Jouyouheki: The Series

Here we go! Chapter Four!! Two more chapters left! *cries* I'm ending this story story, and guess what?

This story will be the first story in my history to ever be finished! Wow, cool and wierd, huh? Hehe ^^ Read on and I'll post my new story Koinu Kifuu soon! After the next chapter!

Oh and I didn't put the whole letter in here, jsut the important parts. ^^


******START!!!!*****

Both boys didn’t know it, neither did they show it, but each boy had a small envelope held in the palm of their hands, waiting to slip it in the other’s locker; waiting for the perfect moment in time.

At different times, they each placed their letter into the others’ locker, making sure no one the their movements, afraid of what it might do.

A sigh issued through the throat of Katsuya Jounouchi, the blonde haired boy who opened his locker in a melancholy way. Today was most likely not going to be his day. . . He had put the letter in his ex-lover’s locker, but he was afraid he wasn’t going to look at it, and what if he did? It would seem that he was once again the weakling of the relationship, and he never wanted to be that, but it was so hard. . .

Just then a small white envelop fell to the ground at the young boy’s feet. He just reached down and picked it up, finding it addresses to him.

Katsuya Jounouchi.

That’s all it said, and it was making Katsuya nervous as hell.

****Jou’s POV****

What was this lettering doing at in my hands? Wait – why in hell was this in my locker? And who wrote it?! I demand to know!

Well, to figure the last part out I could easily just open it and read it, but I study the handwriting closely and realization hits me. The handwriting is yours, yours Seto.

Why are you writing to me? I thought I was just useless to you. Could it possible be more? Oh Ra, I so badly want it to be more. Could it possibly be that way? Could I actually be more useful to you? To actually . . . love you? For you to love me? Or could you just want to torture me further? To torment me endlessly where I would crawl back to you, or turn away from you forever? Hell would freeze over before you actually felt something about me. Just felt something about me, not exactly love, but something. And hell wont be freezing over anytime soon, so might as well just open it and get it over with. It couldn’t be that bad, could it?

My hands shake as I start opening the letter carefully. I have no idea what to expect on this. But do I have a choice? Well, I do, but that doesn’t mean it’s going to stop me. I want to find out why you are writing to me. I want to find out why you were using me. There has got to be a good reason, hasn’t there? Or am I just letting my mind be innocent, not that I’m innocent in anyway possible with what I’ve done, but you know what I mean.

Lord, if you love me like they say you love a person on earth, please let Seto love me. That’s what I silently pray. That’s how much I want you. That’s how much I need you. That’s how much I can’t live without you. You are my world, can’t you see that?! Please see that!!

Lord knows how much I need you right now. I want to held by you so badly Seto. . . Listen to me and just. . .be with me. Please. . .

I gulp back my tears and slide the letter out of the envelope as carefully as I can. Why? I don’t want to ruin it. Even if you say horrible things to me, I don’t want to let this letter go. It might be the last one I receive from you.

I unfold the letter, I’m getting nervous again. I don’t want anything to say anything. rongrong.

I begin reading.

Dear Katsuya Jounouchi,

The truth is. . . I never loved you. It was all a fling. You know, right? Just something to pass, and to relieve stress, pressures, times of release. . .

You liked me. You even loved me. And I took full advantage of that. What was I suppose to do? Just hang back and do nothing, when I could just simply use you for whatever I wanted, pretend to love you.

Wetness fills my eyes and tears fall out like a waterfall. You really don’t love me. It was just a fling? So the truth finally comes out. You weren’t just using me, you were taking advantage of me. . . If that is the same thing, I don’t care, my mind is hazy at the moment. I can’t believe you.

I thought we had a connection, I bet you already knew that. But to hell with my ways of thinking! It’s always wrong! Damn it, it is always wrong and it leads me to things I can’t get out of, and this is one of them. I can’t get out of you.

Did you notice that I said loved? You should have. I said loved because I think you don’t love me anymore. It’s a possibility. Hell, it is probably true! After what happened a week ago, where you stood up to me and told me off. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting that. I was expecting you to give in, because you loved me. And I wanted to take it all in.

So, of course I did. I wanted to take advantage of you, just to see what would happen, and a lot did happen. It just passed by so quickly for me. . .

What was I suppose to do? I couldn’t end it! I was addicted! I was addicted, Katsuya, and I needed more of you! I needed a lot more of you! And I was determined to get it, and I would get it, and I did get it, but then you left and everything fell apart.

After you left me I didn’t know what to do. . . My mind was racing, my heart was stopped, and I finally figured it out. I had to go back to the beginning to figure it out though, and I’ll tell you how my way went. . .

I was getting nervous, I was going to talk to you and I didn’t want to go about it all wrong. Feh, Seto Kaiba is never nervous, so I shook it off. You had a serious crush on me, so it was going to be easy to get you over.

Aww. . . You were getting nervous! That is so kawaii! But you shook it off, damn. That lowers my spirit down again. This totally sucks, you hate me and why in hell am I still reading this!

Well, I must be convinced you actually do love me. I guess that is. Yeah, that has to be it. It to. to. I’ll just keep going with that instinct there.

I was slightly mad I didn’t get to kiss you. That face you made was adorable, and I was falling for you and I couldn’t do that!

Why? I just couldn’t fall for you! I wouldn’t let myself!

I have no idea why I didn’t want to fall for you. It was a little bit of a mystery to me, but I excused it and just ignored the nagging feeling in the back of my mind. I wouldn’t let it happen, I couldn’t let it happen; and I didn’t.

I’m staying on subject you, but I getting off of it too, so let me continue before you just walk away and ignore this.

A laugh escaped my throat. You can be so funny at times, then instantly get all serious and into one thing. That’s what I love about you, well one of the things anyways. . .

I didn’t want my eyes off of you, so I stayed and just watched you greedily.

But I had to leave you, but I knew I would see you soon. My plan was to get you and I alone, and that was simple, by using Mokuba as an excuse. He wouldn’t be home for awhile, so it was easy to just use you for a bit, get turnturned on, you know. . .

This was going to be far to easy. . .

I had my plan planned out perfectly. You’d come over, find out Mokuba isn’t home, and I’d just start kissing you which would lead to making out. I wasn’t going to molest you; after all you did want this too.

And it was that easy; all because you had this crush on me. All because you wanted me, and there was nothing you could do about it. So I took the first step; I made the first move, I was going to get you no matter what. But you wouldn’t find out that I was just using you, that I never loved you; at least not yet. You would find out soon enough, but that time had yet to come. . .

Am I getting off subject again? Ra, I am getting off subject! Wait, no I’m not. I’m just telling you my plans to get you there, so basically I’m not going off subject. Good, I hate going off subject, but I’m doing that a lot, aren’t I?

Because right now I’m going of subject! Ah, hell let me get back on track!

There I was! At home, waiting patiently for you’re arrival, and you knocked, a delicate knock, gentle and kind, I’m getting sweet. Dear Ra, strike me now!

Ahem. . .

Another laugh escapes my throat again, though more tears fall. You couldn’t fall in love with me, that was a bad thing. I should stop reading this letter, but something tells me not to and I can’t and I wont.

So I continue reading. . .

You were too into me to notice me move you backwards and onto the couch, deepening the kiss I gave you. I was on top of you, and that made it easier for me to torture you endlessly.

It wasn’t going to be endlessly, because Mokuba was going to be home soon, but I wanted to torture you endlessly.

Hell, I’m going off subject again! Damn it!

You keep going off subject! That is hilarious!

And that is how it started my way, my koinu. Few days later, we started it as a routine, but we went deeper. I sent pleasures to you, and you loved it, every bit of it and I kept delivering.

You, Katsuya Jounouchi, are toxic. You are an addiction. Addictions a habit and habits are hard to give up right away. And I'm not willing to try to give up that addiction; I want the keep going with the addiction. You are my addiction, me way of life, you are my toxic, you keep me alive.

I just figured it out. . .

I just figured it out. I can’t believe it!

I bet you are wondering what I just figured out, aren’t you?

Well, I figured out why I was acting the way I did. The truth is. . .

I was hiding my true feelings from you. It wasn’t just a fling. It was more, way more.

Katsuya, the truth is, I love you. There’s no doubt about it.

And I’m sorry it took me this long for you to figure it out.

I love you, and I’m not going to change that around.

I will get you back, and this time I’ll make it right.

Love,
Seto Kaiba.

Oh my. . . Ra. . . Now I know why I didn’t stop reading this letter! You do love me! And you want to make it right!

Hell has now frozen over. . . Pigs are flying. . . Hell has frozen over. . . YOU LOVE ME!

Tears of happiness now fall, taking out the pained ones. My life has just been boosted up, I need to find you. Where are you?!

*****End POV****

And after Jou made up his mind he ran off outside to find Seto. He just hoped he got his letter, or this wouldn’t work out. He knew it.