100 Puppies and Dragons

Author's Note: Follow-up to Excuses because I couldn't leave it at that. :|

Heartfelt Apology

Joey felt the brunet's arm wrap around his waist and sighed, reaching down to grab his wrist gently. "Seto…"

"Listen, I'm sorry."

"Ya told me t' take more cold showers," the blond muttered, feeling humiliated. "And after ya said that ya tried t' come on to me. Do ya have any idea how bad that made me feel?"

Seto grimaced. "I'm sorry. If you wanted me to have sex with you, why didn't you just tell me?"

Joey huffed, gripping his pillow tightly. "I tried. I asked ya if ya wanted t' fuck me, and ya told me you were okay just huggin' and kissin' me. I thought maybe we could talk about it, but ya shot me down before I could even argue. Ya told me t' take cold showers instead and that was the end of it."

"But before that, Joey," the brunet sighed. "Why didn't you say something before that? Before all the nights you pawed me to try and get me in the mood, before you sent that freaking vibrator here?" Seto sat up and scowled. "Did it ever occur to you that maybe I don't want sex not because I'm not interested in you physically, but because I'm just not interested in sex in general?"

The younger boy turned to look up at him in confusion. "Huh?"

"I don't find the idea of sex appealing. Women and men have been throwing themselves at me for years and it's kind of turned me off to everything with anyone. I'm sorry that you have to suffer for what other people did, but I'm just not…" Seto sighed again and ran a hand through his hair. "Well. I'm sort of disgusted to say it but whenever I think of sex—even with you—it just doesn't… turn me on."

Joey frowned as the brunet's face twisted into an expression of disgust. "Seto…"

"I'm sorry I never told you. I guess I thought that you could be just as happy with cuddling and kissing as I was. I was selfish and I'm sorry." He frowned and ran a hand through his hair again. "I guess I did sort of force myself to come onto you. I'm sorry. But… when I got that package, saw what was in it, imagined you using it… it didn't seem so bad. Because you were willing to pleasure yourself instead of begging me. And that was okay."

The blond blinked up at him and tilted his head. "You… were turned on by the thought of me touchin' myself? Not at the idea of us havin' sex?"

Seto shrugged awkwardly. "…Yeah."

Joey bit his bottom lip, then hesitantly, nervously asked, "Ya wanna watch me masturbate, Seto?"

The brunet blinked at him slowly, mouth falling open a little, before he nodded. "Yeah. Yes, I would." When the younger boy smiled at him, he couldn't help but smile back. "Do you forgive me then, for being such an insensitive boyfriend?"

Joey leaned up to kiss him lightly and traced his fingers down the brunet's chest. "Yeah. I guess I do, now that I know ya didn't wanna have sex with anyone instead of just not with me."

Seto grimaced. "Yes, well, I'm quite sorry about that. We were obviously overdue for this discussion."

"Yeah. …So, uh, where'd ya put my vibrator after I left?"

The brunet tilted his head, then bit his bottom lip. "Please don't judge me."

Joey blinked. "…Depends on where ya put it." The blond gaped as the brunet reached over and pulled it out of the drawer of the bedside table, along with a tube of lubricant. "…Okay. I'll admit it. I'm judgin' ya a little."

Seto sighed. "I figured you would."