My life my pain

POV Kaiba

”Yes, it was him,” Ryou spoke up. ”So, will you help us?”

“I made a deal with Yami; yes, I will help.” I tried to keep my voice as calm as possible. I was still a bit shaken from waking up to Jounouchi’s crotch, almost touching it with my nose.

“Help with what?” Jounouchi looked questioningly from me to Ryou and back to me.

“With my help we might be able to bring the Yamis back,” I said. I loved his shocked face. So damn cute.

“What? How?”

“First off, I will have to fly to Egypt. I will go visit Malik, and he should be able to give me some ancient texts with instructions for a proper prayer to Ra. Also, I will need my…the millennium rod too…and…”

“Wait,” Jounouchi interrupted, “how will you get the rod? It was lost with all the other millennium items.”

“No, they weren’t.” It was Ryou who answered. He stood up from his bed and went to his drawer where some of his personal items were stored. Before he even pulled it out I knew what it was. The millennium ring.

“Yugi’s is back too…the items have returned to their rightful owners, and as the millennium rod was never actually Malik´s, I suspect it’s back with you Kaiba. Am I right?”

“I am not the rightful owner of the rod.” I heard snorts from Ryou and Jou; I decided to ignore them. “But it so happens that the rod is in my position. So there will be no problem with that. Ryou and Yugi have to accompany me, because the soul mates have to be present; otherwise, Bakura and Yami will have nothing to focus on. Their spirits won’t find their way. And we will have to do this whole ordeal in Egypt, because I have to face Ra while praying. I will have to pray in front of his statue.”

“But…but neither Ryou nor Yugi are fit to leave the hospital…”

“Yes I know, but looking at Ryou now he seems almost normal…”

“I am okay,” Ryou said with force. “I can hope again and this will help me to…to behave…I never wanted to hurt anybody…it was just so hard to live through all this pain. It’s like I’m not complete without him…” Tears started to well up in his eyes and Jounouchi moved forward to calm his friend down.

“Shh, calm down, it’s okay; like you said, there’s hope now, everything will be alright.” Jou mowed Ryou to his bed and laid him down. It wasn’t long until the emotionally exhausted boy fell into a deep sleep.

“We should see if it works with Yugi too. Maybe if Yami’s soul takes over my body, Yugi will sense him and wake up.” I was tired, but how could I deny Yugi the happiness of seeing Yami? How could I leave him in this half state of life and death any longer?

“But…are you sure you’re up to it? You are still a bit pale and…”

“I’m fine, Jounouchi.” I couldn’t help but smile at him. It was nice to know that someone was concerned about me. That meant he cared at least a bit.

We left Ryou´s room with one last concerned look from Jou in Ryou´s direction and made our way to Yugi’s room. Yugi was lying asleep in his bed. He looked so weak; being in a coma-like state for so long had taken its tool on his body. He was far too thin and pale.

I couldn’t see him like that any longer. Without another word I went to the chair next to his bed and sat down. As much as I enjoyed waking up in Jounouchi’s lap, I’d had enough embarrassment for one day and wasn’t sure if I could hold back my desire this time. It wouldn’t help my growing friendship with Jounouchi if he thought I was a pervert.

Like with Ryou, when I touched Yugi’s arm a tearing feeling went through my body and everything went dark again.

Normal POV

Dark. Everything around him was dark. Ever since Yami left him he hadn’t seen any light. At first he had tried to move on. He never wanted to sink into the darkness, but Yugi couldn’t escape its grip, and with every passing day his pain and loneliness increased as did the darkness around him. Till one day there was nothing left but darkness. He had lost hope. He couldn’t hear, he couldn’t speak. The only thing he was still aware off was presences. He could feel that Jou was at his side almost everyday, as well as his grandpa. Sometimes Honda and Otogi. Yugi know that Ryou was somewhere near, not next to him but not far away either. It was relaxing to know that his friend who shared the same pain, and wasn’t far off.

At first everything had felt like always to Yugi. He could feel Ryou, he could feel Jou, and he could feel Kaiba. He was surprised to feel Kaiba right next to him, because although Kaiba had become a frequent aura for some time now, he never came right up to him or stayed long. Suddenly Kaiba’s presence changed. It was like someone else had taken his place and he had vanished. It felt much more familiar than Kaiba’s did and it made him long painfully for this presence; there was just one man for which he ached this much.

And then realization hit him. This was Yami. His Yami; his other half. His aura was like a bright light in the darkness, guiding him through it to the light, and the nearer he got the clearer his senses became. He could hear someone calling his name…Yami…he could see a blurry figure trough his eye… Yami…he could feel someone caressing his face…Yami.

And with that Yugi came back to awareness. The voice in his ears became clear as well as the person in front off him. Tears welt up in his eye, a sob escaped his throat.

“Yami?” He asked in a shaky voice, still not believing what he saw, what he felt. The person in front of him was definitely Yami, but it looked like…Seto Kaiba.

“Shh, little one.” Yami told his light “Everything is going to be alright”.

“Oh Yami…I have missed you so much. Please don’t leave me again. Say that you will stay with me from now on.”

Yami was heart broken; he had to tell his little light that he couldn’t stay. At least not now. “I’m sorry Aibou, I can’t stay for long…shh, don’t cry like that, I will come back soon. Look at me; I have just borrowed Kaiba’s body. It’s not mine to take. But we have found a way for Bakura and I to stay in this world permanently. Aibou, you need to be strong now. Kaiba promised he would help, but we –Bakura and I- need yours and Ryou´s support too. You need to hope, hope and believe with all your might, and no force on earth, heaven or hell will keep me from you.”

“I…I will be strong Yami,” Yugi forced out between sobs. “I promise. Everything you want. Just come back to me.”

“That’s my Aibou; we will be alright, I promise. Go to sleep now, my heart. Sleep and rest, and when you wake up, be strong. Soon we will be back together again. Forever.”

Yugi tried to protest. He wanted to stay with his Yami as long as he could, but exhaustion took him over. Far too much had happened in far too short a time.

When Yugi fell asleep, Yami turned to the almost forgotten Jou on the other side off the room and walked to him.

“Please make sure nothing happens to him Jou. Be there for him and Ryou like you always have been.”

“You don’t have to ask for that. You know I will.”

Yami smiled gratefully at him. ”Thank you, my friend.” And with that, Kaiba’s body once again went flabby and once again Jou had to catch him.

POV Kaiba

“Hey money maker! Wakey wakey!”

I groaned. I had totally forgotten that I had to deal with Bakura while Yami was in my body. What had I done to deserve this?

“What is it Kaiba? You’re not happy to see me? We can have so much fun together.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Aww come on Kaiba. You, me, here, alone. I can think of a lot of things we can do.” With that he invaded my personal space and sunk down to his knees in front of me. He leered up at me, his white hair framing his face. “Well Kaiba, am I giving you some ideas?”

I was speechless-shocked-disturbed. Was he really suggesting…I had never thought of Bakura like that…

“Wah ha ha ha, you should see your face. Man Kaiba, you are so easy to kid. Really. I haven’t had so much fun for a long time…haha.” Bakura continued to laugh. I was too angry to react. Stupid spirit; who does he think he is? Mocking me like that... “Aww, calm down Kaiba. It was just a joke. Man, you are as humourless as Yami.” Bakura pouted “´Scuse me, I’m a bit overwhelmed, what with seeing my angel after such a long time. You have no idea.”

“Very funny Bakura, remind me to laugh later,” I said dryly. “You know, I expected a little more gratefulness from you; after all, I’m the one who will help you to get out of here.”

Bakura´s expression grew serious. “I know that. I am grateful; you will never know how much.”

I was impressed. Never had I heard Bakura speak so politely.

“You really do love Ryou, don’t you?”

“With all my heart.”

His openness surprised me as much as the realization that he spoke the truth. Before I could think more about it, I felt the now familiar pull.

The next time I opened my eyes, I was faced with sun-tanned golden skin and golden hair. My nose took in the rich scent of sun and wind and something spicy – unmistakably masculine. I took a deeper breath. Oh god, this odor was simply intoxicating; I had to know how it tasted. My tongue slipped out and I liked at the skin…so delicious.

“Ah…Kaiba? What…what are you doing?” I heard a slightly nervous and husky voice asking.

“I’m tasting you,” I mumbled against the delicate skin.

“What?” That loud shriek pulled me out of my trance and away from Jou’s neck.

Jounouchi was bright red. I would have looked much the same if Gozaburo’s sadistic training hadn’t taught me better. It wasn’t just the embarrassment I was able to cover, but also my growing yearning for his body. Even though the latter one was far more difficult to ignore.

“God Kaiba, I think that was enough for you today. Those side effects are just too strange and you look really pale. You should go home.”

Side effects? He thought these were side effects from having my body taken over by two sex-starved Yamis. So much the better.

“No, I really am fine.” Even while saying this I could feel my knees weaken and my vision go blurry. I hadn’t realized before how weak and sick I felt. “I promised you the other day that I would take you home and that is what I will do.” Even I could hear that my voice sounded weak, but I wanted to have the blond in my company a bit longer.

“Don’t be stubborn Kaiba; just call your limo and let them take you home, and if you want I can go with you to see that you arrive safely. Then your driver can take me home. Deal?” His concerned gaze was not lost on me. How could I deny him anything?

“Deal.”

---------------------------

Thanks to everybody who has reviewed. You guys are great…8 reviews…(still can’t believe it) thank you sooo much: Please, pleae review again

Sorry it took so long, but the next chapter should be up soon…

Thanks to my Beta blackwidow. Love you