What A Kaiba Wants...

Kaiba Seto stared into the wide golden orbs of his puppy, then lower, focusing on full, kiss bruised lips. Lips that his little brother had now gotten to taste before him. He felt a clenching in his chest. He had seen it right before his very eyes. His brother had kissed Jou, it hadn’t been an accident, Mokuba had called out to the blond, looked right into his eyes, then stole those lips right before his eyes.

He didn’t know what hurt worse, knowing that he almost claimed those lips as his own when Mokuba came between them and stole him away, the fact that it was his own little brother that had betrayed him like this, or that for just a second Jou had responded, but even for just that second there was such passion and pleasure between the two of them.

And Jou was still staring at him like a deer caught in the head lights… He could feel his own gaze hardening as he raised his defenses. He wouldn’t be hurt by this. He wouldn’t let himself.

“Ow! Jou, what the hell!” Mokuba groused, pulling himself back up to his feet, shakily, rubbing his sore bottom. His lips were still tingling, and all he wanted was to claim those lips again. Well… all in all the fall had sobered him up a little, if nothing else.

“Jou..?” Why wasn’t the blond looking at him, he was staring ahead, like a cornered mouse. “Jou, that’s with you? It wasn’t that bad, was… it…” he asked as he followed his gaze and suddenly knew that had frozen the blond. He was finding it hard to move now, too. “S-seto…”

Steely blue eyes turned their glare at him, and the younger Kaiba couldn’t help but flinch under their gaze. He gathered his nerve, braver than most when it came to dealing with his brother, “Seto, it’s not what you think!”

The brunette scoffed, looking derisively at Jou, who flinched, then back at him, “Save your excuses, Mokuba. I just hope you’ve had all your vaccinations if you’re going to be kissing a mangy mutt.”

“Seto!” Mokuba shouted, outraged at the insult

Jou flinched again, ducking his head to hide to hide the rising swell of tears. A mangy mutt. He must have been delusional to think that the cold bastard had been going to kiss him before. But he could have sworn… and his lips were still tingling from his kiss with Mokuba. He had never felt so confused before.

“I… I gotta go, Mokuba… I… I can’t stay.”

“Ah!” Mokuba whirled around towards the blond, “Jou, no! All of this! It’s!”

Jou shook his head, pulling away, “No… I… I can’t… I can’t stay!” Both Kaiba’s were shocked to see the single tear running down the blonde’s cheek before Jou turned and fled from the room, the the mansion, from the very grounds. He couldn’t stay. He needed to think, to get away from the pain and the confusion. And he was sober enough to realize he was too drunk to think clearly.

Mokuba wasn’t about to let him escape. Or at least that had been his plan when he felt a strong grip on his wrist stop him from giving chase. Deep blue eyes turned to glare at steely blue. “Let me go, Seto! Jou is… he’s!”

“How long have you been drinking, Mokuba?” his brother completely changed the subject on him.

Mokuba tensed, his eyes widening a little in surprise, then sighed heavily. Of course Seto would notice he if he was drunk off his ass getting home. “About a year and a half now,” he was too angry to lie, knowing that the truth would only make his brother angrier, wanting to piss off the brunette.

He felt the hold on his wrist tighten at that, “And since when have you been attracted to men?”

Mokuba shrugged, looking away in disinterest, “I don’t know… since I was twelve, I guess.” When he first realized that he found Jou attractive.

“I see…” Seto would condemn his brother for that. He’d be a hypocrite and they’d both know it. “Are you a virgin?” That certainly had not been any virgin’s kiss that Mokuba had displayed earlier, but that didn’t necessarily mean…

“No,” Mokuba answered quickly, making Kaiba’s stomach feel like it had lost it’s bottom.

The elder Kaiba took a deep breath to keep calm, “How long…?” He had imagined his little brother as this pure little kid trying to be rambunctious, so learning all this… was blow after deep blow. Did he know his brother at all?

Mokuba shrugged again, “Since I was fourteen…”

The answer felt like a physical punch to the brunette, actually making him stagger a step back. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

Mokuba gave him a look like he was insane, “Yes because I’m supposed to go up to you and say, ‘Guess what, big brother?! I had sex for the first time today!’ Get real, you’d react worse than you are now!”

He felt like he didn’t know this boy before him anymore, he didn’t want to know more, but his voice had a mind of it’s own, “W-was that the only time?”

Mokuba sighed, starting to feel a little guilty at how pale his brother was getting, leading the taller Kaiba to sit on the couch, sitting next to him, “No… it wasn’t the only time. Actually… I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve had sex… but I remember my first time with a guy was when I was sixteen… That’s when I realized I preferred them. Ow! Seto, that hurts!” The older Kaiba’s hold on his wrist had become a death grip and Mokuba was really worried that his brother would really break his wrist if this kept up.

“Why..? Why, Mokuba?! I didn’t want that for you…”

Mokuba couldn’t really read his brother’s expression, his eyes hidden under his bangs. He bit his lip gently. “Seto… I’m sorry I let you down, big brother. But I don’t regret anything that I’ve done. They weren’t bad experiences. I wasn’t abused. I was… just a curious teen and I… just fed my curiosity… I haven’t had a lover in over a year, if it makes you feel better. I got tired of just sex, I’m really looking for a real relationship now, something meaningful.”

Seto was having a hard time digesting all of this. Mokuba… his little baby brother, the innocent little angel that was the light to his darkness… had lost his virginity long ago, had gone through a slutty phase, and even now he participated in underage drinking! He couldn’t wrap his mind around it, that’s brother could be anything other than the innocent kid that he went through hell to protect!

“Seto…?” Mokuba was really worried that he might have gone too far. He was angry at his brother, wanted to shock him, not break his brain! “Seto, are you okay..?”

Only silence answered him for what seemed like an eternity…

Then his brother seemed to finally find his voice, “You’re not allowed to drink anymore until you’re of age, and even then I never want to see you disgrace yourself like you did tonight, do you understand?”

Mokuba sighed. He supposed that was reasonable. He never really drank like he did tonight, and he supposed he could wait one more year before having another drink, “Hai… I understand big brother.”

“Good… and you’re never to see that mutt again, do you understand?”

Mokuba’s eyes widened in shock, “Why not?!”

“He’s too far beneath you, and obviously he’s a bad influence on you,” the brunette answered evenly.

“Bull shit! If this is about tonight Jou didn’t encourage me to drink! I convinced him, and the reason I drank so much is because… well… because…” because Jou had confused his heart into thinking that he might actually stand a chance with him, “It’s none of your damn business anyways! Who I hang out with is my business!”

“No, Mokuba! I’m putting my foot down. I don’t want you near Jou ever again! I’ll have you watched, if I have to, but you will not see him again.”

“This… this is about that kiss, isn’t it?!”

He knew he was right when his brother didn’t answer him right away.

“Mokuba…”

“No! Don’t bullshit me, Seto! This is about the kiss! You don’t want me near Jou because you’re afraid of what could happen between us!”

The brunette felt his hackles rise, “I’m not afraid of anything.”

“Then what’s the big deal?!”

“He’s a bad influence.”

“Oh, don’t give me that crap, Seto! Jou’s one of the best role models around and you know it! He’s loyal, caring, fun, responsible.”

“Tch… responsible? Jou?” Seto snorted softly.

“Yeah! He’s gotta be responsible if he owns two cafés right?!”

“Owns..? Two..?” Jou owned the café? Is that why he had been joking about knowing how to work the boss before?

“Yeah, so what’s the big deal?!” Mokuba pulled away from the couch to glare down at his brother.

Steely blue locked evenly when his brother’s eyes, even as his fists clenched so tightly at his sides that his knuckles were white. “I don’t want you near him.”

“Why?!”

“Because.”

“That’s a lame ass excuse and you know it!”

“Because he’s mine!” Seto finally grounded out, glaring at his brother.

Mokuba looked surprised for just a moment, then crossed his arms over his chest, glaring back at him. “You have a hell of a way of showing it! Insulting him to the point where he runs off crying.”

“That’s… I…” Seto couldn’t defend himself against that.

“I wanted Jou to be with you, big brother,” Mokuba looked sad, not able to meet Seto’s shocked gaze at the confession. “That’s why I wanted you to come with us tonight. So that you and Jou could catch up, so you could have a second chance. But you wouldn’t listen to me, and you wouldn’t listen to Jou… And Jou was so upset when I called him to finalize our plans. You haven’t grown up at all, big brother!

“For the past five years Jou has gone to school, taken care of his sister and Yugi, and opened a café popular enough that it’s starting to branch out. He’s matured so much, but he still knows how to have fun. You haven’t changed at all! You still insult him with petty names, you don’t listen to anyone! You really hurt his feelings!

I’ve liked Jou since I was twelve… I didn’t understand what my feelings meant back then, but I do now, and even knowing how I felt, I wanted you to be happy! Jou likes you! I could tell by the way he spoke about you at the club. He likes you, and I know you like him! But you just can’t let go of the past. You’re such… you’re such a child!”

Seto flinched at the final insult, the whole tirade shocking the brunette into utter stillness.

“You know what…? I’m tired of sacrificing my wants just to try to give you something you’ll never fully appreciate. You still want Jou? Get him by your own means! I’m tired of playing match maker. I’m going to show Jou that I’m better for him than someone who always insults and belittles him.”

Seto tensed, his eyes narrowing at the threat, “Is that so, little brother?”

Mokuba that icy glare evenly, matching it with one of his own. At any other time, Seto would have been proud at his brother’s masterful Kaiba glare, but not when it was being used against him.

“Yes, that’s so, big brother. If you really care for Jou like I think you do, you better grow up and own up before you lose him forever. I love you, brother… But I love Jou, too. And I’ll keep him from you if it means saving his heart. And you’ll have no one to blame but yourself.”

Kaiba never took well to threats… and threats from his little brother were no exception. He wouldn’t lose, especially not when it was puppy that was up at stake. “I won’t lose to you, Mokuba. Jou will be mine”

Mokuba raised an eyebrow at that, smirking slightly, “Don’t be so sure, big brother. Jou and I already have more in common than the two of you do. I have the advantage.”

Seto frowned, knowing that his brother had a point. But he had an advantage, too. Jou already admitted to liking him, even Mokuba had admitted to it. So all he had to do was earn his puppy’s forgiveness and his love. Mokuba would have to try to convince him to switch his affections to him before earning any of the rest.

“I guess only time will tell. Oh, and by the way, you’re grounded for the stupid stunt you pulled today. For a week you’ll be under house arrest when you’re not at school or working at Kaiba Corp. I’ll be keeping you under watch.” He knew it was a cheap shot, but what was that stupid saying? All was fair in love and war, and this was war for love.

Mokuba’s eyes narrowed further in anger, but he didn’t say anything, turning on his heels and marching up to his room. He had nothing to say to his brother anymore. He might have been willing to sacrifice his own feelings for his brother’s happiness before, but his brother wasn’t worthy of Jou’s affections anymore as far as he was concerned. He had been given another chance and he had ruined it. Faced with the smallest doubt and he had hurt Jou’s vulnerable heart to the point of causing the blond to cry.

He’d be there to help Jou mend his heart, to help him realize that Seto didn’t have to be more like him, because Jou could have the real him.

It was his turn to be selfish.

Walking up the stairs back to his own room, Seto was lost in his own thoughts. Jou had said it himself, that he was interested in him. Maybe he had been drunk, but the brunette really felt that the inebriation had loosened Jou’s tongue, not caused him to lie. He had the better advantage here.

But Mokuba had an advantage of his own. Mokuba knew Jou, could be around him easier, and really had more time to work on his puppy. Seto frowned. No… he wouldn’t allow it! He had missed too many chances with his blond, but he wouldn’t let himself lose completely.

Even if it meant leaving his comfort zone, putting himself in vulnerable positions, he wouldn’t let himself lose his puppy, not even to Mokuba. He had never thought that he and his brother would ever fight against each other over anything like this. But even Mokuba wouldn’t be allowed to steal Jou from him. Not Mokuba… not anyone…

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To be continued.

And in all of this time neither of them are really considering how Jou feels about the whole thing... Silly, silly, pig-headed Kaibas... both have such lessons to learn...

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