What Once Was

A/N: OK. So I know that I seem like the most unreliable writer ever, but if you look at it some writers abandon their work completely. At least I keep coming back.

I know! I know! This is a horrible excuse, but I have a better one. You see, my little sister, who is 17, got this bum for a boyfriend who barely graduated form high school and now is neither working nor going to college. He has no money at all whatsoever. HE used to get money from his parents but ever since his sister had a kid his parents told him that they couldn’t really afford to pay him for nothing. So, he started getting money off my sister, who is now broke. So for a while I was giving money to my sister (I can’t say no to her). But, I eventually got really tired of it and we finally managed to find the bum a job. I wonder how long he will be able to keep it. So now, that my little sister is happy again, I am done with all my classes and my final grades have been finalized completely, and I already set up my hours for work (and I actually do have free time, though mostly now I hang out with my sister because I don’t trust her bum… I mean boyfriend).

Even though I am thankful to those of you who reviewed, very few people actually do review my story, and I kind of got discouraged. I mean I am writing a story for free. Some authors put up their own sites and charge people to read their stories. I don’t, so please review. I am not asking for money. I am not asking for jewels. I am only asking for your opinion in words. It will cost you nothing, except for a few seconds and faster updates on my part.

Oh, I forgot to mention. I really must be cursed because when I was taking my last final I got this stabbing pain in my lower right abdominal region, right where my appendix is, and now the doctor thinks I might have appendicitis. I went to see him a few weeks ago and it didn’t look well. Also, he thinks I might have mild depression. That would really explain why I don’t want to do anything any more. *sigh*


Chapter 10


Breakfast time would come eventually so Seto suggested that Ryou and him take a shower. He couldn’t very well go the breakfast table with everyone there, including his little brother, when he smelled like sex.

Ryou agreed immediately. However, he was disinclined to get up and follow Seto since he was still naked and he wasn’t quite sure where his clothes were. And even though he had already had sex with Seto Kaiba, Ryou Bakura was a shy boy. He just wasn’t used to being naked with anyone.

Kaiba smiled as he witnessed Ryou’s skin go from pale white to bright red in a matter of seconds. Virgins were so cute.

Climbing back on the bed, on top of Ryou, Seto Kaiba kissed the albino fully on the lips. He wasn’t quite sure as to what it was about Ryou that invoked such passion in him, but at this moment he didn’t care to question it.

Ryou was simply irresistible. For the first time ever his hair was a mess, and for a moment he resembled Bakura, back in the old Egyptian days when the thief was still young and didn’t look quite as evil.

Kaiba frowned. Maybe he really did like Ryou because the albino reminded him of his former lover, or at least of his gentler side. Kaiba looked down at Ryou, who was sprawled on the bed underneath him, his hair in a wild disarray, his lips pink and swollen from their kiss, and his eyes half-closed in pleasure.

A look at that extremely erotic site, and the fact that the boy had trusted him enough to give him his virginity, made all other thoughts disappear from Kaiba’s mind. He would sort out all his thoughts and feelings later. For now, he needed to just be with Ryou.

So got off the bed, picked up Ryou bridal style, and carried him naked to the bathroom.

Ryou yelped from surprise as his naked body was lifted up and as he was carried, like a girl, to the bathroom. His hands shot straight to his groin area, futilely trying to cover up his genitals. He looked up at Kaiba, who just smiled at him.

Ryou took a deep breath as Kaiba put him down on the bathroom floor next to the shower. He tried to reason that he really liked being with Kaiba, and he really enjoyed seeing the other’s body naked, so maybe the other enjoyed seeing him naked. But that only raised more doubts in him. What if Kaiba didn’t like his body? He was skinny and pale and Kaiba was strong and handsome with very finely defined muscles. Not to mention that at this early age he was already the CEO of a multimillion-dollar company. He was young, handsome, and successful. Why would someone like that want someone like him?

And then another thought crossed his mind. What if Kaiba was just using his body? What if all he wanted was sex? Ryou didn’t think he would handle that.

Kaiba adjusted the water of the shower to a temperature that he was sure wouldn’t be too cold, nor that it would be so hot as to burn Ryou’s pale skin. Once he was satisfied, he turned back to Ryou. He didn’t know what he expected the other to look like, but he certainly didn’t expect to his the albino near tears.

Definitely not like Bakura.

Kaiba leaned in close and kissed one of the tears that escaped Ryou’s eyes.

“What’s wrong, snowflake?” Kaiba asked. Seeing Ryou so pale with his hair so wild yet somehow in perfect symmetry, reminded Kaiba of the snowflakes that would sit on his window during the winter days.

Ryou smiled, though his eyes were still watery. The sincerity in Kaiba’s voice assuaged him, slowly making his worries go away. If Kaiba was using him, at least he would enjoy it while it lasted, and afterwards, if Kaiba broke his heart, Bakura would definitely break Kaiba.

Ryou smiled and wiped his eyes. “Nothing’s wrong. I was just thinking something silly.”

Kaiba just held Ryou tightly to his chest and ran his fingers through his hair for a while. He wondered if this is what Bakura would have been like if his life had turned out different in Egypt.

Eventually, as Ryou started shivering, Kaiba drew them both under the hot shower and began leathering Ryou’s hair. Te albino didn’t’ complain one bit, closing his eyes and enjoying being treated like this by the mighty CEO whom he had a crush on for the longest of times.

Once Kaiba was done with his hair he started washing Kaiba’s hair and they both continued to wash each other until Kaiba dropped down to his knees to wash his groin area. Ryou’s erection jumped at the slightest hint of Kaiba’s breath and his eyes went hazy with lust as he saw Seto Kaiba kneeling between his legs, a smug smirk on his face.

Kaiba took a hold of Ryou’s hips to steady the boy, and slowly took his erection into his mouth.

Ryou moaned loudly as Kaiba teased his head. His hips wanted to buck forward, to get more of the wonderful heat and wetness of Kaiba’s mouth, but two strong hands held him firmly in place, and the mouth continued its tantalizingly slow, teasing path.

By the time Kaiba finally took all of him in, Ryou was on the brink of an orgasm. His hands came up to grab Kaiba’s head to steady himself, as Kaiba’s hands were the only thing keeping him from falling, and his fingers got lost in Kaiba’s soft hair. With one last passionate cry Ryou ejaculated his semen into Kaiba’s mouth.

He opened the eyes that he hadn’t realized he had closed, and he first looked at Kaiba’s face, smiling. Then his gaze went lower, to Kaiba’s groin, and the smile turned into a smirk.

“I think you need my help,” said Ryou, biting his lower lip with a mischievous look in his eyes. Kaiba couldn’t help the moan that escaped his throat at that moment. Who knew a virgin could be such a tease? But if Ryou wanted to try, Kaiba wasn’t going to be the one to stop him.

Ryou kneeled in front of Kaiba, now quite unsure as to what to do, how to start. His tongue came out just a little bit and he licked the opening of Kaiba’s erection. That earned him a hard growl from the brunet. Now more confidently, though still a little tentatively, Ryou grabbed Kaiba’s erection and licked it from base to head. That earned him more moans from the usually stoic CEO and Ryou realized that he liked having this newfound power. With just a few licks of his tongue he could turn the normally calm and composed CEO into this moaning, melted pile.

It took all of Kaiba’s strength and willpower not to grab the white hair and just plunge his cock into Ryou’s hot mouth. The albino probably didn’t even know how much he was teasing him with his tongue. Ryou, since it was his first time, was going slow, exploring what made the CEO moan, and the slow pace was just driving the brunet crazy.

Ryou finally took the CEO into his mouth, using his tongue to massage the sensitive organ. Seto groaned, realizing that if Ryou kept this up, he wouldn’t be able to last much longer. And sure enough, a few more bobs of Ryou’s head and Seto Kaiba, with a loud, uncharacteristic groan, ejaculated his seed into Ryou’s mouth.

Surprised, Ryou pulled his face away, only to get a shot of Kaiba’s seed on his face. The cum dripped from his lower lip, and Kaiba closed his eyes again, for he found the site to be too erotic to handle at the moment. For a virgin, Ryou sure had great skills.

Must have inherited them from Bakura, Kaiba thought.

It was odd how he just didn’t seem to be able to get Bakura out of his mind. But he was happy with Ryou. They were so much alike yet so different. With Bakura, the albino was always in charge. But with Ryou, Kaiba was the one in control. Ryou was gentle, whereas Bakura was rough. But Ryou did remind him of Bakura back in Egypt, when Bakura was more innocent, gentler, and kinder.

The two finished their shower and started dressing. Ryou was happy, overly so. He couldn’t stop smiling, and every time Seto looked at him, he smiled, too. But once Ryou was gone, Kaiba turned serious.

He just didn’t know what he really wanted in life. Ryou and Yami both seemed to like him. But he wasn’t sure whether what he felt for either of them was love or something else? And as for Bakura, well… he thought that the albino was over him, but the jealousy scene last night puzzled him. Why would Bakura get jealous if he didn’t feel anything for him? And as he walked out of his room he came across yet another puzzle in his mind.

Jou.


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