My life my pain

“What are you guys doing?” That was the only warning before Yugi and Yami were roughly forced apart.

POV Jou

I was woken by a pair of voices, but I was still too deeply asleep to understand what they were saying. When I opened my eyes they widened in shock. Kaiba was kissing Yugi, and Yugi was kissing back. What the fuck was wrong here?

“What are you guys doing?” I asked before reason kicked in and I grabbed both of their shoulders to force them apart.

“Yugi, you’re in love with Yami. How do you think he’ll feel when he learns about this? And you, Kaiba…you, I am so disappointed in you. I thought you had changed, but this is worse than anything you ever did to me…us while in high school.” Tears were forcing their way down my cheeks. Shit. I know that I have every right to be angry, but why does my heart hurt so much?

“Oh Jou, you’ve got it all wrong! This is Yami, not Kaiba.”

It took a moment for me to comprehend these words. Of course. Yami. Not Seto. But wait, This was Yami IN SETO’S BODY.

“What were you guys thinking? I can’t believe you. This isn’t fair to Seto. This is his body you were making out with. And anyway, what are you doing here Yami? I thought we had decided to wait until we arrived in Egypt.”

Yugi sobbed “It’s all my fault. I’m so very sorry. I never intended to force him, and now…now it will be hurt for him to come back…I really am sorry. Please, don’t hate me Jou.”

Yami was cradling the crying boy in his arms when suddenly he let go and hunched over in pain.

“Don’t worry, Yugi,” Yami hissed trough Kaiba’s teeth. “Kaiba will be all right and we will be together soon. I promise, my love.”

Kaiba’s body collapsed and Yami was gone. Kaiba was still for a moment, then he started to groan and his limbs twisted. Yugi and I could only stare in horror. Whenever either of us tried to touch Seto he just groaned louder. I was surprised that none of the others had woken up by now. After five endless minutes Seto finally started to calm down, till his breath was even and he was obviously asleep.

Yugi started to cry silently and I sighed.

“I’m so sorry, you must despise me now Jou, I’m an awful person.”

“Oh Yugi, do you really believe I could ever despise you? I am angrier at myself than at you, I hadn’t realised you were still so…so…”

“Weak, just say it. I am weak.”

“So untrusting,” I continued, “Not trusting in your strength, in your love to Yami, in Seto, in your friends. Remember Yugi, we’re all here to help. And with Seto we can’t fail. You know that when he has sets his mind on something he will continue till he succeeds. And right now his goal is to help you and Ryou.”

I saw Yugi swallowing his tears back. “You’re right Jou. And of course I trust you and Seto and the others. And…I will try to trust in myself too.”

“That’s the spirit pal, and never forget, I will be always there for you.”

“The same goes for you, Jou. You can tell me anything and I won’t judge you.” Yugi’s eyes shined sincerely.

“What…what are you talking about?” I asked nervously. Don’t tell me he knows I am gay…

“I don’t know what’s bothering you, but I do know that there’s something. It has been there since high-school and I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you all this time. I won’t force you to tell me anything, just know that when you’re ready to tell I’ll listen and support you in any way possible.”

“Me too.” Surprised I looked over to where Seto had been resting, and sure enough deep blue eyes stared into mine. How long had he been awake?

“You can trust me Jou, I’ll help you in any situation…whatever it takes.”

Tears stung in my eyes. Oh how I wanted to tell them. Tell them that I’m gay. Tell him that he is damn gorgeous. Tell them that I’m sick and tired of hiding it. But the words just wouldn’t come out. I had hidden it for so long - too long - and I had my best friend back, the one I always wanted to tell but I just couldn’t. If I told them I was gay my countless affairs would eventually come out. They would know that I couldn’t even count the guys I’d had sex with already. They would know how dirty I am.

I sobbed in frustration. How I hated myself at this moment. Suddenly I felt two bodies surround me, wrapping themselves around me. Seto petted my head while Yugi talked softly.

“It’s okay Jou. You really don’t have to tell. You’re my best friend and I love you now, and always will. There is nothing that can make me think less of you, so please stop crying or I’ll start too.”

“We’re really a couple of whining babies, eh Yugi?” I chuckled a bit. Yugi’s words meant a lot to me. “I’m good now, thank you and…I promise I will tell you one day.”

Seto let go of me and cleared his throat. “You too Seto, one day I will tell you too.” Seto looked really happy at that, but soon went red. “Thanks for trusting me Jou,” He mumbled and looked down at his watch. “We should be ready to land in about an hour. Could you two please wake the others…I really don’t understand how they could sleep trough the crying session you two just had. I’m going to talk to the pilot. And don’t worry Yugi,” he added when he saw Yugi’s uneasy face, “I’m not angry at you, and this whole thing will be kept between us. Just don’t try it again. I have no desire to face Bakura unprepared again.” Shuddering, Seto moved away.

“He really changed, didn’t he? I always knew he had a soft spot inside him, I just never thought he would show us. Especially after what I did.”

“Its okay now, Yugi. Seto and I both understand why you did it. Come on, let’s wake the others.”

We soon discovered why our friends hadn’t woken up through the whole ordeal. Earplugs! The invention of the Millennia.

As Seto had predicted, the plane landed within the next hour and after we gathered our luggage we entered the main hall and were right away jumped by a sandy-blond-haired boy.

“Oh, you are finally here,” Marik squealed. He turned around and waved two people over. “Ishizu, Odion, here they are. I found them!” Smiling, the two of them walked over. They hadn’t changed at all, expect they now wore a much easier expression on their faces, probably meaning that Marik was not a maniac anymore.

“I’m so glad you guys are finally here. How was your flight? How are the lot of you? I’m so exited you all are here. I missed you and don’t worry, we’ll get Yami and Bakura back. Odion did a great job of finding all relevant scripts and we have worked through them. We also have four of the Millennium Items. You must have the Rod, the Ring, and the Puzzle right? Oh and…”

“Master Marik,” Odion interrupted, as Marik seemed to want to go on and on, “maybe we should discuss this in a less crowded place. I’m sure our guests would like to rest and refresh themselves. Lets take them home and let them settle down first, and then we can discuss everything.” Marik blushed and mumbled an embarrassed “sorry.” Seeing his Master’s embarrassment, Odion caressed Marik’s cheeks with two of his fingers. “Don’t be sorry, Master Marik, you were just overexcited to see all your friends. I think that’s very cute.” Marik blushed even more and Odion turned to us, smiling. “The car waits outside.”

Was it just me, or were these two overly friendly with each other?

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I know, its short but I cpuldnt think of anything to add...
Next chap. will be tatat the ritual to get te Yamis back! Will it work? You will see!


Thanks to blckwidow an to my reviewers fell free to review again...grin