I still want to
know the depths of his and Joey's relationship. Is it just
friendship, or something more?

If it is something more, then maybe we can all be incorporated into
the group. Yeah, right. As if someone as pure as Yugi would like
someone with a past like mine. But then again, he does love Yami,
doesn't he? There may be hope for me yet.

I've never lost at anything. (That one time I did in Duel Monsters
doesn't count). And I don't intend to start.

I'll get you back Joey... That's a promise.

I love you too much to totally let go.
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donna ni tsurakatta kako ga
yukue o kabande mo
hosoi hikari ga boku ni wa mieru yo
kitto maboroshi janai sa

kimi no tsuyosa to yasashisa nara
mamoreru kamoshirenai hontou no omoi
hito no kokoro wa kawareru mono
sou shinjite mitai ashita o okiru tame
mou nakanaide boku ga iru kara...

No matter how hard the past was
Or if you have been lost
I can see a small light
It is not an illusion.

If it is your strength and kindness,
I just might be able to protect my true feelings.
Peple's hearts are changing things
I want to try to believe that, so I can live until tomorrow.
Please don't cry anymore, because I am here...


The song above is "Strength," from yet another kick-ass anime, X. I
chose that song because it suits Seto perfectly... despite all the
things happening, he still has the strength to go forward. This
chapter was fun to write, especially since I was already finished
with it technically, and I just added a few things. Yami's POV is
next....