The Shape Of My Heart

“I’m going out




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Chapter Three: Another Stab Into My Heart

 

 

“I’m going out.”

 

 

Yeah, go out with her.

 

 

“Fine. See you later then,” I answered from my position at
the kitchen table, not able to keep a slight edge out of my voice.

 

 

He cocked his head to the side ever so slightly, making him
look so damn cute. I regretted that thought immediately and frowned, what made
him look even more bewildered.

 

 

“What’s wrong, Yugi? You alright?”

 

 

I smiled at him, not wanting to make him any more suspicious
about my ‘strange’ behaviour than he already was. I knew he was worried, but
there was no way I’d let him know why I distanced myself from him. I didn’t
need his pity.

 

 

“Sure. Why would I be not alright? Just been dwelling on
something. Now go or you’ll be late for your date.”

 

 

That was not good to say and I flinched mentally at my own
stupidity.

 

 

“How do you know it was a date? I didn’t tell you, did I?”

 

 

I smiled again, desperately thinking about some excuse. Damn
modern technology for destroying children’s imagination.

 

 

“Um, I heard you talk on the phone a few days ago when I
wanted to go to the bathroom. You know, I didn’t want to eavesdrop or
something, I just heard it.”

 

 

He raised a perfect eyebrow and I knew he wouldn’t buy one
bit of what I said. But he just seemed to dismiss it as he nodded his head and
walked towards the door.

 

 

“See you later then.”

 

 

I heared a klicking sound, signaling that he left. Now there
I was sitting all alone as Grandpa was out visiting a friend. Yami wouldn’t be
back until evening or even tomorrow, but why should I care anymore?

 

 

Because I love him. Still do, always will. It’s as simple as
that. But why hadn’t I been able to tell him exactely that? Baka me.

 

 

I sighed as I stood up and started cleaning the house. It
was Saturday after all and it wouldn’t miraculously do itself.

 

 

The day went by without any events, the time passing faster
than I’d expected. Just as I flopped down on my bed I heard voices outside.
Curiosity got the better of me and so I stood up and walked over towards the
window.

 

 

The sun had just set but the heaven was still tinted in
light red and orange. The light cast an eerie gleam over the seemingly quiet
world, the two figures walking up to the shop apparently oblivious to that.

 

 

I could easily make them out as Yami and Anzu, holding hands
and laughing about some random jock I’m sure Yami made. They looked so happy
together.

 

 

I frowned, because actually I should feel happy for them as
well. Yami was my friend after all and being in love with him didn’t change
that fact. It just hurt to see him happy while I was suffering, even if that
sounded selfish.

 

 

They walked up to the back door, right underneath my window.
I could clearly understand what they were saying now.

 

 

“That was a really nice day, Yami.”

 

 

He smiled. I could hear it in his next words.

 

 

“Yeah, really nice. Um, shouldn’t I drop you off at yours?”

 

 

“Nah, that’s allright. It’s not that far from here and I’m a
big girl, you know that,” Tea purred in her sweet voice.

 

 

I felt like running off to the bathroom and throwing up.
It’s not fair for that false bitch to be with him. He’s such a nice and caring
person, and her? The devil’s reincarnation. I would bet my ass for that.

 

 

“Hmm, alright. I’ll get going then. They sure as hell are
waiting for me with din- …”

 

 

He didn’t get the chance to finish his sentence, what I took
as a very clear sign that she kissed him.

 

 

“Mmh, I love you, Yami,” she purred again.

 

 

“I love you, too.”

 

 

There it was again. This stab in my heart, even worse than last
time as now I knew for sure that who it was directed to didn’t deserve it. At
least not in my eyes.

 

Tears threatened to fall as the pain and rejection I felt
were worse than ever.

 

 

She slowly walked away, turning around to wave a few times
until she was out of sight. Shortly after that the backdoor was slammed shut.

 

 

“Yugi?! Is somebody home?!”

 

 

It took all my willpower to answer him and not cry and run
past him out of the door. I slowly left my spot at the window and walked out of
my room towards the staircase, whiping a few stray tears away.

 

 

“I’m up here. I think I fell asleep on the bed for a while.
Sorry.”

 

 

He looked up at me and smiled that overwhelming smile of
his, making my knees go weak.

“No problem. Come on. Let’s get dinner started together
then, I’m starving eatheath,” he said.

I tried to smile back but failed miserably but he couldn’t
see me anyway as it was still dark up here. I just walked down the stairs and
followed him into the kitchen.

 

 

“How was your date?” I asked as cooly as possible.

 

 

I didn’t think that a simple question like that could affect
him so much, but he tensed immediately. He turned his back towards me so that I
was not able to see his eyes.

 

 

“Great,” he said in a cheerful voice.

 

 

I sighed as I took my seat at the table, watching him
working at the stove. This really was a depressing day and I just wanted to
drop dead. I felt the tears welling up again and decided that there was no way
I could eat something, all the thing s happeninh the last few minutes getting too
much for me.

 

 

“Yami, do you mind if I skip dinner? I’m so tiered.”

 

 

He slowly turned around and looked at me, a puzzled look on
his face. He didn’t say a thing at first, merely shook his head and turned back
to pealing potatoes. Just as I was about to go upstairs he came after me.

 

 

“Hey, good night.”

 

 

He smiled and went back to the kitchen leaving me totally
confused.

 

 

 

Thanks for reading my fic! Again, English is not my first
language, so if you spot any mistakes, tell me and I will cct tct them.