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I love you but
Title: I love you but…(how could you do this to me?)
Summary: Okay, because I’m lazy I’m going to make this a short short summary. Leon gets raped by Siegfried…OoOoOoO fear the shortness…fear it!
Disclaimer: I Do not own yuu-gi-oh or ANY of the characters…if I did the show would not be suitable for children’s eyes…and ohhh the bad TV reports I would have…not to mention the millions of dollars I would have. I wouldn’t have to go to this crappy collage…*thinks* oh heaven. (Yes I plan to keep my disclaimer the same for all of my FFs)
Author’s Note: Yes another dark one…I love dark fics because it’s easy to get pissed off and write them. For this one I was P.O.’d because there are no lemony LeonxSiegfried fics and I think there should be….If you can have SetoxMokuba you can have this incest couple too…Well, this isn’t a very dark one, it’s sort of an unknown requited love that ends up getting a certain someone hurt and destroying any chance of another someone eve getting to be with the one he loves…And that’s all I have to say about that….Okay…I’m BEGGING you to review, or write a fic with this couple as well I want to read someone else’s work, mine doesn’t cover it…please and thank you ;)
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It had been a week since Leon and his older brother had returned to Germany after the tournament and Siegfried, Leon had noticed, had been acting very strangely. Leon of course never commented on it. He knew his brother was confused at the time, but he did not know how confused he really was. Oh no…the poor child was /very/ far off. Sure he’d noticed that his brother would constantly stare at him if he was in the same room, and he’d even woke up in the middle of the night a couple of times to see his brother sitting in the chair across from his bed. He only figured that his brother was lonely. Nothing more nothing less.
But, Leon was sure to learn later that day that his brother’s actions were not that of a lonely man’s, no they were that of a lusting man’s…Siegfried wanted to be with his brother in one of the most grotesque ways. He wanted Leon to love him not just as a brother, but as a lover as well. He knew that Leon, in all innocents, was unaware of this simple fact and oblivious to every attempt that Sieg made to show it. But Leon was going to find out soon enough. He had decided long ago that if Leon did not catch on then he would be taken down oblivious, which in the end would hurt Leon more than expected.
Siegfried wanted nothing more than for his brother to love him in the same way that he did. He wanted Leon to know that he wanted them to be more than brothers. For God’s sake the Kaiba brothers were lovers why the hell couldn’t he and Leon be!?
And that is the thought that went through his mind as he opened his brother’s bedroom door that, unusually cold, night.
Leon had been sleeping…in his room…alone…for the last two hours. Never in his wildest dreams, which could get very wild, would he have guessed that his brother of all people was going to barge into his room that night leaving him with one lonely thought in the back of his mind. Never would he have guessed that a cold thought such as that would be the result of his brother. He loved his brother dearly, heart and soul…and perhaps a little bit more than that. He had a secret that he hoped his brother would never find out. He didn’t just love his brother as a brother, he loved his even /more/. He loved his brother in a strange way that he couldn’t yet understand.
All he knew was that whenever he hugged his brother or vice versa he felt different than what he felt when he was hugged by his other relatives. A strange kind of different. The key thing that Leon noted was that he didn’t want to ever let his brother go. He wanted to hold onto him forever and ever. It was a childish thing, he knew, but it was a strong feeling. He used to tell himself that it was just a phase, he was just…crushing…on his older brother, and he would eventually grow out of it…or so he’d hoped.
Sometimes Leon wanted to slap himself for admitting it that he was in love, the big L, the greater bond, the strongest friendship, and all of the other names out there with his own brother. His flesh and blood, his family! He was sickened by it and also afraid of it.
He had heard his father state something about two family members being in love with each other before. He also stated that everyone in the entire world who was in love with their siblings should be burned alive. His father was unstable, he knew, and that’s what terrified him. That meant that if his father did find out about his feelings for Siegfried then there would be sheer consequences to pay. And he knew that his father wouldn’t go easy on him just because he was his son. He’d known that for a very long time.
Perhaps if Leon hadn’t been as shy and afraid as he was, the sickening thoughts running through Siegfried’s mind would not be so overpowering. Maybe then the cruel fate that awaited the younger boy would not be quite as painful and heart shattering. Maybe then Sieg-sama would’ve had a chance with Leon willingly.
But Sieg-sama didn’t know and because of that Leon did end up hurt that night. Being very quiet Siegfried entered his younger brother’s room as he did almost every night and sat in the chair across from his bed. (But not before placing a bottle of /something/ on Leon’s nightstand.) He watched the pink haired boy sleep for about twenty minutes in utter silence before making a single move. Even then he said not a word, making the room deathly quiet.
He stooped over the sleeping boy whose lips were slightly parted. Siegfried couldn’t help but smirk at how defenseless the boy was. Didn’t he know that it was dangerous to be so cute? Why if it wasn’t for all of the guards and the maze like corridors of the castle then Siegfried could be virtually anyone stooping over the boy and thinking such frowned upon thoughts.
He placed his lips over those of his sleeping brother’s and held them there a little under two seconds. It took a lot of self-control to not rip the sheets and other layers of cloth to get to the boy. But he didn’t want to wake Leon just yet. He wanted to admire the cuteness for a little while longer. He just adored the way Leon looked when he was sleeping. The way he whimpered if was having a nightmare. Although Siegfried was turned on already, he was even happier to know that Leon was indeed having a bad dream. He kept twitching every few moments and he furrowed his brow occasionally. Seig-sama was just waiting for the boy to awake from his nightmare so he could comfort the frightened child and use that to his advantage. Perhaps then he could even coax Leon not to yell.
The boy was a born screamer, everyone in the household knew that. If one tiny thing popped out and scared him he would scream bloody murder before he even realized what it was. Although he was older now he still had a tendency to yell whenever he got hurt, even if it was just “AUTSCH!”[1] at the top of his lungs. Although it was a dark fantasy, Siegfried wanted to make Leon call out, to make he scream his name at the top of his lungs. He wanted to hear him whimper beneath him. He wanted Leon…pain and all. He also did /not/want the servants and his parents to know that. And for that simple reason he had to make sure that Leon did not yell or do anything else to attract attention.
Sure enough there was a loud whimper from the boy which turned into pleading mumbles before the smaller boys eyes shot open and he gasped loudly. Siegfried smirked.
/Perfect./ he thought.
“Leon!” he called with fake concern. “Are you alright? I just came into to check on you because I could hear you from the hallway und it appears to me zat you were having a nightmare.” Leon sat up in his bed and rubbed his eyes. He sniffed slightly and let out a sigh. He had a stuffy nose again. That was the only thing that saddened Siegfried at that moment. He knew that if he went through with his plan he would catch his little brother’s cold. /Oh vell/ he thought. /This should be vorth it…/
“Yeah, I think I’m okay. But I had this really weird dream! I-I don’t remember much of it, but you were there and I think you were uh, trying to kill me with a knife or something like that. I don’t know. It was one of those dreams where you dream that you’ve woken up yet you didn’t. Yo know what I mean right?” Leon smiled at him slightly and Siegfried allowed himself to sit down on the edge of the bed. He was one step closer to getting what he wanted.
“Now you know zat I would never kill you with a butcher knife right? I don’t seem zat reckless to you do I?” Siegfried grinned at the boy letting him know that it was only a joke. Leon grinned back and laughed slightly.
“Oh course, you’re my big brother, you’d never do anything to hurt me!” If Siegfried was in his right mind he might’ve been hurt for that comment. His brother actually trusted him when he had such cruel thoughts going through his mind…bondage…torture…blood…yes, Siegfried wanted to see Leon’s blood. He wanted to know that it was /his/ fault for the pain that his brother was in. And if Leon cried rivers then he knew that it was because of him. Because he had power over the boy.
“Now how are you so sure of zat? Hm?” Siegfried turned his body further towards the boy and placed his hands on the bed on either side of Leon’s body. Said boy was no longer sure if his brother was just joking or being serious. /Do what mom says, give him the benefit of the doubt/.
So he did just that. He tilted his head and smiled innocently.
“Well, you’ve never really hurt me before. I mean, there’ve been small accidents, but nothing serious. You love me, Sieg-sama…Don’t you?” A solemn look crossed the younger boys face as he stared at his brother.
“But of course! Who couldn’t love somezing as cute as you?” Siegfried leaned closer Leon, brining one leg onto the bed. Their noses were almost touching when he finally stopped. Leon’s jaw quivered slightly and swallowed hard. Siegfried fought back a grin and faked concern again. “Now why do you seem so afraid? You just /know/ zat I’m not going to hurt you…/right/?” Leon felt a tremor go down his spine.
/Sieg-sama has a strange look in his eyes. I know that he’s never hurt me before, but he has that look that dad gets sometimes when he’s angry or…drunk…What exactly does he want with me/?
“O-of c-course I know you won’t hurt me, Bruder.” Leon forced a smile and nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt Siegfried’s lips caress his own. It wasn’t quite a kiss, but Leon knew for sure that it was meant to be.
A small whimper escaped Leon’s mouth as he looked in his brother’s crazed eyes. Before he had time to act, Leon felt Siegfried’s hand under his chin forcing it upwards to meet his older brother’s mouth. He did not move away from the kiss for two reasons. The first being that he didn’t want to anger his brother because even he did not know what that would bring and reason two being that he was too shocked to move. Siegfried had never done that before. There had to be some reason behind it.
/He’s just be affectionate tonight that’s all. H-He’s lonely and he knows that I-I’m here for him so…th-that’s why he’s doing this. He’s n-not going to hurt me so I should just calm down/. Leon tried to calm down, he really did, but he just couldn’t stop the shivers. He even tried to suppress his whimpers, but that proved impossible. Especially once his idolized brother jerked the sheets off of him placed a hand on his groin.
“Bruder, wha-what a-are you—” Siegfried cut him off with another kiss and Leon knew all too well of what was going on. He no longer needed his brother’s reassurance.
He felt his brother caress his not-erect member through his flannel pajamas. He whimpered at that and yelped at the unexpected grope that followed afterwards. He had loved his brother before now and still did, but he knew then that the crush he had on his brother was not extreme enough to want /this/. No, /this/ was wrong. /This/ needed to stop…
“Bruder, bitte halt!” [2] Leon begged, but his brother did no such thing. He wanted to cry, to beg for his brother to go away. He wanted nothing more than to push the older boy away from him. To give them some distance between each other, but he knew that he might get hit if Siegfried was really all that determined.
“Warum?” [3] Siegfried asked as he lifted his hand to the waist band of his little brother’s pajama’s pulling them down slightly. Leon whimpered and began breathing heavy. He knew all to well what Siegfried wanted to do to him. “Don’t you dare scream,” Siegfried said as his eyes went steely. “Ich wille schlagen sie wenn sie mascht.” [4] Leon shook freely now. He no longer had the desire to call for help. He knew that his brother was serious.
“Please don’t hurt me, Bruder. I-I love you.” Leon’s eyes filled with tears and his brothers stayed the same. He knew that his brother was going to follow through with whatever it was that he had planned. No amount of requited love could change his mind.
“Aber nicht genug…”[5] Tears streamed down his face. How could his brother say that? Not enough? Not enough! He loved his brother more than anything else in the world! Why couldn’t he see that?
“B-But…” he could think of nothing else to say. He felt his brother pull harder on his pajama bottoms and felt the cool night air touch his flesh. He whimpered and instinctively went to cover the area. This naturally anger Siegfried and caused him to grasp painfully Leon’s wrist and attempt to jerk his hands away from a place that he had longed to see for so long. “Bruder, please…don’t do this to me. I-I-I…” Leon sobbed loudly and a voice sounded in the hallway.
It was just a servant passing by who happened to overhear the sob.
“Is everything alright?” Siegfried glared at Leon who chocked back another sob. He was afraid of what his older brother would do next. He feared that it meant pain, and he was very right.
“Ja. He had a nightmare, I’m taking care of him.”
“Nur machen sicher.” [6] (A/N: I know I’m using a lot of German and I’m sorry, and if the words aren’t correct then blame my online translator…I haven’t learned the language yet…I’ll try to use less German now…)
Once Siegfried was sure that the made was gone and not coming back he glared at the younger boy who shook violently. It was that action alone that made Siegfried refrain from striking at him. It wasn’t his fault that the maid just happened to be coming down the hall when the embarrassment got to him. He wasn’t going to hit him, but he wanted Leon to think he would so he would beg to be forgiven…
“I’m sorry! I-I didn’t m-m-m-mean to! Please don’t hurt me! Big brother I love you!” Siegfried allowed a grin to play across his face before leaning forward and silencing the boy with another kiss.
“I know, but still, nicht genug.”[5] Leon felt horrible. He loved his brother…he loved his brother more than enough. “But I will make you love me.” Once again Siegfried made it so he could feast his eyes on his brother’s private parts. God he was so beautiful…and cute with that deep blush on his cheeks. Siegfried wanted to take him right there right that second. And he was going to.
Siegfried removed the pajama bottoms without any protest from the younger boy. Leon was afraid of what was going to happen to him for the simple fact that he could do nothing to stop it. The pajamas hit the floor with a quiet clump that was hardly able to be heard. Leon felt himself being shoved backwards and practically pulled down the bed to where he was laying down with his older brother straddling him. Siegfried pulled off his own, expensive, business jacket and gently dropped it on the floor beside the bed before thoughtlessly removing his less expensive shirt and tossing it carelessly behind him. The only thing left on him was his pants and his socks. He was going “commando” that night for a reason, and had already taken off his shoes in advance.
Leon felt defenseless, and knew that it was in vain, but he wanted to try again. “Brother, I l-love you, p-please don’t do this to me…” He stared at his brother’s icy blue eyes and realized with painful assurance that his brother was not going to change him mind.
“Be still,” Siegfried said sternly. Leon obeyed without a second thought. He feared what his brother would do to him if he did not. In moments time Siegfried already had his pants off along with Leon’s top as well. The boy felt so fragile in those few moments. He knew what was coming and knew that he could do nothing. Sure he could scream but then he would get in trouble with his brother and whoever heard wouldn’t dare go against his brother’s word and come into the room. Unless it was his mother or father of course. But they always ignored him when he called out. They became automatic to shutting out his voice. A rather strong case of “out of sight out of mind.”
/Why is Siegfried doing this to me/? Leon asked himself. /I don’t know if it’s because he’s angry with me or if he just wants to use me as a cheap fuck…or perhaps he’s doing this because he really loves me. I mean, he did say that I didn’t love him ‘enough.’ Maybe he wants me to pay back all of the love he feels for me…Doesn’t he know that I can barely live without him? Doesn’t he know!?/
“You’re so beautiful,” Siegfried said as his fingers danced under his younger brother’s chin before placing a feathery soft kiss on his lips. “Do you know that?” it wasn’t a question meant to be answered with words. Leon knew that very well, but he could not help but say something!
“N-not really…” he turned his head away from the love struck gaze of his brother.
“Zen let me show you how beautiful you are…”
(I know this is a long fic, but the lemon stuff is from here on down…)
Siegfried put three fingers in his mouth and sucked on them for at least a minute before he removed them. Leon whimpered when he saw where the fingers were heading towards. He knew that he could do nothing about them, just like he couldn’t do anything about the other things that his brother did to him. He couldn’t stop the kisses and the unwanted touches and the unruly words that escaped his brother’s lips. For some things he didn’t want them to go away, the kisses and gentle stuff, but the touches he could go without. He only wanted brotherly love, not incest! No, that isn’t what he wanted! He just wanted his brother’s attention! All of the BROTHERLY love that he could have. Not physical love! He didn’t want that!
It was these thoughts that brought tears to his eyes. He had stopped crying before, but he started up again. Not only from the pain in his heart, but also the pain in his entrance where, not one, but two fingers were launched making scissor motions causing Leon to whimper every single time. This gave Siegfried both pleasure and pain. He wanted his brother no matter what no matter how much it hurt, but he did not like causing his brother to cry. It was cruel and he knew it, but his sexual mind fought any thoughts of changing anything out of his head. He had come so far and was not going to back out now. Not until he was finished and had gotten everything he wanted.
Soon a third finger was added and Leon let out a choked sob. He wanted to beg his brother to stop, to leave him alone, but he couldn’t get the words out of his throat. All that would come out were gasps of pain and sobs.
“B-Bruder, p-p-please! S-s-s-stop it! You’re hurting me!” Siegfried stared at his brother straight in the eyes. He leaned forward to capture Leon’s lips once again but was disrupted by a rather loud knock on the door.
/Zat’s the second time someone has interrupted me! Do I have to put a ‘do no disturb’ sign on ze door to get some privacy?/
“Siegfried! What are you doing to your little brother? I can hear him all the way in my room!” Siegfried recognized the voice as his mother’s. /Don’t let her come in here/ Siegfried pleaded. /Don’t let her see…./
“Nozing…”Siegfried responded dryly. There wasn’t even a quiver in his voice.
“Oh really? Then why is he crying? For God’s sake you woke up your vater!” Siegfried heard the doorknob turn.
“He just had a nightmare. Zat’s all…” The doorknob stopped.
“Well tell him to be quiet! Both of you!” Siegfried listened to the woman’s footsteps as they walked away. He didn’t make a move until they were gone.
Leon was shaking all over. He knew that he had nearly gotten his brother caught. /Why didn’t I yell for her?/ Leon asked himself. /She would’ve made him stop…but she…she might not believe me. She favors Sieg-sama it’s obvious. He’ll say that I asked him to and then he’ll get off with a tongue-lashing and god knows what her a vater with do to me…/
Siegfried struggled to keep from slapping the boy beneath him. /At least he didn’t scream/ Siegfried said to himself. His eye twitched slightly, but he was able to keep from beating the younger boy. /Remember, you don’t want to hurt him…too much/ with that thought in mind a crazed grin crossed Siegfried’s face and Leon knew that the time of preparation was done. It was time to get to work…
“Now be a good little boy…” Siegfried removed his fingers and placed his hardened member at Leon’s entrance. Leon could only whimper as a response. He wanted to melt into the bed and just disappear. He was scared. So very very scared.
Now Siegfried reached for the bottle that he had placed on the nightstand previously. Only now did Leon notice it, but he was afraid of it. It was merely a bottle of scented body lotion. Leon was an innocent boy, but he still knew what that /stuff/ would be used for.
Siegfried poured a bit of the pink, flower scented lotion on his hardened member and then closed the bottle and tossed it carelessly aside. Leon whimpered in the back of his throat like a dog about to be hit. He began to resent his mother for not coming into the room when she was aware that there was something wrong. /She’s never cared about me. I know she heard me say that he was hurting me, but she didn’t think to do anything about it…she’s always favored Siegfried over me/.
“Zis might hurt a bit Leon, but do keep quiet…” With no further ado, Siegfried thrust into Leon’s tight entrance causing the smaller boy let out a yelp. Siegfried paused for a moment, partially listening for a voice (Leon had been rather loud about his yelping) and partially to allow Leon to get used to the feeling.
Once he was sure there was no one coming, Siegfried pulled out of Leon and thrust in once again, only deeper this time, and harder. He paused for a fraction of the time he had previously before pounding in again. Leon whimpered beneath him.
Siegfried went deeper each time and after four thrusts he was all of the way in. With each impaling thrust he brushed Leon’s sweet-spot causing him to both whimper and moan. He hated what his brother was doing to him, but he could not deny that it felt rather good as well. Siegfried began thrusting harder, causing the bed to move beneath the two. He could feel himself reaching climax moaned loud enough to wake the dead. Leon knew, or prayed more likely, that their mother would hear and put a stop to this.
Siegfried thrust into Leon as deep as he could. And in five more pumps he came into the younger boy with a loud moan. Leon yelped once again and couldn’t help but sob. He also couldn’t stop the tremors running down his spine. He breathed heavily and tried to speak, but his words were cut short by his sobs.
He felt like he was choking. He was too lost in his fit of chocking and hacking (Germans are very good at hacking mind you) that he hadn’t noticed that his brother had pulled out of him and was quickly trying to dress himself.
There were voices in the halls. His mother’s and father’s were amongst them. Leon heard them as well, but could not pull together what they were. He only knew that they were sounds. They were coming closer and were directed at him. Why, he had woken his mother and father up again, and also alerted several of the nightshift servants.
Soon Leon calmed himself down slightly enough to realize that the noises were voices and that he had no clothes on. He looked around for his clothes only to have Siegfried throw them in his face. This brought more tears to his eyes and he wasn’t too sure as to why.
He quickly pulled on his top, finding it most important, and then putting on his boxers and pajama bottoms. He paused briefly only to stare at the mix of blood and cum that had stained his sheets before pulling on the rest of his nightclothes. Siegfried had just zipped his fly, kick the bottle of lotion beneath the bed, and wrap his arms around his brother’s choking figure before his mother barged into the room.
“What the devil is going on in here!? And don’t you play that ‘it was a nightmare’ stunt on me! I’m not that stupid!” Their mother glared at the two of them not bothering to turn on the light. The ones in the hall outlined her frame and made her look rather evil. Probably the effect she wanted.
Behind her stood her husband, their father, three maids, a butler, and two security guards who were prowling the halls. Siegfried recognized the one guard as the one he had caught his mother having a love affair with. She had made his swear not to tell with many threats to back her up.
“Yes, what the hell are you two up to?” Their father glared at them and Leon shook violently, trying to catch his breath.
If the light had been better Leon would have seen his mother’s face soften. He would’ve seen the sympathetic look that flashed through her eyes.
“Siegfried, get out of here,” she said quietly, almost as if she were about to cry herself. She knew…call it women’s intuition if you like. Siegfried knew this and walked out of the room not sparing her another glance.
Now she reached for the light and turned to face the servants and her husband. “I’ll take care of it from here,” she said, and closed the door. Leon stared at her, his eyes blood shot. The smells of sweat and sex filled the room, she didn’t like it, but Leon didn’t even notice the smell.
Although she knew, she would never say it. Leon, being as oblivious as he was, did not catch on to that fact. Siegfried however did. She tried to comfort her son that night. She tried to coax him into staying in her room her and his father, but he refused. He said he was fine, with a weak smile plastered on his face.
In a half hour she gave up and left the room, turning off the light behind her. As soon as her footsteps were gone Leon allowed himself to cry once again. He resented his brother at that point, but hoped that he wouldn’t get into too much trouble.
In two hours he was sound asleep and Siegfried reentered the room to retrieve the lotion and kiss Leon on the forehead. He stayed in the room for a good ten minutes before leaving with a sigh. Leon hadn’t heard his words of apology, but he had forgiven his brother by the next day, but one thought itched at the back of his mind for many months to come.
That thought simply was:
I love you…but…how could you do this to me?
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[1] Ouch…
[2] Brother please stop…
[3] Why…
[4] But not enough…
[5] I will beat you if you do…(don’t think the German sentence is right though…damn translarot…)
[6] Just making sure…
A/N: So….what do you think? Please tell me…I’m begging you!!!!!!! It took me along time to write this…I just couldn’t get into the mood to write a lemon for a long time, but today someone threw a real lemon at my leg and the scent of lemons followed me around forcing the lemony ideas into my head. I want a review even if its one word long…tell me what you think. Flame me, I don’t care!!! Just tell me something! And correct my German if it’s off if you can danke you…
Summary: Okay, because I’m lazy I’m going to make this a short short summary. Leon gets raped by Siegfried…OoOoOoO fear the shortness…fear it!
Disclaimer: I Do not own yuu-gi-oh or ANY of the characters…if I did the show would not be suitable for children’s eyes…and ohhh the bad TV reports I would have…not to mention the millions of dollars I would have. I wouldn’t have to go to this crappy collage…*thinks* oh heaven. (Yes I plan to keep my disclaimer the same for all of my FFs)
Author’s Note: Yes another dark one…I love dark fics because it’s easy to get pissed off and write them. For this one I was P.O.’d because there are no lemony LeonxSiegfried fics and I think there should be….If you can have SetoxMokuba you can have this incest couple too…Well, this isn’t a very dark one, it’s sort of an unknown requited love that ends up getting a certain someone hurt and destroying any chance of another someone eve getting to be with the one he loves…And that’s all I have to say about that….Okay…I’m BEGGING you to review, or write a fic with this couple as well I want to read someone else’s work, mine doesn’t cover it…please and thank you ;)
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It had been a week since Leon and his older brother had returned to Germany after the tournament and Siegfried, Leon had noticed, had been acting very strangely. Leon of course never commented on it. He knew his brother was confused at the time, but he did not know how confused he really was. Oh no…the poor child was /very/ far off. Sure he’d noticed that his brother would constantly stare at him if he was in the same room, and he’d even woke up in the middle of the night a couple of times to see his brother sitting in the chair across from his bed. He only figured that his brother was lonely. Nothing more nothing less.
But, Leon was sure to learn later that day that his brother’s actions were not that of a lonely man’s, no they were that of a lusting man’s…Siegfried wanted to be with his brother in one of the most grotesque ways. He wanted Leon to love him not just as a brother, but as a lover as well. He knew that Leon, in all innocents, was unaware of this simple fact and oblivious to every attempt that Sieg made to show it. But Leon was going to find out soon enough. He had decided long ago that if Leon did not catch on then he would be taken down oblivious, which in the end would hurt Leon more than expected.
Siegfried wanted nothing more than for his brother to love him in the same way that he did. He wanted Leon to know that he wanted them to be more than brothers. For God’s sake the Kaiba brothers were lovers why the hell couldn’t he and Leon be!?
And that is the thought that went through his mind as he opened his brother’s bedroom door that, unusually cold, night.
Leon had been sleeping…in his room…alone…for the last two hours. Never in his wildest dreams, which could get very wild, would he have guessed that his brother of all people was going to barge into his room that night leaving him with one lonely thought in the back of his mind. Never would he have guessed that a cold thought such as that would be the result of his brother. He loved his brother dearly, heart and soul…and perhaps a little bit more than that. He had a secret that he hoped his brother would never find out. He didn’t just love his brother as a brother, he loved his even /more/. He loved his brother in a strange way that he couldn’t yet understand.
All he knew was that whenever he hugged his brother or vice versa he felt different than what he felt when he was hugged by his other relatives. A strange kind of different. The key thing that Leon noted was that he didn’t want to ever let his brother go. He wanted to hold onto him forever and ever. It was a childish thing, he knew, but it was a strong feeling. He used to tell himself that it was just a phase, he was just…crushing…on his older brother, and he would eventually grow out of it…or so he’d hoped.
Sometimes Leon wanted to slap himself for admitting it that he was in love, the big L, the greater bond, the strongest friendship, and all of the other names out there with his own brother. His flesh and blood, his family! He was sickened by it and also afraid of it.
He had heard his father state something about two family members being in love with each other before. He also stated that everyone in the entire world who was in love with their siblings should be burned alive. His father was unstable, he knew, and that’s what terrified him. That meant that if his father did find out about his feelings for Siegfried then there would be sheer consequences to pay. And he knew that his father wouldn’t go easy on him just because he was his son. He’d known that for a very long time.
Perhaps if Leon hadn’t been as shy and afraid as he was, the sickening thoughts running through Siegfried’s mind would not be so overpowering. Maybe then the cruel fate that awaited the younger boy would not be quite as painful and heart shattering. Maybe then Sieg-sama would’ve had a chance with Leon willingly.
But Sieg-sama didn’t know and because of that Leon did end up hurt that night. Being very quiet Siegfried entered his younger brother’s room as he did almost every night and sat in the chair across from his bed. (But not before placing a bottle of /something/ on Leon’s nightstand.) He watched the pink haired boy sleep for about twenty minutes in utter silence before making a single move. Even then he said not a word, making the room deathly quiet.
He stooped over the sleeping boy whose lips were slightly parted. Siegfried couldn’t help but smirk at how defenseless the boy was. Didn’t he know that it was dangerous to be so cute? Why if it wasn’t for all of the guards and the maze like corridors of the castle then Siegfried could be virtually anyone stooping over the boy and thinking such frowned upon thoughts.
He placed his lips over those of his sleeping brother’s and held them there a little under two seconds. It took a lot of self-control to not rip the sheets and other layers of cloth to get to the boy. But he didn’t want to wake Leon just yet. He wanted to admire the cuteness for a little while longer. He just adored the way Leon looked when he was sleeping. The way he whimpered if was having a nightmare. Although Siegfried was turned on already, he was even happier to know that Leon was indeed having a bad dream. He kept twitching every few moments and he furrowed his brow occasionally. Seig-sama was just waiting for the boy to awake from his nightmare so he could comfort the frightened child and use that to his advantage. Perhaps then he could even coax Leon not to yell.
The boy was a born screamer, everyone in the household knew that. If one tiny thing popped out and scared him he would scream bloody murder before he even realized what it was. Although he was older now he still had a tendency to yell whenever he got hurt, even if it was just “AUTSCH!”[1] at the top of his lungs. Although it was a dark fantasy, Siegfried wanted to make Leon call out, to make he scream his name at the top of his lungs. He wanted to hear him whimper beneath him. He wanted Leon…pain and all. He also did /not/want the servants and his parents to know that. And for that simple reason he had to make sure that Leon did not yell or do anything else to attract attention.
Sure enough there was a loud whimper from the boy which turned into pleading mumbles before the smaller boys eyes shot open and he gasped loudly. Siegfried smirked.
/Perfect./ he thought.
“Leon!” he called with fake concern. “Are you alright? I just came into to check on you because I could hear you from the hallway und it appears to me zat you were having a nightmare.” Leon sat up in his bed and rubbed his eyes. He sniffed slightly and let out a sigh. He had a stuffy nose again. That was the only thing that saddened Siegfried at that moment. He knew that if he went through with his plan he would catch his little brother’s cold. /Oh vell/ he thought. /This should be vorth it…/
“Yeah, I think I’m okay. But I had this really weird dream! I-I don’t remember much of it, but you were there and I think you were uh, trying to kill me with a knife or something like that. I don’t know. It was one of those dreams where you dream that you’ve woken up yet you didn’t. Yo know what I mean right?” Leon smiled at him slightly and Siegfried allowed himself to sit down on the edge of the bed. He was one step closer to getting what he wanted.
“Now you know zat I would never kill you with a butcher knife right? I don’t seem zat reckless to you do I?” Siegfried grinned at the boy letting him know that it was only a joke. Leon grinned back and laughed slightly.
“Oh course, you’re my big brother, you’d never do anything to hurt me!” If Siegfried was in his right mind he might’ve been hurt for that comment. His brother actually trusted him when he had such cruel thoughts going through his mind…bondage…torture…blood…yes, Siegfried wanted to see Leon’s blood. He wanted to know that it was /his/ fault for the pain that his brother was in. And if Leon cried rivers then he knew that it was because of him. Because he had power over the boy.
“Now how are you so sure of zat? Hm?” Siegfried turned his body further towards the boy and placed his hands on the bed on either side of Leon’s body. Said boy was no longer sure if his brother was just joking or being serious. /Do what mom says, give him the benefit of the doubt/.
So he did just that. He tilted his head and smiled innocently.
“Well, you’ve never really hurt me before. I mean, there’ve been small accidents, but nothing serious. You love me, Sieg-sama…Don’t you?” A solemn look crossed the younger boys face as he stared at his brother.
“But of course! Who couldn’t love somezing as cute as you?” Siegfried leaned closer Leon, brining one leg onto the bed. Their noses were almost touching when he finally stopped. Leon’s jaw quivered slightly and swallowed hard. Siegfried fought back a grin and faked concern again. “Now why do you seem so afraid? You just /know/ zat I’m not going to hurt you…/right/?” Leon felt a tremor go down his spine.
/Sieg-sama has a strange look in his eyes. I know that he’s never hurt me before, but he has that look that dad gets sometimes when he’s angry or…drunk…What exactly does he want with me/?
“O-of c-course I know you won’t hurt me, Bruder.” Leon forced a smile and nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt Siegfried’s lips caress his own. It wasn’t quite a kiss, but Leon knew for sure that it was meant to be.
A small whimper escaped Leon’s mouth as he looked in his brother’s crazed eyes. Before he had time to act, Leon felt Siegfried’s hand under his chin forcing it upwards to meet his older brother’s mouth. He did not move away from the kiss for two reasons. The first being that he didn’t want to anger his brother because even he did not know what that would bring and reason two being that he was too shocked to move. Siegfried had never done that before. There had to be some reason behind it.
/He’s just be affectionate tonight that’s all. H-He’s lonely and he knows that I-I’m here for him so…th-that’s why he’s doing this. He’s n-not going to hurt me so I should just calm down/. Leon tried to calm down, he really did, but he just couldn’t stop the shivers. He even tried to suppress his whimpers, but that proved impossible. Especially once his idolized brother jerked the sheets off of him placed a hand on his groin.
“Bruder, wha-what a-are you—” Siegfried cut him off with another kiss and Leon knew all too well of what was going on. He no longer needed his brother’s reassurance.
He felt his brother caress his not-erect member through his flannel pajamas. He whimpered at that and yelped at the unexpected grope that followed afterwards. He had loved his brother before now and still did, but he knew then that the crush he had on his brother was not extreme enough to want /this/. No, /this/ was wrong. /This/ needed to stop…
“Bruder, bitte halt!” [2] Leon begged, but his brother did no such thing. He wanted to cry, to beg for his brother to go away. He wanted nothing more than to push the older boy away from him. To give them some distance between each other, but he knew that he might get hit if Siegfried was really all that determined.
“Warum?” [3] Siegfried asked as he lifted his hand to the waist band of his little brother’s pajama’s pulling them down slightly. Leon whimpered and began breathing heavy. He knew all to well what Siegfried wanted to do to him. “Don’t you dare scream,” Siegfried said as his eyes went steely. “Ich wille schlagen sie wenn sie mascht.” [4] Leon shook freely now. He no longer had the desire to call for help. He knew that his brother was serious.
“Please don’t hurt me, Bruder. I-I love you.” Leon’s eyes filled with tears and his brothers stayed the same. He knew that his brother was going to follow through with whatever it was that he had planned. No amount of requited love could change his mind.
“Aber nicht genug…”[5] Tears streamed down his face. How could his brother say that? Not enough? Not enough! He loved his brother more than anything else in the world! Why couldn’t he see that?
“B-But…” he could think of nothing else to say. He felt his brother pull harder on his pajama bottoms and felt the cool night air touch his flesh. He whimpered and instinctively went to cover the area. This naturally anger Siegfried and caused him to grasp painfully Leon’s wrist and attempt to jerk his hands away from a place that he had longed to see for so long. “Bruder, please…don’t do this to me. I-I-I…” Leon sobbed loudly and a voice sounded in the hallway.
It was just a servant passing by who happened to overhear the sob.
“Is everything alright?” Siegfried glared at Leon who chocked back another sob. He was afraid of what his older brother would do next. He feared that it meant pain, and he was very right.
“Ja. He had a nightmare, I’m taking care of him.”
“Nur machen sicher.” [6] (A/N: I know I’m using a lot of German and I’m sorry, and if the words aren’t correct then blame my online translator…I haven’t learned the language yet…I’ll try to use less German now…)
Once Siegfried was sure that the made was gone and not coming back he glared at the younger boy who shook violently. It was that action alone that made Siegfried refrain from striking at him. It wasn’t his fault that the maid just happened to be coming down the hall when the embarrassment got to him. He wasn’t going to hit him, but he wanted Leon to think he would so he would beg to be forgiven…
“I’m sorry! I-I didn’t m-m-m-mean to! Please don’t hurt me! Big brother I love you!” Siegfried allowed a grin to play across his face before leaning forward and silencing the boy with another kiss.
“I know, but still, nicht genug.”[5] Leon felt horrible. He loved his brother…he loved his brother more than enough. “But I will make you love me.” Once again Siegfried made it so he could feast his eyes on his brother’s private parts. God he was so beautiful…and cute with that deep blush on his cheeks. Siegfried wanted to take him right there right that second. And he was going to.
Siegfried removed the pajama bottoms without any protest from the younger boy. Leon was afraid of what was going to happen to him for the simple fact that he could do nothing to stop it. The pajamas hit the floor with a quiet clump that was hardly able to be heard. Leon felt himself being shoved backwards and practically pulled down the bed to where he was laying down with his older brother straddling him. Siegfried pulled off his own, expensive, business jacket and gently dropped it on the floor beside the bed before thoughtlessly removing his less expensive shirt and tossing it carelessly behind him. The only thing left on him was his pants and his socks. He was going “commando” that night for a reason, and had already taken off his shoes in advance.
Leon felt defenseless, and knew that it was in vain, but he wanted to try again. “Brother, I l-love you, p-please don’t do this to me…” He stared at his brother’s icy blue eyes and realized with painful assurance that his brother was not going to change him mind.
“Be still,” Siegfried said sternly. Leon obeyed without a second thought. He feared what his brother would do to him if he did not. In moments time Siegfried already had his pants off along with Leon’s top as well. The boy felt so fragile in those few moments. He knew what was coming and knew that he could do nothing. Sure he could scream but then he would get in trouble with his brother and whoever heard wouldn’t dare go against his brother’s word and come into the room. Unless it was his mother or father of course. But they always ignored him when he called out. They became automatic to shutting out his voice. A rather strong case of “out of sight out of mind.”
/Why is Siegfried doing this to me/? Leon asked himself. /I don’t know if it’s because he’s angry with me or if he just wants to use me as a cheap fuck…or perhaps he’s doing this because he really loves me. I mean, he did say that I didn’t love him ‘enough.’ Maybe he wants me to pay back all of the love he feels for me…Doesn’t he know that I can barely live without him? Doesn’t he know!?/
“You’re so beautiful,” Siegfried said as his fingers danced under his younger brother’s chin before placing a feathery soft kiss on his lips. “Do you know that?” it wasn’t a question meant to be answered with words. Leon knew that very well, but he could not help but say something!
“N-not really…” he turned his head away from the love struck gaze of his brother.
“Zen let me show you how beautiful you are…”
(I know this is a long fic, but the lemon stuff is from here on down…)
Siegfried put three fingers in his mouth and sucked on them for at least a minute before he removed them. Leon whimpered when he saw where the fingers were heading towards. He knew that he could do nothing about them, just like he couldn’t do anything about the other things that his brother did to him. He couldn’t stop the kisses and the unwanted touches and the unruly words that escaped his brother’s lips. For some things he didn’t want them to go away, the kisses and gentle stuff, but the touches he could go without. He only wanted brotherly love, not incest! No, that isn’t what he wanted! He just wanted his brother’s attention! All of the BROTHERLY love that he could have. Not physical love! He didn’t want that!
It was these thoughts that brought tears to his eyes. He had stopped crying before, but he started up again. Not only from the pain in his heart, but also the pain in his entrance where, not one, but two fingers were launched making scissor motions causing Leon to whimper every single time. This gave Siegfried both pleasure and pain. He wanted his brother no matter what no matter how much it hurt, but he did not like causing his brother to cry. It was cruel and he knew it, but his sexual mind fought any thoughts of changing anything out of his head. He had come so far and was not going to back out now. Not until he was finished and had gotten everything he wanted.
Soon a third finger was added and Leon let out a choked sob. He wanted to beg his brother to stop, to leave him alone, but he couldn’t get the words out of his throat. All that would come out were gasps of pain and sobs.
“B-Bruder, p-p-please! S-s-s-stop it! You’re hurting me!” Siegfried stared at his brother straight in the eyes. He leaned forward to capture Leon’s lips once again but was disrupted by a rather loud knock on the door.
/Zat’s the second time someone has interrupted me! Do I have to put a ‘do no disturb’ sign on ze door to get some privacy?/
“Siegfried! What are you doing to your little brother? I can hear him all the way in my room!” Siegfried recognized the voice as his mother’s. /Don’t let her come in here/ Siegfried pleaded. /Don’t let her see…./
“Nozing…”Siegfried responded dryly. There wasn’t even a quiver in his voice.
“Oh really? Then why is he crying? For God’s sake you woke up your vater!” Siegfried heard the doorknob turn.
“He just had a nightmare. Zat’s all…” The doorknob stopped.
“Well tell him to be quiet! Both of you!” Siegfried listened to the woman’s footsteps as they walked away. He didn’t make a move until they were gone.
Leon was shaking all over. He knew that he had nearly gotten his brother caught. /Why didn’t I yell for her?/ Leon asked himself. /She would’ve made him stop…but she…she might not believe me. She favors Sieg-sama it’s obvious. He’ll say that I asked him to and then he’ll get off with a tongue-lashing and god knows what her a vater with do to me…/
Siegfried struggled to keep from slapping the boy beneath him. /At least he didn’t scream/ Siegfried said to himself. His eye twitched slightly, but he was able to keep from beating the younger boy. /Remember, you don’t want to hurt him…too much/ with that thought in mind a crazed grin crossed Siegfried’s face and Leon knew that the time of preparation was done. It was time to get to work…
“Now be a good little boy…” Siegfried removed his fingers and placed his hardened member at Leon’s entrance. Leon could only whimper as a response. He wanted to melt into the bed and just disappear. He was scared. So very very scared.
Now Siegfried reached for the bottle that he had placed on the nightstand previously. Only now did Leon notice it, but he was afraid of it. It was merely a bottle of scented body lotion. Leon was an innocent boy, but he still knew what that /stuff/ would be used for.
Siegfried poured a bit of the pink, flower scented lotion on his hardened member and then closed the bottle and tossed it carelessly aside. Leon whimpered in the back of his throat like a dog about to be hit. He began to resent his mother for not coming into the room when she was aware that there was something wrong. /She’s never cared about me. I know she heard me say that he was hurting me, but she didn’t think to do anything about it…she’s always favored Siegfried over me/.
“Zis might hurt a bit Leon, but do keep quiet…” With no further ado, Siegfried thrust into Leon’s tight entrance causing the smaller boy let out a yelp. Siegfried paused for a moment, partially listening for a voice (Leon had been rather loud about his yelping) and partially to allow Leon to get used to the feeling.
Once he was sure there was no one coming, Siegfried pulled out of Leon and thrust in once again, only deeper this time, and harder. He paused for a fraction of the time he had previously before pounding in again. Leon whimpered beneath him.
Siegfried went deeper each time and after four thrusts he was all of the way in. With each impaling thrust he brushed Leon’s sweet-spot causing him to both whimper and moan. He hated what his brother was doing to him, but he could not deny that it felt rather good as well. Siegfried began thrusting harder, causing the bed to move beneath the two. He could feel himself reaching climax moaned loud enough to wake the dead. Leon knew, or prayed more likely, that their mother would hear and put a stop to this.
Siegfried thrust into Leon as deep as he could. And in five more pumps he came into the younger boy with a loud moan. Leon yelped once again and couldn’t help but sob. He also couldn’t stop the tremors running down his spine. He breathed heavily and tried to speak, but his words were cut short by his sobs.
He felt like he was choking. He was too lost in his fit of chocking and hacking (Germans are very good at hacking mind you) that he hadn’t noticed that his brother had pulled out of him and was quickly trying to dress himself.
There were voices in the halls. His mother’s and father’s were amongst them. Leon heard them as well, but could not pull together what they were. He only knew that they were sounds. They were coming closer and were directed at him. Why, he had woken his mother and father up again, and also alerted several of the nightshift servants.
Soon Leon calmed himself down slightly enough to realize that the noises were voices and that he had no clothes on. He looked around for his clothes only to have Siegfried throw them in his face. This brought more tears to his eyes and he wasn’t too sure as to why.
He quickly pulled on his top, finding it most important, and then putting on his boxers and pajama bottoms. He paused briefly only to stare at the mix of blood and cum that had stained his sheets before pulling on the rest of his nightclothes. Siegfried had just zipped his fly, kick the bottle of lotion beneath the bed, and wrap his arms around his brother’s choking figure before his mother barged into the room.
“What the devil is going on in here!? And don’t you play that ‘it was a nightmare’ stunt on me! I’m not that stupid!” Their mother glared at the two of them not bothering to turn on the light. The ones in the hall outlined her frame and made her look rather evil. Probably the effect she wanted.
Behind her stood her husband, their father, three maids, a butler, and two security guards who were prowling the halls. Siegfried recognized the one guard as the one he had caught his mother having a love affair with. She had made his swear not to tell with many threats to back her up.
“Yes, what the hell are you two up to?” Their father glared at them and Leon shook violently, trying to catch his breath.
If the light had been better Leon would have seen his mother’s face soften. He would’ve seen the sympathetic look that flashed through her eyes.
“Siegfried, get out of here,” she said quietly, almost as if she were about to cry herself. She knew…call it women’s intuition if you like. Siegfried knew this and walked out of the room not sparing her another glance.
Now she reached for the light and turned to face the servants and her husband. “I’ll take care of it from here,” she said, and closed the door. Leon stared at her, his eyes blood shot. The smells of sweat and sex filled the room, she didn’t like it, but Leon didn’t even notice the smell.
Although she knew, she would never say it. Leon, being as oblivious as he was, did not catch on to that fact. Siegfried however did. She tried to comfort her son that night. She tried to coax him into staying in her room her and his father, but he refused. He said he was fine, with a weak smile plastered on his face.
In a half hour she gave up and left the room, turning off the light behind her. As soon as her footsteps were gone Leon allowed himself to cry once again. He resented his brother at that point, but hoped that he wouldn’t get into too much trouble.
In two hours he was sound asleep and Siegfried reentered the room to retrieve the lotion and kiss Leon on the forehead. He stayed in the room for a good ten minutes before leaving with a sigh. Leon hadn’t heard his words of apology, but he had forgiven his brother by the next day, but one thought itched at the back of his mind for many months to come.
That thought simply was:
I love you…but…how could you do this to me?
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[1] Ouch…
[2] Brother please stop…
[3] Why…
[4] But not enough…
[5] I will beat you if you do…(don’t think the German sentence is right though…damn translarot…)
[6] Just making sure…
A/N: So….what do you think? Please tell me…I’m begging you!!!!!!! It took me along time to write this…I just couldn’t get into the mood to write a lemon for a long time, but today someone threw a real lemon at my leg and the scent of lemons followed me around forcing the lemony ideas into my head. I want a review even if its one word long…tell me what you think. Flame me, I don’t care!!! Just tell me something! And correct my German if it’s off if you can danke you…