A Series of One Shots

LETTERS

Dear Seto,

Another letter I know I’ll never send—another thought I know I’ll never express.

Sometimes it just helps writing these. Pretending I’ll send this and receive one in return. Do you know every time I finish one of these, I seal it up, address it to you and then I go to the mailbox and I just stand there?

Sometimes it’s just for a moment and other times, it just seems like an eternity. I’m standing there with this letter to you held tight in my hand and I’m thinking about what would happen if I sent it. What you would do…what I would say…And then I leave. I leave with this letter and it joins the countless piles of others, just like itself, waiting to be sent.

I’ve always seen you as my escape. I don’t know how but when I see you I know you are my only hope from this hell I’m in. I don’t know how it got to this point, how I let it—why I let it. I guess I just always thought I deserved it or it was normal. And now it’s too late.

You may hate me for saying this—but sometimes I wish I’d just lost my parents early like you did. At least then I could have pretended or thought that they were good people. Then I would never know the truth. This awful truth that has eaten me into nothing.

I feel so weak admitting the truth that I can’t even protect myself from my own father after the gangs I’ve joined and all the thugs I’ve put in place.

But how can I fight against my own father, Seto? What can I do but lie there while he kicks and punches me, just waiting for him to pass out drunk? It’s pathetic I know—I’m pathetic.

But I’m even more pathetic because some small part of me wants it so that maybe you’d notice me. I love you Seto. I do. I don’t know why. There’s not just something I can name to explain it—its more than that.

But I do.

-Joey

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Joey-

I’m not sure what to say in this. I don’t even know how long it will be before you can read this.

I guess I should start at the beginning when I got your letter. I heard what happened to you and the same day a letter came in the mail from you. I don’t know if you had sent it or maybe they just found it before they took you to the hospital.

Like I said, I’m not sure what I should say. I’m not one to spill my emotions out onto paper like you have, but I will try, Joey.

My mind raced after reading your letter with a million thoughts. I felt angry that you never told anyone what was going on, I felt angry with myself for never noticing. I took care of your father, I’m going to make sure he never hurts you again Joey, especially after what he did to you this time.

They aren’t sure if you’ll ever wake up from your coma. The head trauma from when you were kicked was enough to kill anyone. But you held on.

I know you’ll wake up Joey. You have to. I have too many things I should have said long ago but was too stubborn to admit.

I can’t bring myself to visit you, to see you how you are now. Mokuba said he couldn’t even recognize you. No one even told me you were hospitalized, I just happened to overhear Yugi say something about it. They think I hate you and wouldn’t care. I guess they’re right for thinking so. I never wanted you to know or them to know. I never thought it mattered. It was better if you hated me and thought I hated you. It was better if I just kept any feelings out of the way so I could take care of Mokuba and Kaiba Corp.

And here I find myself, confessing to thoughts I swore I had forgotten. Swore to never let show—I saw them as my weakness. But I was a coward.

You said you were pathetic Joey. You said that you needed me. But I have always been the one that needed you. I’d never tell you so before, but knowing that you could be gone any moment, that your very life dangles on a thread, I’ve realized how desperate for you I have become. If it was pathetic for you to want me to notice you, then I was even more pathetic for wanting you not to.

You have to wake up Joey, I have to know that I can change the regret I have. I don’t want to be afraid of feeling something anymore.

-Seto

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Seto sat in his dark office, the only light coming from his computer as he typed up another memo to be sent out before morning. The rest of the house sat quiet and empty—all the staff sent home for the weekend and Mokuba over at a friend’s house.

He planned on spending the weekend catching up on work like he always did. His thoughts about his busy weekend were jolted however when the door bell rang through the house.

“Who the hell could that be?” Seto said in agitation, making his way to the front door. He was about to make a snide comment to whoever the late night visitor was but as he swung the door open all he managed was an audible gasp.

“Joey.”

“Hi.” The blonde awkwardly smiled, rubbing the back of his head. “Um…can I come in?” Seto shook himself from his shock, nodding and motioning him in.

“When did you—.”

“A couple weeks ago.” Joey smiled, fiddling with the various decorations situated on a nearby table.

“I…I didn’t even know.” Seto was still in shock, his mind reeling as he watched Joey.

“You’re practically healed.”

“Yeah…I just got out. Came straight from the hospital.” Joey said, looking to Seto for his reaction.

“Oh.”

Joey kept his gaze locked with Seto’s.

“I read your letter.” He said. Seto didn’t say anything, just nodded.

“It was the only thing that got me through the last two weeks.”

“Oh.”

Joey took a step towards the brunette, each sentence spoken in hesitation at what the other might think.

“I wanted you to come, I wanted to see you so bad. You were all I ever thought of.” He spoke, barely above a whisper.

Seto didn’t know what to say, swallowing hard as his pulse began to race.

“I um…I thought about you too.” He finally managed to say.

“Seto?” The brunette nodded, waiting for him to speak.

“Did…did you mean those things you said? In…in your letter?” Joey held his breath, waiting for the answer he’d wanted to ask since he’d first read Seto’s words.

“Did you mean yours?”

Joey nodded, stepping closer to the brunette who now stood mere steps from him.

“Did you?” he asked again.

Seto paused, watching Joey closely before he spoke.

“Of course.” He smiled. Joey couldn’t help but break out in a huge grin, his heart leaping at such a simple response. Seto closed the gap between them, wrapping one arm around Joey’s waist while the other threaded through his hair. Their foreheads pressed together, Joey couldn’t stop smiling, letting his own hand entwine through Seto’s soft hair.

“I didn’t think this would ever happen.” Joey laughed.

“Me either.” Seto smiled. Joey hesitantly pulled himself closer, tentatively pressing his lips to Seto’s.

Seto responded, keeping his lips pressed tightly to Joey’s as his hands trailed down the other’s back. Joey gasped into Seto’s mouth, his tongue pushing in to ravish the other in long built-up feelings. He loved the way Joey’s lips felt pressed to his, their softness and the way it made his lips tingle each and every time.

He pulled back a little breathless, smiling at Joey’s flushed face.

“So…now what?” Joey asked.

“Now you let me read the rest of those letters you owe me.” Seto grinned, pulling Joey after him.

AN: I was going to write a lemon here but it just seemed a little too rushed: “hey you just got out of a coma—we don’t really know each other…but let’s have sex!” Sorry for the delay and sadly…expect another. I am so behind on homework right now.

Kisses and Hugs!

REVIEW REPLIES:

blackgargie: *crosses fingers* i hope you liked your story--i'm sorry there was no lemon :( but i hope you like it!

potionspet: thank you so much!

wicabeth: oh i do too :( its terribly depressing and terrible terrible terrible. :(

blood_red_eyes: i know :( they are allll alone. :(

right_read_time: oh you yugi fans...lol. jk! ;)

theultimatetoken: I PROMISE you there will be some awesome lemon soon to make up for the angst recess. :P

cody_thomas: ANYTHING for you! but just to clarify, you want him literally talking about icecream toppings right? just making sure that isnt' code for something else. lol.

Maytia_TheSorecess: well thanks so much! that's so very nice of you! XD And I'd love to do your request! :)