I Never Knew

Well you voted and Ryou gets to live, weather or not it’s
happily ever after is up to me though ~evil grin~ but I wanted to
thank all my fans and everyone who reviewed for making this story my most
successful story ever and for sticking with me! Thank-you so very much!

Check out my newest fic “Youth” written by me and
Mally-Chan.

Anyway I hope you like chapter 14 to “I Never Knew” ENJOY!!!

Ryou sat naked trembling on the tile floor of his bathroom
holding the bottle of aspirin to his mouth but not tilting back far enough to
allow the pills to spill forward into his mouth, he dropped the bottle the
pills spilling everywhere around him as he buried his head in his hands and
cried helplessly. Why did everything have to be so hard, why couldn’t he just
be happy foce oce or at least have to strength to make his pain stop. What hurt
Ryou the most was that Yami was gone, he was probably never going to hurt him
again either but that didn’t make Ryou happy it made matters worse even. His
body and heart ached from all the abuse heaped upon it and he thought that if
Yami would go away so would all his pain but that wasn’t the case…his pain
didn’t go all all it did was hurt even worse. Because he was ready to give up
he was ready to let him take complete control of his body, mind, heart,
soul…everything. Even now he didn’t care if he lived or died the pain didn’t
stop and if he had to live with such a torment, it wasn’t worth living.

Suddenly Seto busted into the bathroom embracing Ryou
strongly noticing the empty bottle in Ryou’s hand taking it and cupping Ryou’s
face quickly.

“You didn’t swallow these did you!?” Seto asked urgently.

floor. Why was he here? Why couldn’t he just be left alone it was a lot easier
to hate yourself when you are alone. “just go away…” Ryou said softly feeling
bad for giving him the cold shoulder but wanting to be alone so very badly.

“Nani?” Seto asked, “Ryou…Yami’s gone, everything will be
okay now. You can come home with me now where you won’t be hurt ever again.”
Seto said trying to hold Ryou who kept on brushing his hands away.

“I told you before not to touch me! It…it burns…don’t you
understand that if anyone planned to hurt me now they’d have a hell of me
me
finding something that would have an effect…I’m a bit beyond any physical pain
effecting me now.” Ryou held his body trying to stop the tremors that ran
through him.

“Just go away Seto…I’m happy you tried to help me but it was
all a little late. Nothing anyone tries to do now will do me much good, I’m too
far gone.” Ryou said sobbing into his knees.

“And what exactly do you plan to do? Enlighten me…how can
you help what has already come to pass, don’t you realize I just tried to kill
myself but I don’t even have the strength to do that!” Ryou yelled, “I can’t
even stand for you to touch me because all I know is violence!” Ryou sobbed
harder brushing past Seto running into his room.

Ryou wrapped himself up in his stained and soiled bed sheets
as he sobbed onto the mattress relentlessly not caring anymore what people
thought of it.

“Ryou stop this nonsense! If you would just bear my touch
for a little while maybe you could stand it…it may take some getting used to
but I’m sure I can help somehow.” Seto said, “Just let me try.” Seto said
reaching for Ryou who slapped his hand away.

I don’t understand you…haven’t I caused you enough problems
by now? Yami’s gone you’ve done enough for me just go home already.” Ryou said
burying his face in his hands.

“…Do you hate me?” Seto asked suddenly

Ryou’s head shot up quickly at that “Nani…I mean…no how
could I hate you after everything you’ve done for me?” Ryou said. “Where did
you get that idea?” Ryou asked.

“Ryou…you won’t even let me touch you and you keep on
telling me to leave, it’s like everything I have done doesn’t matter at all…I
don’t want to hurt you at all Ryou I want to protect you.” Seto said placing a
hand on Ryou’s head relived that he didn’t pull away although he tensed at the
contact.

Seto drew the trembling Ryou into his arms who began to sob
on his shoulder as he gripped his shirt tightly shaking from his cries as Seto
gently rocked him and smoothed back his hair.

“With Yami here I had a purpose to live…so I could prove him
wrong all this time that he couldn’t destroy me. But he’s gone now I feel so
worthless I have no one to prove anything to anymore as horrible as it sounds I
wish he was here so I had a reason to stay here.” Ryou sobbed.

“You could live for me…to show your friends, Bakura,
everyone that you can pull through this to show me that regardless of what Yami
did you can still love.” Seto said kissing Ryou’s forehead softly.

Ryou had cried himself to sleep on Seto’s shoulder and he
called a driver to take them back to the mansion in Domino not having to worry
about Yami finding them anymore. Bakura and Marik went to Ryou’s house taking
Yugi with them to help him cope with the first few weeks of being separated
from his Yami so he didn’t snap, reassemble the puzzle, and cause any more
havoc. They decided to check up on Yami in a year at the least he had to pay
for what he did to Ryou and they were being very lenient on him only staying a
year but that’s not to say he won’t stay confined for longer just to see if
Yami truly is sorry for what he had done. Ryou moved in with Seto who helped
him come to an acknowledgment with everything that happened to him but more so
in being touched and not running away from kindness anymore he had even begun
to smile again something everyone was happy to see. He learned to live again
and even though it took months Seto and Ryou had become one of the happiest
couples most have seen.

Ryou lay asleep in his and Seto’s bedroom as Seto watched
him rest, every occasionally brushing his white bangs out of his face. He
sighed he wanted to touch Ryou but didn’t want to scare him it wasn’t to long
ago he couldn’t even stand him touching him in the most innocent of ways but
Seto didn’t know how he would react to an intimate touch not to mention he
wasn’t sure if Ryou was ready for that just yet. He caressed his cheek
unintentionally waking up the young Hikari who smiled at him fondly.

“Why do you do that?” Ryou asked sounding as if he was
already awake.

”Do what?” Seto asked unsure

“Watch me while I sleep.” Ryou said sitting up to look at
Seto in the eye.

“I…” Seto began but Ryou suddenly kissed him wrapping his
small arms around him making Seto pull him into a soft embrace. Ryou pulled
away smiling softly at him.

“Do you love me?” Ryou asked softly

“Yes, I always have it think.” Seto said holding Ryou not
willing to let him go.

“Then show me…take me please.” Ryou said bringing him into
another kiss soft as Seto pulled away to look at him straight.

“Are you sure you want me too?” Seto asked

“Yes…don’t give it a second thought, I love you and I want
you to take my soul, its what I want to give.” Ryou said softly.

Seto kissed him passionately as he laid him down gently on
the bed.

Yeah I know I cut it off before lemony goodness, MWAHAHAAH!
I hope you don’t hate me too much but the next chappie will have long love
scene between Seto and Ryou the long awaited scene Huza! Anyway, I hope you
liked it!

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