Mind Fuck: A Repost

The office was quit today making my mind wander back to last night's and this morning events.

Bakura.

I repeated the words in my head before speaking them out loud.

"Ba.....kura...." My voice sounded so faint in my ears.

You can be my squeeze toy...come and play with me boy....... Called that all to familiar voice.

The words floated through my mind like a feather through a current of air, before I knew it, I was going for the little bag of bliss sitting securely in my pocket. I flushed out the pipe, a pill and a lighter from my top drawer.

Here goes....

The smell of burning flesh stuck my nostrils before I brought the piece to my lips. Who cared if they could smell it. I hit the pipe hard falling short of breath as the thick smoke burned through my lungs. I had to get used to this feeling! I felt my eyes droop shut as the familiar pull that I felt before tugged my body downward, dragging me under my desk.

The welcoming weight of another person resting comfortably on top of my body sent tingles throughout my spine. But that was a shame compared to the soft probing of his tongue in my ear. I brought my hands up into his hair, grabbing fistfuls of white.

"Missed me much?" He purred in my ear withdrawing his tongue from the inside, he then raising slightly off of me causing me to follow suit.

My eyes trailed over him noticing that he wore a black vest over a crisp white shirt that was unbuttoned down to the V. Dressed for a day at the office no doubt. There was something hanging from my neck that caught my eye. Palest white against darkest black. A cameo? I smiled despite myself at the idea that something so precious would be worn by someone like Bakura. It didn't seem to fit him.

"Not really. I was getting bored at work so I decided to call you up." I replied smugly creeping my hands up to the v neck opening, hooking my fingers inside the vest bringing him down to me. Bakura stared down me with those enchanting brown eyes, smiling a sweet almost innocent little smile.

I claimed what was mine with my mouth while my hands explored what was beneath the layers of clothing that he wore. His skin was warm to my touch making me grow hard with every square inch that my fingertips were lucky enough to grace. He moaned against my lips making me shiver. I wanted this. Fuck that, I needed this. My hands crept upward finding and promptly teasing already erect nipples.

"Why here?" Bakura asked mournfully breaking the kiss.

I stared at him hard as the words repeated in my mind, this time they were in my voice. No not mine. The voice was too young to be mine.

Not here. Why here?

"I don't want you to take me here, Seto. Here isn't a good place for else. Here was where 'he' began your training. I don't want it to be that way. Unless you're only doing this so that we can have something in common."

I didn't think as the back of my hand found the smooth skin of his cheek. Satisfied I stared at the angry red welt that gave color to the usually pale face.

"You’re e gonna pay for that." Bakura hissed, gripping my jacket as he rose to his feet. With an astonishing show of speed and strength, Bakura lifted me bodily tossing me in the further corner of my office.

"Aaaaaaaahhhh!" Was the only sound that escaped from my lips as my bare back hit the cool surface of the wall. I bit down hard on my tongue as a explosion of black and red colored my mind.

The room had became darker, colder and the sound of my erratic breathing was starting to scare me. Get a hold of yourself, Seto. I hugged my arms to my body for the first time realizing that I was completely bare. I traced my fingers up and down my sweat slicked arms, my stomach and finally my lower back feeling the stickiness of blood between my legs and something else. I brought my fingers to my mouth, parting my lips so that my tongue could sample the mysterious substance. Cum. A wave of nausea hit me hard causing me to sink to my little twelve year old knees.

" Get up boy. I'm not done with you. You've passed all your training thus far, but if you really wanna get anywhere in this family you start on knees giving service with a smile." Gozobaro bark as he roughly dragged me to my feet.

I dug my heels into the rug trying to slow down the process. He wasn't having it. He stopped suddenly, stooping low to gather me in his arms. I struggled against him but loss all strength upon being placed on the desk. He kept me pinned down by the arms as he pressed the button on the side of the desk that activated the shackles. As soon as the cold steel enclosed around each wrist in time, he spaced out my knees positioning me doggie, the final shackles clamped around my ankles and at that moment I gave up completely. He was going to rape me just like the men at the orphanage did, and once again there was nothing that I could do about it. I forced back the tears that were threatening to spill down my cheeks as I clenched the ones that held the entry to my body. I bit down on my bottom lip as his cock battered at the gates heaven to put me in a state of hell. I didn't know how much longer I could hold out. I was so tried, so weak....

"Since you won't cooperate, then I'll go see if Mokuba wants to play." He sneered.

"NO!" I wailed in pure terror.

The thought of him taken my sweet little brother was unforgivable. That was all he needed. My small moment of weakness was his ticket in. He thrust his far longer cum drenched member into my unprepared body. My bowels shuddered, I felt like he was shredding my insides. Pain. A burning consuming pain was filtering through every fiber of my being. I squeezed my eyes shut, opening my mouth, a inhuman-like growl ripped from deep within my throat echoing off the walls of the office, resounding in my ears, burning into my memory forever.

"Sex doesn't have to be that way, Seto." Bakura's voice said soothingly in my ear.

The palm of his hand worked back and forth over my hair, petting and stroking me softly.

I moaned in pleasure and in pain; pain from the memory of the past.

"Are you mad at me right now." Bakura asks softly, his lips barely touching my forehead.

I was still on the desk lying on my back this time. There were no shackles or Gozobaro.

Only Bakura and me.

"I'm mad, but not at you. I just...." My voice caught in my throat, cracked and turned into a strangled sob.

But I refused to cry in front of him.

"You hate them, don't you?" Bakura pressed on.

I nodded. Them. Gozobaro and Mokuba. Love drove me to give in to Gozobaro's demands. Love for Mokuba.

" Yes." I whispered.

"He treated Mokuba differently didn't he?" He asked as his fingertips lightly ran over my closed eyelids.

Another yes.

"Mokuba...he..."

A knock on the office door broke the hold that Bakura had over me. I slid off the desk making my way over to the door. I tugged it open to reveal Serenity standing there.

"I've been knocking for almost an hour!" She shouted.

"Why?" I asked, eyes narrowing.

"We heard a scream and decided to go investigate."

She heard me?

"You heard that?" I asked her softly, almost whisper-like.

"The whole building heard you! We thought you were dying."

"Sorry to disappoint you." I replied quickly ushering her out.

She seemed confused by my rudeness, which shouldn't be shocking at all considering that I knew her only by the i.d hanging off her chest. With Serenity gone, I set to the task of finding the pills. They were under the desk as if they got knocked under there when Bakura placed me on the desk along with the necklace that Bakura had wore earlier.. Did he place it there or did I? I wondered as I slipped the bag, pipe and necklace into my pocket That didn't matter now. What matter now was that I get to Pegasus. He had to know what was in these pills.

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I knew I should've at least called first but this was important. I strolled into the building moving throughout the stairwells with speed and a grace that I didn't know that I possessed. I got off on my floor pulling open the door and walking down the tacky looking hallway to the waiting area that lead to his office.

"I need to see Pegasus." I told the sour faced receptionist at the front desk.

"He's been expecting you Mr. Kaiba." She called after my back. I was already heading inside.

The white haired shrink was sitting pretty in his chair, notepad in lap, with pen in hand.

"Well, Kaiba-boy, by now you're probably wandering what I gave you." He spoke as I laid down on the leather chaise.

"Yes." I admitted.

"The truth is...I don't know."

At those words I shot up like a firecracker on new year's.

"I want answers." I rasped, my voice sounding deadly even to me.

"They're an experimental drug developed this year for sleep study. So tell me, how have you slept?"

I couldn't believe this shit. He was using me as a lab rat for some drug that probably could've killed me in my sleep. Sleep. That's why I was here. I needed to know...

"I'm not sure if I'm sleeping." I informed him.

Pegasus' face changed into something truly unreadable.

"Pardon? Do you care to explain?"

I shook my head.

"That's just it. I can't. I think I'm sleeping but then when I wake I'm finding things that were in the dream lying around my house."

"Maybe they were the last things that you had on your mind before you went to-"

"NO!" I shouted startling the older man.

I went for the necklace in my pocket, offering it to him.

"I have never seen that before in my entire life. I know what it is but I had never had one in my possession."

My eyes took in the new expression clouding Pegasus' features. If I weren't truly going mad, I would say that the look was one of recognition.

"Have you...:"

Shaking his head, "No. But I would like for you to leave now."

Leave?

"Pegasus-" I started to say but he raised his hand up silencing me.

"Go. And I advise you to discontinue taking the drug."

As I walked out his office a decision laid heavily on me. To stop taking the drug met giving up Bakura. I haven't had him long but I must admit today he had opened up something inside me. Something I needed. To hell with the doctor's orders. I had to see him. One more time. That was all I needed.