Frustrations

Title: Frustrations
Part: 1/?
Author: Usagi [miakalikestamahome@hotmail.com]
Warnings: lemon, fluff, masturbation
Genre: Romance, PWP, AU
Pairings: Atemu x Yuugi
Criticism: Constructive criticism welcomed

Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, I don't make money from fanfiction.

Description: 18 year old Yuugi is fed up with people thinking of him as a young teen, thanks to his small build. He also feels kind of frustrated because so far he has not been in any kind of relationship. Upon a suggestion from Jonouchi, Yuugi tries out something new - A Dating Site in the Internet. And there he stumbles upon a site which awakens a curiosity that no one would think 'sweet, shy, little Yuugi Mutou' possesses.

Thanks to my betareader Deb for the usual quick work. ^^

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"Oooh, you are just too cute! Don't you want to go on a date with me?"

Yuugi Mutou, currently eighteen years old, stared at the girl who had just asked him that question in disbelief. She couldn't be older than 13 years, far too young for his liking. Behind him, he could hear his best friend Jonouchi trying to suppress his laughter. It still came out in quiet, gurgled snickers.

Trying to be as polite as possible, Yuugi turned back to the girl.

"No, thank you. I fear you are a little too young for me. I am already 18."

"Really?" the girl's eyes became huge in surprise. "I wouldn't have known. You really look far younger to me. Oh such a pity. Maybe when I am older then?"

She winked and Yuugi had difficulty in suppressing his groaning now. He gave her a weak goodbye and left the current clothing store where he and his best friend had been looking for clothes.

As soon as they were out of the store, Jonouchi was howling with laughter.

"Poor Yuugi... that was... the sixth time this month... such a young girl has tried to... to hook up with you," he got out between his laughter. Yuugi just glared at his best friend, not amused at all.

"NOT. FUNNY!" he growled and turned his back to the tall blonde who looked older than him, even though they were both in the same class. Jonouchi was able to quiet his laughter into occasional snickers and he patted Yuugi on the back.

"Come on, Yuugi, don't take it that hard. It's just unfortunate that you are not that tall built but, don't let it ruin your hopes that you won't find the right girl some day."

Yuugi raised an eyebrow at this.

"Who said I want to find a girl?"

"Huh?" For a second the tall blond looked dumbstruck. The smaller one, on the other hand, blushed and refused to meet his best friend's questioning gaze. He already regretted his quick outburst. He decided that being around Jonouchi really was a bad thing for his usually calm temper and shy personality.

On one hand he liked the fact that he was more open and sometimes even bolder now, but on the other hand he still felt pretty unusual and embarrassed on occasion. Like right at this moment for example, when he was just about to confess to his best friend that he had the slight feeling he was more interested in males than females.

Though Yuugi couldn't tell for sure because so far he had never been in a relationship with either sex. First it had been because of his shy nature. He had been uneasy and afraid to talk to people he didn't know. Then, some years ago, he'd become friends with Katsuya Jonouchi.

The tall blond always had been very bold and open minded, never hiding what he was thinking. He did a lot of things that Yuugi had always wished to be bold enough to do himself. And Jonouchi had, for some unknown reason, taken the responsibility on himself to teach Yuugi to become what he called 'a true man'.

This didn't mean Yuugi was agreeing to everything Jonouchi thought a 'true man' needed to learn, like fighting for example, but the blonde succeeded in teaching him to become more open minded about the topics of relationships and the more intimate stuff. He'd even let himself be persuaded into watching some porn. Though he still preferred to cover his eyes at some scenes, which again caused Jonouchi to laugh teasingly about his embarrassment.

Thinking about Jonouchi, he glanced over at the tall blond who by now had stopped blinking. Instead, a knowing smirk played around his best friend's lips. Yuugi swallowed a little.

"So, Yuugi, you prefer men over women? That explains why you never took a second glance at all the girls in the discos we visited."

Yuugi blushed and shook his head.

"I am not really sure if I like males or females, Jonouchi-kun, and the reason that I didn't look at girls that much was more because I was too busy mourning over being mistaken for a twelve year old kid again. Every time you dragged me into such a disco I was first asked out for a dance by all the young girls and later there would always be the stupid patrolmen of the discos asking for my pass because they thought I was underage. That was unnerving, Jonouchi-kun," Yuugi seethed.

The blond laughed again, though this time there was sympathy to be heard.

"Maybe it was the wrong way to try and hook you up with someone," he admitted. Yuugi became wide eyed.

"Just a moment. You tried to hook me up?" he asked in disbelief. Jonouchi scratched his head sheepishly.

"Nyaaa, not exactly. But I've noticed during all the years we've known each other, you never got together with anyone. So, I thought I'd help you find someone by dragging you out at night. To go out, have fun, this is how people often find love." He sighed. "But somehow this never seemed to work for you."

Yuugi, now touched by his friend's concern for him, gave him a soft smile and squeezed his hand.

"Give it some time, Jonouchi-kun," he reassured. "After all, you yourself got together with Kaiba-kun not all that long ago, didn't you? And this is your first relationship as well, isn't it?"

"Yes, it is," Jonouchi answered with a beaming smile. I never thought I would end up finding such a deep love, especially not with Seto. When I was younger I was certain I would end up with the wrong people in the wrong places or such. I have to thank you for getting me out of that, Yuugi. If I hadn't become friends with you, I would still be in a gang, fighting and causing havoc over this city; and I would never have fallen in love with Seto."

Yuugi blushed again, trying to deny the praise being put on him, but Jonouchi wouldn't allow that. He insisted that it was indeed the smaller one's help that had gotten him out of hell, until Yuugi gave up. Satisfied, a smirk came back onto his face.

"Maybe we did it the wrong way, Yuugi," he told the other.

"And how so?" Yuugi asked, a little suspicious.

"Well, I think the current problem is your height, isn't it? The girls and even the boys our age don't pay attention to you because they think you are too young and the young teens who do pay attention to you, are too young for you. So, maybe you should try searching for nice people in a place where the people can't see you."

"And what kind of place would that be?" Yuugi asked with an arched eyebrow.

"The Internet of course," Jonouchi answered with a grin. "Fortunately I actually know the address of a page where you could look around, build up your own profile and try to find people your age. You can talk to them, get to know them and you don't have to show them a picture of you if you don't want to."

The small, young man looked at his best friend a little unsure.

"I don't know... is that even safe?"

"Safe enough, don't worry, Yuugi," the blonde assured. "You don't have to leave your real name, address or anything. Maybe just the name of the town, because usually people like to find people who are near their own home; and, if you find someone you would really like to meet for real, you can ask Honda, Anzu or me to accompany you to your first date."

Yuugi thought over everything that Jonouchi had just said. He had already heard about the infamous dating pages and he had to admit to himself that sometimes he'd been tempted to try it out. Finally, a big smile blossomed on his face and he looked up at his best friend.

"Okay, Jonouchi-kun. Leave me the address and I'll give it a try."

Jonouchi happily returned the smile.

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It was early evening now. Yuugi had done some studying for the upcoming test to satisfy his mother, helped his Jii-chan in cleaning the game shop and eaten his evening meal.

Now it was his time alone and he was finally able to try out the webdating site from which Jonouchi had left him the address. Playing with the paper of the Internet address he had been given, Yuugi waited for the computer to finish its starting process.

The computer was his pride and joy. He had gotten it as a present from his family for his 18th birthday together with an Internet connection. When the computer was finally on, he opened a window to the Internet and typed in the given address.

However, when the page of the dating site showed up, Yuugi was in for an unpleasant surprise.

"Gah, Jonouchi, that's a page for hetero couples only," he groaned and looked over the main menu, noting that the search tool offered nothing more than the option for a man to search for a woman or a woman to search for a man.

Sighing heavily he was about to close the window again when he noticed the links given on the right hand side of the page to other dating sites. One link in particular got his attention.

Sexdating.com

Yuugi blinked and suddenly his breathing increased and he started to tense, not really knowing why. Actually, he just wanted to leave, find a search engine and look to see if he could find some other dating pages. But somehow, he couldn't take his mind off the link.

Curiosity; pure and simple curiosity had taken over his thoughts. He had never been in a relationship before, true. So, he didn't know about sexual pleasure. At least not the sort shared with another person. He had plenty of self-experience with masturbation. After all, one couldn't exactly stay all naive and innocent with all those evil hormones running through the body, craving for attention.

Debating in his mind for a while about what to do, curiosity finally won and he clicked onto the link. With a pounding heart, he watched the site open. The first thing he noticed was purple, a lot of purple. The whole design of the page was bold purple. Though all in all the main page didn't look as horrible as he had expected.

There was a banner on the page, a search engine and a part where he could join the site and build his own profile. At the bottom of the page were notes about the newest members. But even though the page was named 'sexdating' there were no naked people shown in the way he was used to seeing them in Jonouchi's porn.

Curiosity still not satisfied, he looked around a little more. Just for fun, he tried out the search engine, looking over the profiles shown as a result. The profiles were rough descriptions of what he had specified in the search engine. Mostly noted was age, description of the look, height and weight.

For every profile there was a link to see the more detailed descriptions of the people. But when Yuugi tried to open one of those more detailed profiles, a notice appeared that said he had to be a member of the site to be able to look at further descriptions and that photos were only able to be seen by members as well.

At first, Yuugi was satisfied to look around the page, just for fun. But soon he began to wonder. What kind of people would join such a page? What did they have as detailed descriptions? What kind of photos did they use? Was it like the late night commercials they used to show on tv?

Why would they even search for others? Just to bed them? Didn't they believe in love? Was it just for fun? Question after question grew in his mind and the longer he stayed at that page, the stronger increased his desires for answers.

Debating with himself again for a long time, once more his curiosity turned out to be stronger than any other reason in his mind. Going back to the main page, he took a deep breath and clicked onto the link which would open the form he had to fill out.

'I am crazy,' he silently stated in his mind but couldn't help the low chuckle either. Just the fact that he was exploring this new world, that he was crazy, willing enough to learn a little more about the things he hadn't experienced himself, that he was determined to search for some answers on such a site, somehow, this all had a kind of humor he could not point out.

'Jonouchi has too much influence on my thoughts,' he continued musing in his mind while filling out the form. 'Maybe if I hadn't seen all that porn... no, I think in that case my curiosity would have been even more insisting.'

He sighed, some of his secret longing and sadness now visible in his eyes.

'Even Jonouchi has someone now and I bet, open and carefree as he is, he's already spent lot's of very intimate nights with Kaiba-kun...'

"Gaaah what I am thinking?" he burst out in shock, shaking his head violently.

'Can't think something like that about my best friend!'

He paused in what he was doing, sighing again.

'But still... somehow I envy him deeply. I mean, what can I tell about my experiences? Some masturbation which feels quite good when my frustrations become too much, that's all. But... even though to masturbate feels nice, and it brings me some pleasure, it's still not enough. I crave for someone who would love me, introduce me into the real world of pleasure. I also want to know how a kiss tastes and what it would feel like to have the lips of my lover on my skin. Also, is the feeling of making love so wonderful that people don't care about the love itself anymore and just sleep with a stranger because they like it? Is it okay to have sex just for fun?'

Yuugi shook his head, trying to clear some of the confusion his thinking had led him to. Instead, he tried to concentrate on the form of his profile. He had already decided that he would not add a photo to the page. Not because he was afraid to show a picture of himself in the Internet, especially on such a page.

It was more because he didn't want to risk people again judging him from his looks. What he wanted was to get to know people and be getting known himself just by finding out more about interests, preferences and personality.

So, a picture was out of question. He'd already noticed that he was not to give his real name or address. Just the name of the town and the country, so that others were able to see if he was living near their place of residence. That much he was willing to give out, even though he wasn't planning on accepting any invitation he may get. He just wanted to look through the details of the other profiles and maybe find someone he could talk to, ask all the questions he had.

Finally, after filling out nearly the whole form only one thing was missing. He needed a nickname. Thinking it over, he tried to settle on something fitting.

'It should not point out my real name,' he mused. 'But also it should give a hint of what I like. Now, what do I like most? Games of course... so... how about...'

He typed in what had come into his mind.

G-A-M-E-R

'Gamer' sounded like a good name, after all he was a gambler. 'King of Games' was his reputation here in Japan where he lived. But to have Gamer as a nickname surely wouldn't point that out. It was just showing that he loved games a lot, that he liked to play.

Satisfied with his chosen name, he clicked onto the 'save' button and seconds later there was an announcement informing and welcoming him as a new member of sexdating.com.

Yuugi blushed a little at reading this, still trying to comprehend the fact that he really had joined this page now. After his mind had become a little clearer again, he gazed over the site thoughtfully.

'Well, what now? Try to search for someone who would answer my questions?'

Still a little unsure, he clicked onto the link for the search engine and decided on what he was looking for. He only defined that he was looking for males and females alike and that they had to be between 18 and 25. Country, look and anything else didn't matter, since he wasn't planing on meeting someone anyway.

Since he hadn't defined a lot of things, his hit list turned out huge. A little overwhelmed by how many people around his age had joined such a page, he started to look over the profiles. A lot of them had a photo shown and he noted that especially the girls liked to show off their naked upper body.

Ignoring such profiles right now, he finally decided to look over the profile of a 20 year old man, whose sexual preferences were set on bisexual. Opening the more detailed profile of this person, he went over the description that the person had written.

Yuugi himself hadn't written much when he'd filled out his profile. Just a short;

'Hi, I am new here and just like to look around a bit and have some questions answered.'

He hadn't exactly known what to write there. So, curious about what other people would write, he read the description about the 20 year old man.

'Hi at all you sweet bunnies and hot guys out there. I hope you feel lust like I do and are ready for a hot and unforgettable experience. I know I am and I'm waiting for you. I am open for everything, I like the S/M games most though. So, contact me and let's see how much fun we can have. Peace'

Yuugi shuddered and left the profile immediately. S/M in a sexual relationship? Nope, even though he had had his own fantasies about how it would be, that was never a part of his little dreams. He couldn't understand how people could enjoy something like that.

He went over some more profiles, sometimes even daring to open some of the women's profiles now. But most of the descriptions he found there didn't exactly invite him to talk to those people and bother them with his questions.

There were descriptions like,

'Hey have sex with me!'

'Mail me and we can have some fuck.'

'Sex yes, relationship no. Contact me now and I give you the fuck of your life.'

Now a little disturbed, Yuugi tried out another tactic. He added to his search 'people with pictures only' and looked over the new results. There were a few less people now, but still enough and this time he tried out the people whose pictures were less revealing and erotic and more harmless. Finally deciding on a young man his age standing in front of a table, smiling. He opened the detailed description.

'Hey sweeties out there. I am young and still need to learn a lot about life. This also counts for the matter of sex. So I am searching for young women or even men who would be willing to teach me about the most beautiful pleasure of life. One-night-stands or ongoing relationships, I am open for everything.'

This sounded a little less sex crazy, but still somehow Yuugi felt too shy to contact that man, although a smiley note at the top of the profile stated that this person was online and open to chat with.

He went on looking around, finding some more profiles with the same kind of more formal descriptions.

'Waiting for contact. Wouldn't mind a ongoing or even permanent relationship. Let's see what this leads into. :)'

'Spontaneous, flexible, curious and open for everything. Fun is most important. So, if you like to have fun as well, please contact me, I would be happy to hear from you.'

Sighing, Yuugi went on. Even though this sounded a lot nicer now, he still wasn't sure if the people would appreciate him contacting them and asking his questions. So he went on. For over an hour he looked over profiles, sometimes even becoming curious and bold enough to take a look over the photo gallery some people had arranged.

He stopped that immediately though when he stumbled upon a picture of a 25 old man showing his proud erection in a picture. Sure, being a male himself this wasn't the first time Yuugi had seen a naked man. But there was a difference with it being after a sports lesson with all the boys taking a much needed shower to being shown on a page where people were searching for other people to have sex with.

Finally deciding that this wouldn't bring him a person to question, he decided on one last try. While looking over the profiles, he had noted another option this page had to offer. There were a list of favorites stated. He was able to choose the 50 most favorite males, females and couples.

Maybe if those people were that approved, he would be able to find a person who sounded congenially safe enough to talk with. Having gotten back some hope, he decided to first take a look at the females. But after going through the first ten profiles, he decided that he would never be comfortable enough to ask his questions of a female.

So he went back and tried his luck with the males. Going through the first few profiles as well, he noted that people seemed to have a really different opinion from what to favor. Some people were simply good looking and had not really descriptions to offer. Other were again more in the category of

'I am hot, contact me and let's fuck!'

And then there were again the nicer sounding descriptions like

'Hey I am 20, well built and looking for a chance to have a nice time with you. So contact me and let's see if we can meet.'

But still, it was not much different from what he had already looked over before. Still determined to go on this time though, he started debating with himself if he should maybe try out the couples section, if he couldn't find a promising person again. However, there was no need to think that over any longer.

The first thing which caught his eye about the profile was the name.

'Egyptian Dreamer'

Someone who either seemed to be from Egypt, or at last liked that country a lot. Yuugi himself loved Egypt. His Jii-chan had been an archaeologist when he was younger and lots of the stuff he'd found was still in the attic of the house. Since he was little, Yuugi had loved to rummage through the stuff together with his Jii-chan and later alone. The most fascinating stuff he had ever found though was from Egypt and that was the start of a deep love of that country.

He had even been to Cairo in his holidays and that was the most exciting and unforgettable journey he had ever made. I had caused him to fall in love with the country and culture even deeper.

So, someone with a connection to Egypt certainly got his attention. Maybe he would be able to engage in some small talk with that person to loosen the conversation? With a now pounding heart, he opened the more detailed profile and hoped against hope that the text wouldn't turn out to be too disturbing this time.

Instead of the text, the next thing that caught his eye was the photo. Blood red, burning eyes were staring at him, seeming to be so near the camera that he was able to see the reflection of the flashlight in those eyes, giving them an even more thrilling and mysterious look.

Yuugi was immediately able to understand why people would choose this person as their favorite. Those eyes were bewitching. It was a really good idea of this person to not show a picture of his whole head or body, but instead, just his eyes. They were like a magnet. And they left you curious about the rest of this person. How would he look? What would he be like?

Forcing himself to stop staring at those eyes, he concentrated back on the description he had intended to read. Egyptian Dreamer was 18 years old, just like him and Yuugi even noted that their heights were not that much different either. He couldn't help but chuckle at this.

'I am currently enjoying the sun and beauty of Egypt and I wouldn't mind if there was someone out there who would like to enjoy the beauty of the land together with me. Ever tried to let you senses float with the magic of this land? Allow the beauty of the pyramids at sundown to bewitch your mind and awaken feelings and cravings inside you? Would you like to live out those fantasies with someone now? I am willing to teach you and I am open for everything. If you have further questions, you can always ask me. I won't bite, at least not unless you ask for it. *chuckles*
Meet you in Cairo hopefully?'

Sighing in slight envy, Yuugi smiled at the profile of Egyptian Dream.

'I would like to be in Egypt as well now. However, this person really sounds like... he seems to like this land a lot and this description doesn't sound too bad. Maybe... this is what I am looking for. Never has a profile gotten my attention as much as this one has. This idea to show his eyes only, hell his eyes alone and then this beautiful description. If he were my boyfriend currently on holiday in Egypt, writing me a mail like this, I think I would really jump into the next plane to get there and share what he had to offer.'

"Oh my god, what I am thinking!" he whispered to himself and before he could help it he became deep red. To distract himself, he took a look at the sign that showed the online status of members. He didn't know if he should call it luck or doom, but Egyptian Dreamer was currently online.

With now shaking hands, he guided his mouse over to the place where he was able to start a personal chat with the other. But for a long time he was not able to click on it. He was nervous, afraid even.

'What if he thinks I am stupid? What if he expects me to have sex with him? I just want to ask him some questions, nothing more. But... it can't turn out that bad, can it?'

He collected himself and finally clicked on the button to open the chat window. But now he halted again. So far, the other would not know that he was about to write him a message and he felt himself starting to shake again.

'Wow, I never thought I could be this afraid about something. Hell this is just a stupid chat, the person is far away from me, nearly at the other end of the world. He doesn't know me and even if he starts laughing at me, I can just shut down the stupid window and pretend this never happened.'

Taking a deep breath, he typed in his greeting message to the other and clicked the 'send' button before he was able to have doubts again.

'Gamer: You like Egypt?'

TBC...