Still

Still

Summary: Sometimes it helps to simply be and feel your life.
Disclaimer: I don’t own YGO.
Warning:


Ryuzaki heard Haga scream again and rammed himself into the door. It broke and Ryuzaki swore as his shoulder began to throb.

“Damn…fuckin’ hurt…” he muttered. He looked up and Rikuo on top of Haga, the mint haired boy still screaming at the top of his lungs as he was forcefully pleasured orally.


Rikuo was in heaven. He’d never expected it to taste like this, to feel so good! And the screams, the screams were an added bonus, just like he’d always imagined. He pulled his mouth away and forced open the boy’s legs, grinning as he continued to scream and cry.

“This won’t hurt forever Haga-kun. Now we can be one and I’ll finally be apart of you –”

He froze, tense. Haga gave another scream and Rikuo fell on top of him, unconscious. He pushed him off, tears in his eyes and stared at Ryuzaki wide eyed. The lilac banged Dinosaur master had a chair in his hands and dropped it when he saw Haga.

Ryuzaki?!

The brunette grinned, the flushed, averting his eyes. He pointed at Haga and stammered. “I –your –let me get him out of here…”

He dragged Rikuo out and down the stairs where he alerted the land lady of what had occurred, well, except the gorier details. The woman called the police and had him stay with her to make a report and make sure Rikuo didn’t do anything when he came to.

**

Haga lay there stunned. He’d nearly been…

And he ran away…he just ran. Am I…tainted now? tears came to his eyes and he cried, finally getting up to pull up his pants. His shirt was ripped and he didn’t know where his tie was. He tried to fasten his pants, but the button was gone. He spotted the fastener on the floor and buried his face in his hands, sobbing.

This was all a mistake…all of it…I should have been more cautious but no, I wanted someone to like me…just because I was fucking lonely…

The insector got up then and shuffled out of the room, not bothering with the door lying in the entrance. He took off his clothes and got in the shower, his soul trembling every time he breathed in.

Sobs racked his body and he just fell to his knees, holding himself and letting the spray run over him.

It’s all my fault…all my fault…because I’m a loser. I was wrong to tell Ryuzaki those things…I’m the loser…

He heard the bathroom door open and he tensed, eyes going wide, pupils dilating.

“H-haga?”

It was Ryuzaki.

The boy’s breath came out in shallow gasps. “get out…”

“Okay. I just wanted to tell you, the police took that asshole away. There will be people fixing your door. I’m going to stay till they fix and then I’ll be gone, okay?”

“Just –just get out. Right now!” He was in the corner of the shower, his back to the tiles, wild eyed and high strung. “I’ll…I’ll see you at school or something.”

Outside of the shower, Ryuzaki stared. The curtain was and interesting white. Not exactly the color of printer paper, but warmer, like the under belly of an alligator. Or was that yellow?

The Dinosaur master turned and walked out, closing the door carefully. He stood outside of the door and leaned on it.

So much for your advice Yugi…what am I supposed to do now…

He heard the workmen at the entrance and briefly wondered how they were able to get here so late at night. He walked to the door and watched them as they worked.

They probably live here in the building…

He closed his eyes and listened to the bedroom. Haga was out and about the room.

He…needs time. That’s all…that’s all…

****

Haga stared at the clock. The burning red numbers told him it was five minutes to twelve. Twelve p.m. on a Thursday. He briefly wondered about school then turned away to lie on his side.

He’d been lying there so long, his body hurt. His muscles ached and his insides felt like they were being crushed.

He wanted to get up, he really did, but he just couldn’t get up. Not anymore.

Tears roamed down his face and let out a sob.

It had all been for nothing. Did he really think a measly week would change his life?

How could I have been so foolish? So, no more beatings. It was just replaced with something ten times worse…

His phone rang. He didn’t pick it up. Oddly enough, since last night, people had been trying to call him. He didn’t know who. Just “people”. He’d even heard someone knocking at his door. He figured it was maybe Espa, but then too, he’d never gone to look.

He’d called into work sick, so it could be his job. But he didn’t care. He was sick of being around dead bodies, insect or otherwise.

Am I here now…this way…because of a few simple duels? Because of getting beaten, one way or another? Because of Rikuo?

“or because of myself…”

He sat up and rubbed his back. The mint haired boy stared at the sheets. They were gripped in his hands. His fingers seemed so small and insignificant. Blue eyes gazed over at the Venetian blinds. They hadn’t been up in what seemed like forever.

Tick. Tick. Tick.

The bug clock on the wall was starting to annoy him and as he moved to get up, he suddenly felt extremely gritty.

He hadn’t bathed in four days and as he moved out into his living space, it certainly felt like it and smelled like it. His laundry was piling up, he had nothing in his fridge and his whole place looked like crap.

“Too bad I don’t have an army of termites feeding me or cleaning my space…” He rubbed his face and curled his lip. He needed a shower.


He looked at the clock. Had he really been in the shower for that long?

The blinds were up and his mint colored hair was wet, dripping on his shoulders and down to the towel on his waist. He’d get dressed and clean this place up. He’d go shopping and tomorrow he’d go back to work.

He took a deep breath as he opened his drawers.

I’ll wear my green shirt today…the one with the beetle on it. I’m feeling nostalgic...

The lid was still off. He just had to find the courage to fly out again.

****

Ryuzaki sat in the office, grinning despite the blood running from the cut over his eye and lip. The principal was droning on and on about what a discipline problem he was and how he was going to have to leave Domino East for a new school if he couldn’t behave.

He laughed suddenly, bordering on tears. “Transfer? You think I care? There’s nothing here for me anymore you asshole!” He pounded his fist on the desk, enraged. “I kicked those guy’s asses for a reason! Do you know they’d been engaged in beating up this school’s fucking top student? Huh?”

The balding man in a suit adjusted his tie and looked his nose down at the beat up youngster. “I could really care less. Besides, with his week long absence, Haga may not be able to retain his academic status for much longer and as a student we gave special treatment, he maybe be forced to be a Junior again for throwing the gift of skipping him up in our faces…but that is neither here nor there –”

The lilac banged brunette stood up, the chair flying back. “Fuck you! Hypocritical asshole! You people are all the same! How can you do this?”

The man stood as well. “I am the head of this school and –”

“You’re going to let a near rapist graduate at the head of the class, you let your top students get beat up!” He rounded the desk, fists clenched.

Ryuzaki had been volatile all week, especially when he saw that Rikuo had shown up to school Monday looking smug while Haga was no where to be seen. He’d been fine with that, until Rikuo started talking about how clingy and obsessed Haga was and how he’d thrown himself at the dark haired boy. Immediately pissed off, he’d gone to confront the jackass about it when he found himself faced with the boy’s muscle: Several members of the soccer and baseball teams.

One against seven? He hadn’t stood a chance, but it didn’t matter. This was about defending the name of someone he cared about.

The principal back away and Ryuzaki advanced on him, pointing in his face.

“I hope you rot in hell for the things you’ve done and have allowed to be done!”

“Mrs. Saki!” The man called, growing uncomfortable. “Please get someone in here…”

Ryuzaki sniffed and spit at the man’s feet. “You don’t have to get anyone. I’m leaving you ass. Permanently.”

With that, the Dinosaur master walked out of the office, giving one of the jocks he’d been fighting a complimentary punch in the face for his troubles. Before they could give chase, he was out of there, his locker cleaned, his text books on the ground.

Fuck this shit. Fuck it all. Because of you, Haga can’t even come to school…

As he was about to leave, he was Rikuo near the main entrance, leaning against the doorframe. The midnight haired boy was looking at his nails, the picture of indifference.

The brunette gave a growl and was about to storm past when Rikuo said, “How’s Haga?”

Ryuzaki clenched his fist and stopped. “What did you say?”

“I asked how Haga was. After all, he hasn’t been here all week. I mean, I wouldn’t come to school either after humiliating yourself like that, but hey, tell him there’s no hard feelings and we can try again if he likes –”

Rikuo never saw it coming. Ryuzaki gave him a right hook right to the mouth, kicking him right where it counted.

As the dark haired boy doubled over, crying and clutching himself, Ryuzaki laughed and kicked him over.

“You son of a bitch…I catch you near him again and I’ll rip them off…and if that isn’t enough of a threat, I know someone who’d be more than willing to cut them off!”

He left them, shoving on his hat and walking out into the summer sun.

****

Haga looked into the window, eyes wide, sucking on a slushie. Apparently he could get three pairs of really good jeans for cheap. He gripped the grocery sacks in his left hand and shook his head. He didn’t have the enough money and wouldn’t till he got back to work full time.

He walked further and continued to window shop, unaware of the person walking towards him. They passed each other, bumping shoulders.

“Watch it!”

“Watch it yourself…”

Haga blinked and continued to drink his slushie. It was Ryuzaki.

“Why are you wearing that damn hat? It’s nearly ninety-five out here!”

“I can wear what I want!” the lilac banged brunette blushed and snatched off the cap, looking into Haga’s eyes and then to the ground. “I just quit school. I’m going to transfer!”

“So? Big deal, I’m transferring too. Over to central.”

Ryuzaki looked up. He was going to go there too. Haga put his drink in his other hand and reached up to touched Ryuzaki’s eyebrow.

“Who got to you?”

“You mean who’d I get to? I had to take care of some business.”

They looked at each other and turned red simultaneously. Ryuzaki gave a laugh and rubbed the back of his neck.

“How’s your door?”

Haga shrugged, taking a sip of his drink. “It’s fine…” He looked down at his bags and tried not to laugh spontaneously as bubbles seemed to fly around in his stomach. “How’s um…everything? Still losing duels?”

“Same to you asshole!” the Dinosaur master shot back.

Haga pushed up his glasses, the summer sun giving them sinister glare. “Care to test that Dino breath?”

“Oh fuck you Haga! You know, I could beat you with my eyes closed!”

“So is that what you were doing back then?”

Ryuzaki felt his cheeks burn and he clenched his fists, staring at Haga. He lost whatever nerve he had and gulped as he stared into Haga’s blue eyes.

“I…fuck you Haga!”

The mint haired boy took another sip. “You wish.”

Brown eyes widened. “W-what?!”

“Who beat you up seriously? Your lip is bleeding again.”

“No one! I –I totally kicked that Rikuo guy’s ass after I took care of his cronies!”

The blue eyed boy rolled his eyes, tossing his hair a bit. “Trying to prove something to some one?”

“Yeah like what? Like who?” Ryuzaki clenched his fists. “I am strong! You’ll see! I can protect you!” He clamped his mouth shut right after he said it, feeling warm.

Haga stepped over to him and placed the drink cup against his neck. “You can have this. You look hot.”

Ryuzaki took the drink, staring down at it. The insector snorted. “It isn’t poisoned…”

“How do I know?” he took a cautionary sip and nodded. “It’s okay I guess.” He looked at Haga. This close, he really was handsome.

The insector took off his glasses, wiping them off and rubbing his eyes before putting them back on. “You’re really stupid.”

“What?” Ryuzaki tensed again. “What the fuck! Can’t you even be nice for a second -”

“I was, you totally missed it you dumb ass.”

Ryuzaki clenched his fist and cocked it back. “You asshole!”

“I said you were hot.”

“What?” he lowered his arm and Haga took his drink back, sipping it.

“Let’s go. It’s fucking hot out here.”

The mint haired boy walked away and Ryuzaki stood there, stunned. What had just happened?

“Ryuzaki!” he called. “I said let’s go!”

The boy nodded lamely, putting his hat back on and caught up, reaching for Haga’s hand to take the bags. Blue eyes looked over at him and Ryuzaki blushed and looked away, smiling.

“They looked heavy.”

Haga took another drink and they walked in silence until they got to his apartment. Ryuzaki handed the groceries back over and they stood there, looking at each other.

“It’s too much, you can have it.”

Ryuzaki took Haga’s drink again, noticing it was nearly the same green as his hair. He nodded and they stood there somemore.

“Hey…come around here about seven and we’ll go to dinner alright?”

“Yeah…” the Dinosaur master gave a smile, turning pink.

“And get ice on those wounds, clean them and get some anti-bacterial cream.”

“Okay. I’ll see you later then?”

“Definitely. Central doesn’t have summer school so all I have is free time.”

Ryuzaki blinked. “How’d you know I’m going to Central?”

“I don’t, but I know I won’t date you unless you go to the same school as me.”

“D-date me?”

Haga took Ryuzaki’s hat off his head, smiling. “You’re in my net, but I don’t think I’ll put you in a jar just yet…”

“Jar?” Ryuzaki was truly puzzled. Haga shook his head, laughing and swinging the cap on his finger.

“Seven. I expect you down here. See ya.” The insector left him to go upstairs, a smile on both of their faces.

Ryuzaki stood there for sometime after, trying to let what happened sink in.

“…I won’t date you unless you go to the same school as me…”

“YES!” the Dinosaur master shouted, pumping his fist in the air. “YES!”

He laughed and took care not to spill the drink, leaving towards his own home, grinning.

I don’t know what he meant by all that net business…but if I know anything, it probably means something good.

Haga could put him in all the “jars” he wanted and he still wouldn’t care. There’d be no tears tonight, no hidden passions.

He took a sip of the green slushie and smiled as the sun bled down on another day.


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*And now, this is over, but there will be a follow up, maybe some one shots! ^w^ Read the ending of Summer Time Magic to see who shows up! *wink wink*
*I would like to thank Muzaki_Goddess for inspiring this fic.