Undesired Love

I decided wit with the mood I am in, I didn't want a happy ending, sooooo this fic came from it. Don't flame me, it will only piss me off to make me write more death fics.

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh, if I did there would be a lot more boy on boy action then dueling.

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Undesired Love


He sat behind his desk, in his huge office, of the company he owned. The one and only great Seto Kaiba sat in his office, a glass of liquor in his left hand, in his other a pen. Piercing blue eyes staring down at a stark white piece of paper. The only thing wrote at the top was, ‘To who finds this letter.’ Lifting the crystal glass up to his lips, he tilted it and took a rather large drink from the glass finishing what was left of the brown liquid. That was the third glass he had finished in the past half an hour.

Throwing the pen down onto the table, he lifted the half empty bottle and poured himself another drink, almost spilling it in the process. Lifting it to his lips again, he closed his eyes, taking another deep drink. It was October 25th…and his 18th birthday. It was his last year in school, he would soon be able to just focus his time on his brother and his company, but that wasn’t even on his mind, a certain blond individual was…

Ever since he had seen the blond mutt he had been intrigued but always had something else on his mind that kept him busy and over the years he had decided that he had to tell the other his feelings as they had developed into more then just infatuation…but what the reaction was, was not what he had expected.

***Flashback***

The bell just rang and class just got out, but he was already waiting by his locker, his puppy’s locker. He knew that Jou would come alone, he had his locker close by and he always came by alone, it was outside that him and his group of friends met.

It didn’t take long for the loud mouthed blond to come running down the hall, but once blue met brown, the blond stopped in his tracks.

“Whatcha want moneybags?” Jou asked with a soft growl.

Seto had expected this kind of reaction and took a deep breath, glancing at the others that were looking at them before passing by, it was a normal thing to see the two go at each others throats, and it didn’t phase the other students anymore. Finally settling his gaze down upon his brown eyed puppy he spoke.

“Jou, I just want to speak to you…somewhere less crowded.” Seto replied in his normal cold tone, but for once he didn’t call Jou a canine.

Blinking Jou looked at Kaiba before moving to his locker, throwing his things inside before closing it. He was a bit confused as to what this was all about but he motioned for Seto to move forward so they could go somewhere else.

Nodding Seto turned, his trademark trench coat flaring out behind him, as the two walked down the hallway not gaining much attention as they did so. They moved toward the cafeteria, knowing no one would be there at this time, especially since class just got out. Once they arrived there Jou was the first to speak.

“Okay whatcha want Kaiba? I don’t have time for this.” Jou replied impatiently placing his hands upon his hips staring at Kaiba’s back.

Taking yet another deep breath he turned around to look at Jthe the hardness and cold stare gone from him. He was opening himself up to the one that he felt he cared about, and he had to take the chance to tell him before he never saw the blond again.

“Jou, just shut up and listen.” Kaiba started turning his azure gaze into the honey brown, loosing himself in them for a moment. He couldn’t think of a way to tell him, so he did the only thing he could think of.

Moving forward toward Jou till they were standing an inch from each other, Seto tilted his head down, hesitating for a moment before pressing their lips together in a gentle kiss. At first Jou didn’t react, his eyes only widening in surprise before he responded to the kiss. Almost immediately Seto took control of the kiss, slipping his tongue from his own mouth and licking against Jou’s lips.

They continued this for a few moments before Jou pulled himself back, obviously gaining his senses. He watched a stunned Kaiba for a moment before running the baf hif his hand over his mouth.

“What the fuck Kaiba? What the hell was that about?” Jou basically yelled, “Ya know what rich boy, fuck you, thinking ya can take whatever ya want. Well reality check, ya can’t! I‘m not gay Kaiba, and I hate you! I always will!”

Before Kaiba could say a word, Jou turned and ran from the cafeteria, leaving a shocked Seto to stand in the middle of the room.

***End Flashback***

Frowning at the memory, of how good the others lips felt against his skin, how perfect it felt to him, only to have the cruel words thrown into his face. He had hoped that Jou would return the feelings he held, but they weren’t.

Turning he threw the glass of liquor against the opposite wall, cursing himself for his weak feelings before picking up his pen. He began to write, but he really didn’t understand what he was writing, he was too stuck up on his puppy, and how he couldn’t have him no matter what. That shattered the last bit of self-esteem he had for himself. Sure he held himself above others, even acted like he was the best thing that had ever graced the planet, but that was all an act, a cold act he had learned since he had been adopted.

Finally finishing his letter, he signed his name and once again threw his pen onto the table, not caring about it, he wouldn’t need it. Standing up from his chair and then picking up his bottle, he proceeded to walk toward the double doors leading out of his office.

Ever since his adoption, not one thing could go right for him. His stepfather beat him day in and day out, among other things that he refused to even let surface in his thoughts. Every boyfriend or girlfriend he had, didn’t love him, just wanted him for his money or the fame that went with it. He even had some that treated him like his stepfather had, which he didn’t take a liking to. They ended up in the same place the bastard Gozobouro did.

Stepping out into the dark hallway, he glanced around before taking a long drink from his bottle. Sluggishly moving toward the elevator he pressed the up button to signal the machine that he wanted to go up. Perhaps if he had been paying any attention he would have seen there was movement on the elevator already.

As the elevator chimed and the doors opened Kaiba started to walk into the elevator car before stopping, the blond that had been on his mind was standing their ackwardly, and jumped once he saw the drunk Kaiba before him. Neither said a word for a long time, but Kaiba was the first to speak this time.

“What the hell do you want, mutt?” then added his cold glare, he didn’t want to see him at the moment, “Here to throw more hateful words into my face? To mock me for opening myself up? Filthy mutt, get out of my face, I have business to take care of.”

Turning toward the stairs, really not wanting to climb up them but he was close enough ts des destination he didn’t really care, not like he would care in a few minutes anyway.

“Kaib wait.” Jou called out, reaching to take a hold of Seto’s arm.

Kaiba jerked his hand away from the blond before turning to stare into the honey eyes before turning toward the elevator seeing that it was now empty of the blond and entered it pressing the top most floor, the roof.

“I..I wanted to tell you that I was sorry, I shouldn’t have reacted like that.” Jou pleaded trying to enter the elevator car.

Growling Seto shoved Jou away pressing the door close button, only yelling right before the doors closed, “Fuck off.” He was much too drunk at the moment to think of anything but what he wanted to do.

Jou sat stunned as the doors completely closed. Waiting for the elevator to stop, seeing that it stopped on the roof, he turned and ran toward the stairs Seto had just a moment ago, dashing up them as fast as he could.

Seto stepped out of the elevator as soon as the doors had opened and pushed open the door that lead out into the cold night air of night. Staring up at the stars that twinkled in the distance, he growled and tossed the bottle he held in his hand to the side, before slipping up to the edge of his building, glancing down toward the silent street below. The air caused his coat to flow out behind him, causing an old Seto smirk to appear on his lips, the brown hair whipping away from his face as he spread his arms out to his side like a bird about to take flight.

Just at the moment Jou pushed through the doors, stumbling out a bit, staring at Kaiba.

“No!” Jou yelled loudly, starting to run toward Seto

Turning his head just a bit seeing the worried expression on Jou’s face and even something else he couldn’t make out, but it was too late, he had already pushed himself forward and was starting to fall downward toward the street underneath him.

Jou ran over to the edge, trying to reach out toward Seto to grab any part of him he could but he couldn’t, he only grasped air as he watched the scream less Seto fall toward the street, even watched as the body collided onto the pavement.

Screaming loudly, Jou began to cry, leaning over the edge staring down at the now lifeless body of the one he truly loved as well. He had come to Kaiba Corp. to talk to Seto to see if he was not pulling a joke on him, to make sure that it wasn’t some fucked up prank.

Laying against the edge for what seemed like hours, which was in fact only a few minutes, he slowly stood almost falling over himself but he somehow made it down toward Kaiba’s office again, and he picked up the phone and called 911 to report what had happened before resting the phone back on its cradle.

Falling into Seto’s seat he stared blankly at the desk before him, seeing the letter Seto had written before leaping off the building.

Lifting it up Jou began to read the writing:

To whoever finds this letter,

I the great Seto Kaiba, have decided to end my miserable life. I couldn’t take anything anymore. From my abusive stepfather, who received the same fate I did by the time you read this, who I pushed to his death, it was no accident that he fell out of the Kaiba Corp office. To all the superficial people that only wanted my money and fame and not the real Seto Kaiba, some of which are now missing people, although I only know what has become of them. And lastly to my beautiful golden puppy, whom I loved with all my heart, and only to be rejected and insulted. I had hoped that if I had told him, my love would be returned but it wasn’t. I had hoped that there was some hope for me, in him, but there wasn’t.
I give all my assests to my little brother Mokuba Kaiba. He is old enough to take care of himself by now and he knows everything about the company so if he chooses so he has all right to run the company.
Signed,
Seto Kaiba

Jou read the letter a few times, mostly the part that mentioned him, not believing any of it. In the distance he could hear sirens approaching signaling that they would soon find Seto dead, laying on his back in the middle of the road.

Laying the letter back on the desk for another to find at a later date, he walked out of the office, his eyes red from tears that wouldn’t stop. Before closing the office, he whispered five soft words, “Seto…I love you too.”

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I know it was a pretty sucky story, but I wasn't in a great mood so I wrote it. Review if you want.